maybe it's the alcohol that's talking...

goodbye blogspot..

2006-05-11T10:49:00.001+08:00

I've decided to cancel my blogspot account and permanently move to LIVEJOURNAL. Blogspot will always have a place in my heart.. :D

Of course, I cannot just make my old memories rot here, as much as I can I will try to transfer them over to Livejournal for safekeeping.

It's been fun!

My livejournal URL is: http://groovygemie.livejournal.com

tootles everyone! =)

Farewell to Blogspot! :D

goodbye blogspot..

2006-05-11T10:49:00.000+08:00

tagaytay

2006-04-29T08:27:00.000+08:00

We're going to Tagaytay today! :D It's actually a semi-impromptu thing and we don't really know where we're going after we get the special buko pie we ordered at the place where I had my 4th year retreat. :)

God, I miss the taste of that buko pie.. and I miss the whole place as well. It would definitely bring back so many high school memories. :D It's going to be Kevin's first time to be there and I must say i'm quite excited to bring him there.

I'm happy that we're going out often. I mean, not like the past summers. All I do is bum around the house. I love going out nowadays.

Buko Pie here I coooooommmeee! xD

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Rent Rent Rent

One of the scenes that I love so much is this:

This is weird..
It's weird..
Very Weird..
Fuckin' Weird..

the tango Maureen,
it's a dark dizzy merry-go-round
as she keeps you dangling
it's your heart she's mangling..

:D

great great!

2006-04-28T19:23:00.000+08:00

Through gritted teeth.

I have braces now. Thanks to my soon to be sister-in-law who's actually a dentist, she gave me these metal thingamjigs. Actually, I don't have any problem with my teeth. I think they're fine, it's just that my mom, being the OC that she is, she wants to make my teeth look really good. Hence, the braces.

When I was younger, I thought braces were like a fucking status or something. You know, people who wears them just wants to show off their buckets and buckets of money. Hey, I'm a Conyo kid pare, I wear these fucking BRASHESH to look more conyo. Duuuuuude, they hurt my fucking gums, pare.

Eyng?

Maybe I am right one way or the other, but definitely not a hundred percent. Braces makes your life a teeny bit harder. Like food getting stuck in places that are so hard to reach that my tongue gets a lot of excercise nowadays. eyuch. excuse me.

and did I mention that for a couple of days I had a lisp?! a sanamagan LISP for crying out loud. there's always this irritating SSSHHH sound in some of my sentencesh. yep, there goes another one.

Good thing I got rid of that.

and it hurts like hell. reaaaallly. but i'm okay now, I guess. Nasanay na lang din siguro ako sa kakakagat ng pagkain na matitigas. hahaa! ;P I don't really know until when I have to wear them but I just hope they don't get in the way of anything important. Whatever it is.

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EbeJalMitch.

I don't know if that was a Monday or a Tuesday but I was able to see Sugarfree on Okay Fine Whatever. I was so shocked to see that Jal was sporting a new 'do (is it just me, or is it really new? haha)and Ebe has long hair and Mitch looks the same. :p

Ganon na ba talaga ako katagal hindi nanonood ng gig? Iba na mga itsura nila from the last time I saw them. It just felt weird.

Nevertheless, I was ecstatic to see them even on TV. I miss them so much. :(

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New.

A couple of days back, my mom craved for ice cream out of the blue. I thought she only wanted to buy from the grocery but she wanted to go to the Magnolia resto in Aurora Blvd.

Gosh.

Magnolia in Aurora? Mukhang classic a. Classic in the sense that I havent been there for ages. As in AGES. I was having second thoughts of going there since the last time that I did, I felt as if I was in this really big and old freezer. But since of course, my mom wanted to go, I had no choice.

Lo and behold, the facade deceived me. ANG GANDA NA SA LOOB. seryoso. It was so fashionably 2006. Really. From the menu to the tables and chairs, it was fantastically renovated. It was NEW. They opened just this April 19 or something.

and my goodness the FOOD IS AWESOME. Not only do they have ice cream and ice cream cakes, they have pastas and pizzas and sandwiches that are definitely mouth watering.

I can't help but take pictures of the whole place. The ambience is lively, maybe because of the colors they picked for the whole place. It's definitely a fun fun experience. AND I think you should go there too. :)

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Basketball.

I miss watching the PBA. I miss Ginebra.

Note to self: watch a game live. Preferrably Ginebra vs. Talk n Text. :D

Ooohh, speaking of which, is anyone aware that DENNIS RODMAN's here? :) cool huh. I think he's going to have a book signing in Fully Booked Gateway. Just not sure when.

hmm..I wanna see him.

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Everything is on hold for me as of the moment.
My future is yet to unveil itself to me in the next few weeks.
I hope it turns out well.

rub-a-dub-dub

2006-04-25T11:11:00.000+08:00

The pain in the ass is over.

Thesis has been one of those things that older people would threaten me when I was about to enter college. They would tell me stories about their own experiences about how they had so much cramming to do and how pressured they were and how much sleep they got during those times. I might say it was fucking TERRIBLE and it scared the shit out of me.

Now that my own thesis is over and done with, I guess it was both preposterous and fun at the same time.

I mean, from the very beginning, we already had a hard time choosing which thesis topic we liked to center on. We wanted something interesting and new and most of all, we wanted something that we really like. Hence, we chose the field of music. To make the long story short, it was forever until we finally got to the bottom of our thesis topic.

...AND THEN WE HAD TO MAKE CHAPTERS ONE THROUGH FIVE.

THAT was difficult.

Soc and I would either do our thesis together in LaPis or at the same time at home. Yes people, we actually survived not having overnights in each other's house. I guess we knew deep inside that we can NEVER do anything inside my house (or hers) in the middle of the night except LAUGH, TALK and yes, SLEEP.

But I guess everything was ALL worth it. every word, every sentence, every paragraph. Every fucking one and a half hours interview that we transcribed. Every edit, every paraphrase, every deleted part, every single revision. Every single thing was all worth it.

Most especially when we saw the great transformation of our drafts to our BABY over here:

Isn't that beautiful or what? We never really expected that our thesis would be this thick. We just made it a point to do whatever our mentor and our (damn you!) reader told us to do.

Even though I felt good about that we already finished thesis and defense, I just can't help dissing our reader. SHE SUCKS BIG TIME! During defense, she was all grouchy at us. She kept on interrupting our powerpoint presentation and making rather pesky comments about why we did this or that. Goes to show that everything we did that she questioned was OKAY. Other groups has the same thing (e.g. the NEW conceptual framework on Chapter 4) and their readers were okay with it. Bwisit siya. We deserve a higher grade! gaddeeeemiiit. I wanted to die when I found out about it. Sayang lang e, we could've gotten our grades up.
Hambalos ko sa kanya tong hardbound e.

LESSONS LEARNED/REALIZATIONS while doing THESIS:

1. Even though you don't get to meet up with your mentor/adviser, do certain parts (of the thesis) that you feel is already needed--that's called INITIATIVE.

Mentor: SINONG NAGSABING BAWIN NIYO 'TO??!!!
Kami: uhm...err..sir, kasi..uh..eyng?
Mentor: SINOOOOOOOOOOO!? *growls like King Kong on uh, well, King Kong*
Kami: uh... *starts to cry*

2. People you don't really know becomes an instant part of your life. They become this extension of you and they support your every single comment and judgment. You're like e-mail and chat buddies cause you haven't seen each other.

Like for us, Mr. HAGMAN has made our lives easier but we never really know what he looks like. Sino nga naman si Hagman diba? Wala naman akong pakeelam sa kanya kung di siya importante e. Pero chums na kami ngayon.

An excerpt:
"Additionally, Langer (As cited in Hagman, 2005), adds that the music created by musicians reflect one's own heart, self-experience and are not limited only to the emotions felt by people."

I mean literally, we have like TONS of HAGMAN citations in our revlit. He's the best. :D I'm actually finding his picture right now on the internet to see how he looks like. I haven't had much of the time before to look for him, but I can now.

Okay, wala siyang picture. haha. :p

3. The USB and journal articles are your BESTFRIENDS.

4. Sense of humor makes everything in order. It actually helps. We don't get pressured at all..well, not all of the time. :)

5. For me, Y breaks gives me an added boost. :p

baguio!

2006-04-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

Road trip.

I arrived from Cebu last Monday and went to Bataan Tuesday evening to attend Glenise's 2nd birthday. Here we are now at Got Hub? Internet Cafe in SM Baguio. haha!

Total road trip it is. xP

I'm with Kevin by the way. God, how I missed him. I'm just so glad we're together again. I can't even stand being away with him anymore...

er. total cheesy talk alert.

=)

We're checked in at the Camp John Hay Manor with my mom, kuya Bon and her uber-nice girlfriend, ate Roba. oh yes. we're one big happy family!

Nasa internet cafe kami ni Kevin dahil kailangan niyang mag-edit ng kanyang thesis. o diba? talk about being studious. :p But it's alright, I understand him. I mean, I got to experience that too.

hmm..
I don't if it's really appropriate to say this here but my Goodness, I am so happy with him right now. I admit, we do have some difficult times but most of it is just pure bliss. I'm really so happy with him and I know that he is with me too. It's as if I'm falling for him over and over again every single day.

sigh.

aylavet!

:D

and im off to Cebu!

2006-04-12T00:36:00.000+08:00

..and the summer begins.

Oh yes people, I'm practically superduper excited to fly off to Cebu later! :D Mi familia will spend the whole of Holy Week there and most likely do some bisita iglesia and enjoy the sun, sand and sea!

ooooh boy. My first beach trip this summer.

boohoo though, I'm gonna miss Kevin. :( His family on the other hand will go to Baguio while we're on Cebu. So, we're definitely miles apart. South to North. grrreeeat.

But I guess we do need some time away from each other too and this is basically it. We just have to think about the past 6 months and the coming months ahead. It's definitely a reflective time for the both of us. We've been through quite a lot and we've been taking everything seriously with our relationship and..

okay. I'm blabbering again. zzzzziiiiiipppp.

Bottomline, we have time away from each other in order for us to fully appreciate what we have and cherish it. :D

(and this is the part where everyone says, aaaaawwww..)

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No Day But Today.

Jonathan Larson, may you rest in peace but by God, you are one talented little ....

I watched Rent the movie (by Christopher Columbus, who by the way, directed the first two Harry Potter films) and I fell in love with every single bit of it in an instant. I was only a Seasons of Love fan, but I never really knew that the whole broadway musical was fantabulous-o. I mean, goodness. It's fantastic. What more if it's actually on broadway?? as in the musical itself??

Thanks to Kevin, he gave me the oppurtunity to appreciate Rent. :) He actually has this double disc thingie of the whole musical. I can't get enough of it! It's practically a staple part of my iPod already. I just loooooooove the songs, the lyrics..the people who played the characters. They're all so chraming and interesting in their own way. :D

Kung ikaw, hindi mo pa napapanood, YOU have to watch it. :D hehe. Grab a fake DVD copy of it first (okay, Bad Influ) BUT throw it away when the ORIGINAL DVD copy is released already. Ang saya e.

...I can now say that i'm a certified Rent-head. :D

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Finished

Ooh.
Just want to inform everyone that YES, I am now finished with college. :) *sabog confetti*
My friends and I are just waiting for the college rites on June and voila!
we're all certified graduates and unemployed.
hahaha.
funny.
:D

Soc and I got our thesis on hardbound already. how cool is thaaaaat? :p
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Californiaaaaaaa.

Just finished watching The O.C. Season 3 episodes 1 to 8.
hah. :p
Wala na kasing ginagawa e. hahaha. oh the life. I loooooove it. xP
Now it's Kevin's turn to do the O.C. marathon!
I have episodes 10 to 16 with me!!! *dancedance* I guess there's plenty of time to watch those while waiting to board. :D

oh geez. I miss Kevin already. :(

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Catching up.

I just hope there's wi-fi or whateverish in our hotel so I could still update my blog/lj. I miss doing things like these. People from LJ has been adding me up. hahaha. I don't really know some of them but well, hello there. :D You are all welcome to take a peek into my silly randominity (okay, gumawa ng sariling salita diba? haha). tss. whatever.

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Half a year mark, baby. :)

Kevin and I won't be in each others arms (blech. what the hell?) on our monthsary this April. tsktsktsk. How sad, no? It's even our half a year mark already. haha.

Does that even matter to any couple nowadays? egaaaad.

Anyhoo, advanced 6th monthsary to us. :D *iloveyou* :D

MUSH ALL AROUND.

FEEL IT!!!!

:p

5 weeks?!

2006-03-28T10:32:00.000+08:00

Motherfudger.

Has it been that loooooong? FIVE FRUGGIN' WEEKS of not updating!? How can that be? I mean, was I that busy the whole time?

...

uh. yeah. I guess so.

Basically, all I did during those times that I literally was not able to update is this:

- Finished my practicum at McDonald's Philippines.
- Finished Community service at Tahilan ("oh, i'll give you four!")
- Did chapters 3, 4 and 5 of our thesis and revised them 22142354343 times.
- Studied for tests.
- Did powerpoint presentations for reportings.
- Finished Case Study for practicum.

haha. What a loser! What. A. Loser. (does a mighty letter L using thumb and index finger on forehead) Just like what Yael told me, nilalaman na daw siya ng thesis niya. Amen to that my friend, amen to that.

Finally, I have the time to catch up with everyone. How is everyone doing lately? :D

So, what do you guys want to know?

aha. hmm..

oh oh oh. Yeah.

Kevin and I went to the 2nd day of the WWE Raw tour last February (?) It was cool, pyrotechnics and everything! I saw so many La Sallian guys from my college who came and watched too. Even if we just got tickets for Upper B, I still managed to get pictures. If only my camera could talk, minura na niya ako sa kaka-pilit kong i-zoom siya.

Honestly, I'm not a big wrestling fan for the past couple of years. I only got into it when I was still in high school. hmm..the likes of X-Pac and Road Dogg, The Rock and Austin, the time wherein Kane and Undertaker was still finding the truth about whether or not they're siblings. haha. oh yes, that was a long time ago. :p

John Cena and Edge's match was the boooooomb. 'nuff said.

Good enough, I was once again exposed to the wrestling scene and liked it. I liked Carlito and Mick Foley's match when they went here. Laughtrip kasi e and both of them were so cute--in a teddy bear-ish kind of way.

EGAAAAHD. What the hell am I saying? Wrestlers? Cute? in a teddy bear-ish kind of way!? ano to?!

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Bente na ako.

Believe it or not, I celebrated my birthday for three days. Yep. That's right. THREE DAYS. Isn't that great? :) I can say that after my 18th birthday, this is the second most memorable birthday ever. For one thing, this is my first time to actually be with someone on my birthday. :D mucho fantastico, baby! :D

I had a pre-celebration birthday at Elbow Room, Metrowalk with a handful of my closes friends. Most of them from DLSU and I only invited 4 of my OBMC barkada. It was soooo much fun! We spent the whole night doing videoke, playing billiards and just eating since I requested for a buffet instead of an ala carte type of dinner. I was so happy since I saw how my friends enjoyed the intimate party I just planned three days before (because of fruggin' thesis. bleck.)

On the day of my birthday, March 12, I was with Kevin the whole time and we had mass together. My mom, tita Norma, ate Wendy, Kevin and I ate at Kimpura in Greenhills. We didn't do much, we just made it a point to be together.
What's cute, we wore matching shirts that day. :p

Lastly, I had a post-birthday dinner with my whole family at Manila Peninsula. My dad requested to move the family celebration to Monday since he was out of town the whole weekend. My uncle Raffy, aunt Jocelyn and my kuya's girlfriend, ate Roba was there too! Gaaawd. The food was excellent. They even surprised me with a happy birthday song and a cake afterwards. haha. :D

After dinner, my dad still joined me, Kevin, my mom and tita Norma to have a little dessert at the Manila Penn lobby. Natuwa ako kasi kahit na mukhang pagod na yung dad ko, hindi parin siya nauna na umuwi sa bahay. He still stayed there with us and told stories about tons of things (actually, I just forgot what he talked about. nyaha.)

After dessert, my dad went on his way home while we waited for mom's car from the valet people. While we were waiting, Imelda Marcos made her way out of the hotel and waited alongside us. My mom and my tita, being a Marcos loyalist eversince, rushed to her and greeted her. :p ang kulit. She was so nice. She was so charismatic..in every sense of the word. By Goodness. I was awed by her presence. I mean, really.

In retrospect, I don't even feel like i'm 20. I sort of had this notion when I was younger that if I turned 20, I would feel different and actually be different. But somehow, I don't feel any drastic change. It's as if i'm still the same old chubbygrubby kid who likes thumbsucking and watching Batibot and Annaluna. ;p I don't complain or anything, maybe because I just had this clear mindset that everything would just be totally different when I turn 20. Weird.

I shall leave you my friends, with an abrupt ending. My freaking back is killing me.

eto na...

2006-02-17T06:04:00.000+08:00

Stolen.

I have been posting a number of times for the past few weeks but I never actually mentioned what happened to me a couple of weeks back.

My Ipod photo got stolen. *gasps*

Oh yes. My 1-year old Ipod got stolen on a school day. Okay so maybe I'm such a dumb-ass that I wasn't really looking over my things but screw it. I know it's all my fault but screw it! I mean, how can these people actually sleep at night? How can they actually use something that belongs to a freaking stranger!? My god. How can they actually take it, looking at all those pictures in my iPhoto library!? Que Horror.

nyurnk.

I think I lost my Ipod around last week of January I think and when I found out that it was stolen, I cried like a baby in front of all these people. I just sat there crying with all these people looking at me--staring at me in fact with curious looks on their faces. Literally, para akong bata. Para akong batang inagawan ng candy at tinutuya-tuya ng mga kalaro. I think I wasn't even crying..I was fruggin' bawling. hahaha. Ganoon kasama, ganoon katindi. The impact was unbelievable that I was both shocked and angry.

...and scared as well. The first thing that actually struck me when I saw that my Ipod got stolen was this: "P*t*ang*na. Patay ako sa nanay ko!!!" *gags for air*

I knew right then and there that my mom would freak out. It was her Christmas gift last 2004 and it would be really hard for here to swallow what has happened. I mean, money doesn't grow on trees! It's hard-earned money. I knew that..Alam ko naman yun e.. but why wasn't I careful enough? :(

And so, to make the long story short, sinabon ako ng husto ng nanay ko and she actually cried over it. I understood her completely because I knew how painful it was for her to find out that my dad's hard-earned money and her frequent saving-no matter how hard it is to save nowadays-was the reason why I actually have the Ipod..or HAD it. Damnit.

Somehow, we've all gotten over it but the frequent nagging and frequent reminders of always taking care of my things are getting out of hand. Hindi ko naman kagustuhan na manakawan ako e. Madami na lang talagang mahirap ngayon at sakim sa gamit na magara. Pasensya na, I may sound really off but how else can I say it? Kung mayaman lang naman talaga siya at kaya niyang bumili nun, di niya pagiinteresan ang gas-gas ko ng Ipod.

We've had so many great memories together (hiyeees, parang tao!) and I will truly miss my Ipod. Sana mabingi yung nagnakaw nun para di niya ma-enjoy. Hayup siya.

BUT ENOUGH OF THE DRAMA..

My mom, seeing the subconscious longing (hiyeeees!) for another mp3 player, she bought me another one as a Valentine gift. We even bought Kevin one too. :)

Eto sigurado, I will definitely, definitely take care of this one (not that I never actually took care of the other one). Hindi ko na kayang mawala pa 'to sa akin. Over na no!

Get it? Na no? :p

hahaha. Corny.

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Zaturnna (huuuh!)

I watched Zsazsa Zaturnnah (ze muzikal) last week and by God.. It was one of the funniest (as in fuh-neeh-yest!) plays/shows/theatrical chuva I've ever watched in my entire life..As if, ang tanda ko na e no? But seriously, my 250php was worth it and I am so willing to watch it again with my other friends who haven't seen the play yet!

For all of you Zaturnnah-ramuses out there, ze muzikal is actually based from Carlo Vergara's gay-oriented comic, Zsazsa Zaturnnah. Yes friends, gawang Pinoy ito. Kahit na conyo ka pa (ahem..hahaha. joke.) pero may sense of humor na Pinoy, ma-eenjoy mo ito. Seryoso. Pero kung conyo ka lang o nagpapaka-conyo..ehe, then get outta here biaaaaattttch. (ay, nang-away?)
:p

I can't even begin to describe the soundtrack!!!! Sobrang ganda ng soundtrack. Lahat gawang Pinoy and I'm just so proud. Hands down to Eula Valdez. My goodness. Love ko na siya. I mean, I never really appreciated her, even though I was awed by her performance as Amor Powers in Pangako Sa'yo..but her performance here is wooohooo! Words cannot capture at all..argh. You just have to watch it!

Basta ang alam ko lang, ang puti ng kili-kili ni Agot at ni Eula. Ang flawless nila. :D

The people who played Ada and Didi were amazing. As in.. uh-mey-zing. Promise. Tanghalang Pilipino people were as always, the bomb. They even inspired me to join their summer workshop at the CCP. haha. I hope I'm still not too old to start. :)

..Maybe another reason why I want to watch again is this:

I want to get my picture taken with her again! hahahaha. I mean come on, I loved the comic, I loved the play, I was satisfied with how Eula played the role of Zsazsa..so I don't deserve this! xP

Sabi ko naman, talo silang lahat, lahat naka-dilat sa picture si Eula pero sa akin naka-pikit. oha! haha. My other friends try to comfort me by saying, "At least hindi ikaw yung naka-pikit!" hahaha. :p Oo nga naman. Why not?

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A text message from someone..

I went to the UP fair last night and I thought this particular someone was avoiding me..so I texted him that I was kinda hurt with what happened..and he replied by saying..

Gem!!! Sorry I wasnt avoiding u was jst sick kaya parang nagpapaka isolate ako (smiley face) i swear to god dont ever think that im avoiding u or something alam m namang love kita eh! Gud nyt (smiley face)

aaawww.. :) guess whooooooooo!!! :D

monday morning..

2006-02-06T05:15:00.000+08:00

First Day.

*yaaaaawn*

in Tagalog, *hikaaaaab*

Now you may ask, what the hell is she doing up so early in the morning?

...

OMFG on a MONDAY!?!?

Yes, guv. On a Monday.

I finally got somewhere to do my practicum for 100 hours.

One Hundred Hours.

(jumps for joy and sings Posible by Rivermaya)

Of course I can do it. Tss. 100 hours is just... 100 hours of early mornings and late afternoon goodbyes with officemates. Naks. Officemates. hahaha! :p

After the gruelling job hunting phase, I FINALLY (Thank God) got in to a good company that needs my help and my *ahem* skills. haha. Since my first few applications to several companies has been sadly ignored (!@(*& them all. joke.), I did a second round in the Makati area and there I found my home sweet home for the 100 hours that i'll be working.

McDonald's Philippines eventually took me in after an initial interview and a little test on my knowledge in Word and Excel. I don't mean to brag but I think they got me amidst the other people who were vying for a slot in the HR department is because of this one incident during the computer test:

Babae: "O, sige, if you can rate your skills using Word from 1 to 5, 5 being the highest.."
Me: "uhh..4? 5 maybe.."
Babae: "What can you do with Word? What do you usually do in school?"
Me: "Usually just documents..you know, like typing for thesis and other paper work that we do in school..text boxes, word art.. sorting.."
Babae: (interrupts) "Ano? Ano ulit? Sorting?????????"
Me: "Uh.. Yes, Sorting."
Babae: "We're talking about Word here ha, baka akala mo Excel.."

> Nabanas talaga ako sa mukha niya because she had that smirk on her face that says, "DUH! EXCEL LANG KAYA ANG MAY SORT! ULUL KA BA? MAS MAGALING AKO SAYO KAYA MAS ALAM KO YAN, YOU PONDSCUM OF A PRACTICUMER.."

..Well, she didn't actually say that but you get my point.

Me: "Opo. Meron po sa Word. Sorting po."
Babae: (Still with that bloody smirk on her face) "Sige nga sige nga. Show me show me."
Me: (Ready to type) "Eh ano po ang iso-sort ko?"
Babae: (gave names) "Jane, Angel.. blahblah"

> after she did this, I then proceeded to look for the sorting icon but wasn't successful in my first few tries. Maybe because I knew she was drilling her eyes on the back of my head gaddemit. How can I possibly concentrate with someone doing that behind you? Buti na lang she went over to Chet, a friend of mine who was also hoping to get a slot at McDonald's. I can't seem to find it in the icon area so I literally went over all the drop down menus (hahahaha) to see where it's placed. Hallelujah, Praise God I saw the sorting icon on the Data menu and did my thing and was overwhelmed because I knew this woman can't look down on me! (slow motion punching fists in the air)

Me: "Excuse me, ma'am? Eto na po.."
Babae: (looks at the monitor at mukhang hindi elibs) "Pakita nga kung paano mo ginawa..sige nga turo mo sakin"
Me: (did the whole process)
Babae: (no expression whatsoever) "Okay let's move on to Excel.."

...and I had that smirk on my face as well.. ;D

Actually, the other HR officer is super nice. I mean, she's soft-spoken and she smiles alot and she's pretty. Okay, i'm not saying that the other one's not at all pretty but..well..fine, yeah she isn't (harharhar).

FYI people, McDonald's Philippines is not a fast-food chain so don't ever ask me for free Big Mac's and Twister Fries.. and no, I don't know yet if they're actually hiding excess stocks of Happy Meal toys in there, but i'll let you know if I find some. :p So anyway, it's not a fast-food chain, but the main office where the paperwork and the hiring and all that chuva takes place.

Nagulat din ako since as soon as I got the call from McDonald's, San Miguel also called me up and asking me to go their for a job interview. To make the long story short (since I am now having my breakfast and updating my blog is no longer my first priority. heehee), I went there, interviewed a bit by some woman named Tere de Guzman from the Marketing dept., she offered to hire me but not do HR work since yes, she's hiring me to do Marketing work and I said no, and then she called someone and she told me to go to the HR department and I waited and I was taken to the wrong person and then to the right person and then I waited and my feet ached so baaaaaad and then I waited and then this woman comes up to me and she asks me to get my resume and tells me that they'll just "call me".. arrggh. hindi ba nakakainis yun?? They could've told me to just f*ck off instead of me going to the HR dept. na napaka-layo to the extent that my feet ached already (READ: kabilang building ang pinuntahan ko para makarating sa HR department. ang saya.)

What are my expectations? Well, I'm hoping i'd do alot of work with Chet and have lots of fun sorting out resumes and stuff. Ayoko lang kasi yung nakatunganga ako doon at walang ginagawa. Edi sana natulog na lang ako hindi na lang pumasok kung ganon din naman ang gagawin ko doon. Mas okay kung mas may ginagawa..na alam ko kung paano gawin instead of not doing anything at magpapansin lang sa mamang guard.

..at sana may gwapo.

hahahaha. Yun ang wish ni Chet at hindi ako...

Bakit ko pa kailangan non, e iisipin ko lang si Kevin ayos na. Naaaakkks. (does the That's My Boy pose with matching kindat). But of course, since you all know that I am a Psychology student, a lot of things goes on at the back of my head..hehe. kidding. :)

...and off I go to work. :)

not this time...

2006-01-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

..and off I go to look for work.

Today was *ugh*. I was supposed to give all of my Practicum introductory letters (with resume and transcript of records, mind you) to the companies that I want to be part of. I'm actually applying for 11 companies and so far I was only able to drop five of them today.

first stop: GMA 7. No offense but I was a bit disappointed with how they "accept" resumes from their applicants. There's actually 2 big transparent plastic boxes and another 2 small ala-Balikbayan boxes just beside their employee entrance. ngaaak. The hell with that. I mean, I felt like I was actually joining a raffle for a noontime show or something. I wasn't impressed at all. They should've at least entertain their applicants by personally getting their resumes at hindi lang mag-hulog sa dropbox.

second stop: ABS-CBN 2. Okay. So I have never been inside the ABS-CBN premises that often even if my uncle worked there for over 5 years. xP Nawala ako, I swear. I looked like a total bozo walking around the huge compound clueless and practically helpless. People were looking at me as if I was this lost child looking for the DZMM AM station booth para manawagan sa mga magulang ko. ehgaaahd. Buti na lang after 500 years, 4 months and 26 days nahanap ko na din ang elevator patungo sa 7th floor wherein the HR department's located.

But of course, before my amazing adventure inside the ABS-CBN compound, I first had to deal with the first obstacle--THE GUARD. Punyetang sekyu yan, ang sungit! I mean, he's like the first guy I wanted to ask if he's having PMS or something. Putsa. What is wroooooong!

Guard: Ano yon?
Me: Magbibigay lang po ng practicum letter..
Guard: Ako na magbibigay..may envelope ka ba?
Me: (Naka envelope na puti ang lahat ng kailangan ko) Eto na ho..
Guard: Hindi hindi yan! yung brown! yung malaki!
Me: Eh wala ho e.
Guard: Eh hindi pupwede yan, dapat naka brown envelope yan.
Me: Kung ganon ho na kayo magbibigay, pa-receive na lang po nito..
Guard: (tumaas ang boses at kumunot) O, hindi ako magre-receive niyan!? Kinukuha naman yan talaga dito e! Kung gusto mo hintayin mo bumabas yung kumukuha ng mga yan para mapa-receive mo!
Me: ..uh..pwede ho bang ngayon na?
Guard: (thinks for awhile. picks up receiver of phone and dials..kinuha ang envelope ko) Ah, ma'am, may gusto daw mag-apply para sa Oh-Jeh-Teeh (ganyan ang pagkasabi niya, I swear.) ...taga La Salle daw. Anong course mo?
Me: Psychology po..
Guard: ...o sige po ma'am. padala ko na lang din sa kanya yung ibang mga resume na iniwan dito. (turns to me) amina ID mo...

bwahahahaha. ayaw pa akong papasukin ng loko. 'lul!

and I walked away with a smile. :p

I met with a Ms. Honey and she was really, really nice. She even asked me to look at the other 4 resumes dropped by Psychology students from DLSU. Nagulat ako, I saw Martin Hugo's 2x2 picture! harhar. No comment.

She immediately took my resume, went through it and gave me an application form for OJT. cooooool. haha. xD After filling it up, they asked me if I had other things things to do because if I don't, they're willing to interview me already. Unfortunately, I needed to drop off as much letters as possible by today and so I refused. All I have to do now is wait for them to call me.. :D

Sana doon ako matanggap. hehe.

3rd stop: San Miguel Corporation/Coca-Cola Bottlers Philippines. When I was in highschool, I so so so wanted to work in San Miguel..but when I entered this afternoon, my dreams faded. hahaha. kidding. Luma na pala loob ng San Miguel Building? :p I don't mean to diss or anything but I was expecting something else so I was a teeny-weeny bit disappointed. Basta, parang na-warp ako sa 80s. Parang paglabas ko ng opisina ay feeling ko manonood ako ng Bagets the movie (part 1).

4th stop: Benpres Holdings Corporation. Nothing much, dropped it off at the 4th floor.

final stop: EDSA Shangri-La Hotel. The employee entrance was not impressive. Dapat sana kung gaano kaganda sa taas ay ganoon din naman kaganda ang sa baba. A big (not fat but BIG) lady guard took my practicum envelope and received it as well. Never dared to ask questions..kung nakita mo din siya, pustahan you'll do the same thing.

My mom and I grabbed a late lunch at the said hotel and was planning to go and to MERALCO and Citibank, Libis to drop off more letters. Unfortunately though, one very stubborn professor of mine *hinthint* was throwing tantrums again and insisting that he sign our parent waiver form by today and will not accept anymore of it by tomorrow. If it isn't Mr. Groucho! punyeta. By the time I got to La Salle, it was already 15 minutes before 6 and I had to print the waiver form and go back to my mom for her to sign it and go back again..blahblah!*&^^!%!%

to make the long story short, Professor Xavier (haha. hindi din halata amp! lol.) wasn't at the department anymore and a few minutes later I found out that yes, we can just leave the waiver forms on his desk OR we can go to him TOMORROW instead of today! motherfugger.

aaargh. aaarrrgh. aarrghh.

*breathe in* I'm okay! xD

So, I'm off to Ortigas and Makati for another practicum adventure..maybe this coming Wednesday perhaps? Oh joy. :)

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Gathering of Data huweyth??

Pilot testing. Done. Introductory letters signed. Done. Give out to musicians. Done.

...well, almost.

Our first interview for our thesis is on Thursday afternoon in Makati. Guess who it is! dali dali dali! hahaha. :p We're friends. He knows me, I know him and we get along fine and we treat each other as friends. But still, the fact that I have to talk to him seriously--tape recorders and all, about his life, his experiences, his whatevers..that seems a bit awkward to me.

Kinakabahan ako. syemay..*sweaty palms*

I just wish that things would turn out great on Thursday. I mean, I hope it doesn't look like we're having a serious Q and A. I hope things would turn out light and laid-back but at the same time, data that we need just flows freely from him.

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Host.

*time-out*

I really need to stop blabbering now. I have to hit the sack now cos I am forced and obliged and cajoled and pushed AND demanded to wake up early tomorrow since I have to host/emcee this symposium in school tomorrow. The thingie starts at 8am.

hooray for the eyebags! hooray hooray!

BUT..

before anything else, i'd like you guys to see this..

Chris or Donna took this picture a couple of months back..I miss going to the Burgundy rooftop! :D

oooh. Getting Kevinsick.. :'(

it's been so long

2006-01-17T10:09:00.000+08:00

...and I'm back!

I haven't been updating recently and it's too bad cos lots of different things have been going on in my life and I can't even share it with anyone! I've been itching to blog for weeks now but it's either I don't have the time or I'm just too lazy to do so.. *giggles*

Since I have the time and energy today, I can now do what I love doing.. :)

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Test.. Test..

The second part of our thesis is now officially on-going and I guess Soc and I will have so much fun (and agony at the same time). Last night, we went to Luanne's to do a pilot test of our creativity scale and thesis questionnaire that we did last term. Sir Yabut's expecting us to bring the transcript (already!!) tomorrow afternoon so he can check it out and see whether or not to add more in-depth questions for the participants to answer in detail.

We interviewed my very good friend Jeff of Soapdish! :) Sobrang na-miss ko si Jeff and Luanne! As expected, the interview was definitely a riot. We were all laughing all throughout the interview since Jeff was all candid and witty with all of his answers. I'm not really sure if that's alright.. but what the hell! I had so much fun!!! :D Soc tape recorded the whole session, while I recorded the whole thing on cam.

Jeff even sang a few lines of an unreleased track.. super nice.. very senti.. very Soapdish.. :)

One thing I remember about the whole interview was the unbelievable answers Jeff gave us!

Soc & Gem: "So..anong gusto mong maging dati when you were young? gusto mo bang maging doctor..pilot..? Kasi siyempre, hindi mo pa naman alam na magiging rockstar ka.."

Jeff: "wala e..wala talaga dati..ah! gusto kong maging wrestler!"

Gem: (curious) "sino naman ang naging inspiration mo para mapili mong maging wrestler?"

Jeff: "si.. Ultimate Warrior! Hindi pa siya patay, may website pa siya.. hindi totoo yung binuhat niya si Yokozuna tapos pumutok yung ugat niya sa leeg. Hindi totoo yun. Hindi pa siya patay.."

Soc & Gem: "aaaahhh..alam na alam ah!"

Jeff: "syempre!"

ahehehehe.. :p

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*shriek*

uuuh. hmmm...

uhmm..

sigh..

Can I just be proud of my boyfriend just for a second?

haha.. :D

ang gwapo niya no? hahahahahaha. xP

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Backstreet's Back Alright!

three more fuggin' days to go for the much-awaited BSB concert! *chuckles*

Am I being too teeny bopper-ish? gaaah. I just can't help it. I mean, that's the friggin' Backstreet Boys! I listened to them for almost a decade and I completely grew up adoring them.

Friends are calling, texting and YM-ing me and telling me that they're going too. Isn't that great? hahaha. I thought I was the only one in my circle of friends who will be going to the concert. :D heehee.

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Raw tickets!

After the Backstreet Boys concert, Kevin and I will be back at the Araneta to watch Raw! too bad Batista isn't in the line-up (yes, I know..Smackdown right?). Nevertheless, I'll be seeing John Cena..

But hey, diba si Edge na ang champion? Paano na yon?

hmmm..

I need to get our tickets by tomorrow. I want to have the best seats of course.. :)

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Pulitika.

Two months after my dad's birthday party, pictures of the event popped out of nowhere.

haha. napapa-oh-my-god ako sa pictures. For some reason, I don't even remember these pictures were actually taken.. and yes, I was completely, utterly sober at the time. I just don't know why I forgot.. :p

WOW Philippines! :D

My ninong Gordon kept on asking me where I studied and everytime I said, "De La Salle" he would give me that playful smirk and say, "La Salle pala ha.. Ateneo ako e..magkalaban tayo!" and he would laugh and semi-hug-semi-shake-me into consciousness and say, "Biro lang, La Salle's a good school.. kaya nga arch rival ng Ateneo yang skwelahan mo e.."

okaaaaay. :p

gaaaaah. I met Madam President for the second time and it was freaky.

Pagkaabot na pagkaabot ko nung kamay ko to give her a handshake, sunod-sunod yung pag-flash ng 30 or so cameras sa harapan ko. Feeling ko mabubulag ako e. hahaha. :D

isa lang masasabi ko: over sa photo-op! haha!

new year.

2006-01-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

December 31, 2005. 9:44 PM.
from the files of Gem's iBook.

I know that by this time, everybody’s already up and about and all ready for the much awaited new year celebration. As early as now, fireworks are being lighted and booze are being distributed. Medya Noche is already in place and families can’t wait to dig in. Makati and other parts of the metro are most likely to be jam-packed with party animals coming from all walks of life. In short, everyone’s so excited (and so much prepared) in welcoming 2006. I guess if I’m in Manila, I’d do the same thing but what do you know, I’m in Palawan right now in the middle of our hectares and hectares of farm land with no signal (and my cellular company brainwashes me to think that I can make great things possible… rooooyt).

This is probably the first time ever that I’m actually spending new year away from my humble abode AND this is of course my first time ever to celebrate it with, should I say, total apathy. I’m here inside our modern bahay kubo with the lights off with my dad sleeping soundly and my mom-in her pyjamas-watching Korean DVD on her portable player. I, on the other hand, is sprawled in bed typing away and feeling rather odd about celebrating new year in this totally new way.

Walang handa. Walang paputok. Walang Champagne. Walang bisita. Wala na ngang signal, wala pa si kuya. Hah. This is just so.. strange.

Mind you, we are not in the midst of the Puerto Princesa-the heart of Palawan-but in Bacungan, a 20-30 minute ride from the city. It’s practically out-of-this-world and I mean it sort of literally. We’re like in the middle of nowhere and the next house is like 3 kilometers away.

Okay, so while I’m typing this, I can see that I’m the only one awake in this room since my mom just dozed off. Hooray. Aaack.

I’m not really complaining or anything, I mean this is a new experience. I think this is something that’s actually good for me since I always despise redundancy with the things that I do. Now this is something totally different .. how can I possibly complain? One thing though, I just wish I can contact my loved ones even just through SMS. God, I just feel so out-of-here. It’s like I’m not even in the Philippines. I am so disconnected with everyone that I can’t even greet my boyfriend a happy new year. I’ve been out of coverage for more than 12 hours now and I’m wondering how many messages, missed calls and greetings will I receive altogether when we head back to the city tomorrow (err.. I don’t even know if we’re going to the city tomorrow. Okay so that’ll be two straight days of having no signal. Grreeeaat).

I’m sort of worried that Kevin’s been contacting me all day but can’t get through and in turn might be worried as hell with how I am.. so as with my brother.

Hohum. As I check the time, it’s 10.25 pm and there’s nothing left to do but end this entry and celebrate the new year alone with my sleeping parents watching the first season of THE O.C. and Smallville.

Goodbye 2005, Hello 2006! =)

Have a great new year everybody cos I know I am.. hihi. :D

someone is happy

2005-12-21T15:18:00.000+08:00

hahaha!

I just feel so good right now because I just made someone really, really, really happy!

I just told JB-one of Kevin's CSB friends-that my good friend Kiks has decided to go out with him already! :) and oh man, it feels good hearing JB's ecstatic, delighted voice.

oh yey. oh the joy. oh the bliss. :p

wala lang.. =)

and oh because of that, JB decided to make libre both Kevin and I for lunch. nyahahaha. xP

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I didn't go with my mom to Baguio today. I decided to stay here in Manila to be with Kevin the whole day. I'm here in Netopia UM getting some things done over the net for Kevin. It's his course card distribution day today and i'm so proud of him he got a 3.0 in one of his major subjects--ORGABEH. :D YAY!

and oh, speaking of which, I just got all of my grades yesterday and I just proved my mom wrong by maintaining my Dean's List standing. My new status is definitely not a DISTRACTION. Kevin inspires me for crying out loud! How can that be a distraction to my studies??

Thank God, Kevin and Sugarfree for giving me so much inspiration this term. :D

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Christmas is just around the corner.

4 days to go and I can give Kevin his Christmas gift. I want to see the look on his face when he opens it.

:)

hoheyho.

2005-12-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

New and improved.

I got myself a new haircut! :D I got tired of tying my hair and not getting the look that I wanted. I actually like my hair now and Kevin loves it too! :) I'm going for that 60's flyaway look.. xP

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Out on a Thursday Night.

Weird. Kevin and I went out on a thursday night without having any plans. I was supposed to go to Racks for that 99.5 rt sunday sessions anniversary but was too lazy to party. We ended up in front of Bona's house at around 9 pm. haha! We stayed there for awhile before going to UCC and Teriyaki Boy at Tomas Morato to grab something to eat. It was a simple night with two of the most important people in my life away from my fuming, nagging mom (hehe).

I'm going to miss you. I won't be disturbing you for four fucking days. aahkk. Damn LYC..haha, joke. :P hohum, at least i'll be singing my lungs out with my high school buddies..and maybe go to Admit One after. Now that's a saturday night.

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Fashionista?

I've never really envisioned myself to be a fashionista and a shopaholic but why do I have this nasty urge to indulge myself in a no-holds-barred shopping spree? I don't know if it's because of the holiday season but I just fell in love with this month's Preview magazine. The shops and the clothes and the accessories are AMAZING. *drools* I'm actually on my way now to shop with my mom and ate Wendy. I don't even know where to start. *drools*

Pagbalik ko mamaya, i'll try to post some of the things I bought. eeek. Masaya ito. *dancedance*

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DELAYED.

My college friends and I have been constantly talking about putting an online tiangge/shop wherein people can purchase new/old clothes, accessories and whatnot. I'm the one assigned to create the so-called online store in Live Journal...jumping jupiter! I'm still not doing it..gaaaah. wwwwhhhyyy?? I really have to do that now so we can sell stuff already!

REMINDER:: create livejournal account later.

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My oldest dog died 3 days ago. We've had him since 1993 and he's our only dog who have had the freedom to run around and do whatever he wants without having to think of dog cages and the like. He was a great dog, a great askal at that, since he sometimes acted as if he was human. My dad loved him, he was so proud of that dog that he would sometimes mention him in his radio programs in the afternoon. Ate Wendy, our helper, and I would joke around and say, "Buti pa si Ador nababanggit sa radyo!" My dad loved Ador because he was always alert. He was like the second security guard or something. He's able to distinguish between us and strangers very well...Ador was always friendly with us but always feisty with other mutts--and people as well. One thing that i'll miss about him is that when I try to talk to him, it's as if he understands me.

I've seen him during his dying moments and I couldn't help but cry. I couldn't even look at him long enough and see if he's still gonna make it. I was too scared, too frightened to look at him. My dad was shocked to find out that Ador was hit by a car and rushed to his side the following morning. My dad took one look at him and was sure that he was never going to make it.. it was time for Ador to go. I wasn't able to see our dog after that and I did not even dare to ask where they placed him. Our home kind of feels empty without Ador's constant barks and howls. I'm gonna miss him..for sure.

2nd month

2005-12-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

Love. :)

I must admit that there are no perfect relationships in this world and my relationship with Kevin is no exception. We have had our share of misundertsandings and conflicts along the way... but after all is been settled, everything will always go back to normal. Kevin and I doesn't really think of these misunderstandings as major factors for us to break up but rather, numerous reasons for us to stay together.

okay cheesyness alert nyaha!... bottomline is, the first two months has been great and I am so looking forward to a thousand more days with him.

and oh, one last thing... I'm sorry.. for everything. :D

there is no perfect Kevin nor a perfect Gem afterall.. so this is all completely understandable. xP

who says i couldnt?

2005-12-10T13:41:00.000+08:00

Thesis is getting all my time. Thesis and a whole lot of freaking projects... but mostly, THESIS gets in the way of every single fucking thing. AS IN EVERY SINGLE THING. I can't even go shopping for Christmas or simply anywhere for that matter.

Thesis sucks and I hate it.

...

...

*knocks on wood 3x*

okay, so i'm scared of dissing thesis but I just can't help it. Thesis is eating me up alive. You might say i'm over exaggerating but NO. nononononono. uh-uh. no. It's sucking the life out of me. I swear.

Nevertheless, I can say that our thesis is different from the others. It has that interesting twist to it but still, interesting as it may be, thesis is tiring and stressful (in every sense of the word) and hooray, this will go on till next term with PRACTICUM. oh the joy of being a La Sallian.

hah. royt.

God. How I miss HIGH SCHOOL.

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Musickeepsmysoulonfire.

Holyshmolee I am so inlove with the URBANDUB'S new album EMBRACE.

Gabby Alipe during CLA goes Rock @ William Shaw Little Theatre last February

*faints*

It is fantabulous. You have to get one. Oh, so you already did huh? well...yay for you! :D

One thing though, I'd still go for INFLUENCE anytime, baby. ;)

I also got Pupil's Beautiful Machines. Last Song Syndrome alert for the song Nasaan Ka. People might think i'm wasting my money on this or I made a good choice, but one thing's for sure though, I will always love Ely Buendia or Dizzy Ventura or whoever he gets transformed into. I will always love him and his music...I will always love the Eraserheads. :)

I also got hold of the new album from Death Cab for Cutie. I adore them now! I also bought the CD + DVD of Greenday's Bullet in a Bible concert tour, they totally rock. I do hope they decide to play here in Manila.

I'm part of the committee (again) for the CLA week culminating night. *dancedance* But I promised myself not to partake in any money matters from now on...if they can't get enough money for all the kick-ass bands that i'm suplying them, then we cancel. :p I might get someone from the SOUTH to play for CLA night again. *ahem*

...and oi! The Backstreet Boys are coming to Manila on JANUARY 20, 2006 and stage a big concert at the Araneta Coliseum! Okay, so i'm not 11 or 12 anymore and I rarely play my BSB cds nowadays BUT STILL!!! It's the fucking Backstreet Boys for crying out loud! It's like every Filipina pre-teen's wish come true! I know it's like 7 or 8 years overdue but then again, who cares? haha!

Now, I want it that waaaaaay... heehee.

Now..who wants to go with me? ... Wala? haha.

oh darnit.

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LOST and found.

I cannot wait for the DVD version of Lost Season 2 to hit the market...(or Metrowalk that is. haha!) and so I tried my good friend ZAZA's advice and tried downloading episodes from Season 2 via the oh so reliable World Wide Web. Lo and Behold, I already have episodes 1 to 5 complete but I haven't watched any of it yet to see if it's really working or not. I'm afraid that if I start watching it now, I wouldn't be able to do anything the whole day..like say, do this journal entry for example. :p

Downside of it is the fact that well, you have to wait almost all day to DL.

But who cares anyway if you're going to see these characters once again...

oh goodie!!!

...shoot. I have to finish Veronica Mars season 1 first before anything else. :D

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Meet the Parents...and the Uncles and the Aunts and everything in between.

I'm so proud of my boyfriend.

One thing that really made me fall for him is the fact that when he found out about my family when we were still in that "getting to know you" stage, he never got intimidated at all. He wasn't scared and it's as if it wasn't even a big deal... it's actually not a big deal at all, it's just that other people makes a big fuss about it.

and then here comes Kevin and he doesn't even bat an eyelash when I told him.

... I'm just so proud of him when he met my entire family, friends of family, my godfathers, bodyguards, staff, waiters.. My uncles joked quite insensitively (e.g. "Ikaw ba si Kevin? Boyfriend? aba... Ingatan mo 'tong pamangkin ko kung hindi bubugbugin kita!") but my boyfriend just smiled, laughed and held my hand. He was polite and he was cool. He never looked intimidated, not even a bit and I was so proud of him.

...after the party though, he confessed that he was sort of intimidated and scared about the whole idea that I was actually part of that family.

I was still proud of him even after he confessed. The way he acted during the party was enough for me to fall for him even more even if he was sort of hiding what he truly felt that time.. :)

sigh. :D

happ anniversary blogspot! :D

2005-12-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

Time flies so fast.

Lookie lookie here!

My blogspot is a YEAR OLD! :D

Happy One Year to my blogspot!

and oh, December 04 is also my first ever gigging galore too! :D

I watched the Mongols and Sponge Cola @ 70s Bistro and Admit One @ Freedom Bar! I met Sugarfree and Cambio for the very very very first time today! :)

hehe. Oh the memories. :o)

first of the ebe dancel articles! =)

2005-12-01T01:05:00.000+08:00

Not just a rockstar.

I don't know if anyone out there is geeky enough to try and Google popular people's names in their spare time. I mean, I do. I do that alot before most especially during those days wherein the word "thesis" was just that--a word. Those were the days where I can sit in front of the computer for a whole day without thinking of anything to do but get something really fantastic out of the all-knowing and all-powerful World Wide Web.

I tried different names. Different people. Different professions. I even tried looking up for my name. hah. Now that's something to be proud of. :p

and to make the long story short, being the Sugarfreek that I am, I typed in each of the members of Sugarfree (Ebe, Jal and Mitch respectively) and lo and behold, I found a site that has tons of articles directed for teens.

...so what i it got to do with Sugarfree?

well, I just happen to bump into a site that features Ebe Dancel as a correspondent. I was completely awestruck to find articles that was written 6 years back by Ebe himself! :D I knew beforehand that he graduated with a degree in Creative Writing but I never expected him to write something like that...I always saw him as a songwriter, a lyricist; not some teen article correspondent! Nevertheless, it was cool. Waaaaay cool in fact, that I copied ALL of his articles and would like to share some of it in my online journal. :)

Natuwa lang talaga ako. Ang astig e. Kakaibang Ebe Dancel ang nakita ko. :D

Notice the way he writes. It may not sound like Ebe at first but you can practically sense HIM in his article. Basta..kakaiba lang. nakakaaliw! ;)

To those of you who already know about this, sorry for being too dated. xP (okay, tone too defensive..haha. who cares anyway?)

here goes! more to come! enjoy! :D

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GIMMICK, ANYONE?
BY: EBE DANCEL
September 14, 2001

I know how tiring school can be. I have lots of friends who are still in school and all they do is complain day in and day out about homework, papers, exams and more homework!
I would get messages on my phone like, "Hi. Can't make it to the party tonight ... Actually, I don't think I'll ever make it to any other party for the rest of my life because I practically live in school!"
Well, school is school, and there's no escaping the responsibilities of student life. But I know what you mean when you say that school can drive you crazy.
Every student has his or her own way of trying to relax. If you're a Quezon City resident (Well, if you have a car, it doesn't really matter where you live, anyway.) and if you think that a night out with friends is an excellent way of forgetting about Algebra and Chemistry for a while, then you're reading the right article.
Quezon City offers a lot of places where you can sit back, relax and enjoy your night away from school. Here are a few of my favorite Q.C. hangouts:

Countryside

Located at the Katipunan Extension (right beside Gilligan's Island), Countryside has the most delicious and affordable barbeque and isaw this side of town! They also serve chicken barbeque, gizzard, grilled squid and sumptuous inihaw na baka.
You would find all sorts of people there---students, yuppies and, yes, even professional basketball players! Beer is very cheap (a bottle costs around twenty to thirty pesos).
The place is so popular, it's practically packed seven days a week! People go there to either eat dinner or drink the night away. Having a car is a definite plus though, because I don't think there are any jeeps or buses in the area. But still, the excellent food would make the trip worth your while.

70's Bistro

If you're a fan of the Pinoy rock scene, then 70's Bistro is absolutely the place for you!
Located at Anonas, Quezon City, "Bistro" is usually open from Monday to Saturday. Bands usually come on stage at 10 PM and rock the house until 1 AM.
I checked out the line-up of bands recently, and was amazed to know that the Eraserheads, Rivermaya, Parokya ni Edgar, the Dawn, Itchyworms and Cynthia Alexander perform there regularly!
However, Bistro is not just known for the bands that play there every night. It's also famous for excellent food! They have pasta (I recommend the red hot reggae pasta), cheap booze and even pizza with rather odd names (try the Eheads Pizza or the Jerks Pizza)!
Sisig is also a favorite among regular customers. Vegetarians need not worry, because Bistro has, well, veggie food that's good for the soul.
Personally, I like hanging out at Bistro because you have the perfect combination of good food and even better music. The waiters are very friendly and they provide great service.
Students and working people alike fill up the place every day because 70's Bistro has this friendly, cool atmosphere that's definitely very relaxing.

Big Sky Mind

Head on out to #66-B Doña Juana Rodriguez Street, New Manila and you'll find out why a lot of people love the place!
Although it isn't really that big, I like going there because Big Sky Mind (like 70's Bistro) has this cool, calming atmosphere.
What's inside?
Well, in the ground floor, there's the bar and even a couch for the tired people who want to sit on something more comfortable. The bartenders are cool and friendly as well. My favorite dishes are the Aligue Pasta, the Pita and the cheese squares. They're perfect with beer or with conversation. They even serve wine and beer if you're in the mood to celebrate anything!
The second floor is usually reserved for exhibits. And oh, have I told you that artists and musicians are the kind of people you'd mostly find in BSM?
We all get tired of school work, so on weekends, we should reward ourselves with a great night out with our friends and loved ones.
Now, all we have to do is pray that weekends become longer.

Urbandub album tour.

2005-11-25T16:26:00.000+08:00

This is a must-have plug for my journal..Dubista ako e. =D

16 Gigs. 1 Album Tour.

The feisty Cebuanos are back with a bang unleashing their latest album, "Embrace" here in Manila!

Manila-based Dubistas can catch them tonight, 10pm, in Saguijo with Angulo and Hale!

Rockin' and Rollin' continues tomorrow at Dish ABS-CBN, 10 pm with Ciudad and Cosmic Love!

:D :D :D

LOST and out.

2005-11-20T19:04:00.000+08:00

crazy for LOST.

Okay, so this is a really late reaction post but what the hell.

I was never really into the whole "series" thing on TV. Maybe because I was more interested in finding fresh, new and interesting Pinoy improv shows that takes me by surprise. The likes of Maverick and Ariel and On-Air for example. Or maybe my kuya and I just loved channel surfing too much that I don't get to appreciate the so-called "series" everyone raves about.

When people started watching Friends, Dawson's Creek and Charmed, I never had second thoughts of actually you know, finding the timeslot and watch one episode. When some friends would talk about it and rave and rant about what happened with who, I would just stare and say, "rooooyyyt..." and change the topic. heehee.

To be brutally honest, I just saw these "series" as a fad. you know, cos "sosyal" people like 'em and a lot of people like 'em too cos it's uso and everything. My perception was that, one way or the other, people just watch them to look cool, to look in--or at least force themselves to be that way.

and so I didn't care.

I liked CSI but I can never say that i'm a huge fan. I liked the show because it was outrageously awesome and not because I had a crush on the lead actor or something (pun intended).

and then a new wave of these "series" came and people went berserk. The OC. One Tree Hill. Smallville. Desperate Housewives. Even the DVD people in Harrison Plaza, Greenhills and Metrowalk went berserk and sold tons and tons of pirated copies of the said shows.

I still didn't care.

...but for some reason, one particular series caught my attention and has forever changed ~~my life~~ the way I look at these shows.

I watched the first season of LOST on DVD, (thank you to the oh-so reliable Metrowalk DVD people *evilgrin*) and boy was I blown away. I have not been watching too much TV in ages and I was surprised with what I actually did when I first got hold of Lost--from 10 am till 6 pm, I was just in my room watching episode after episode after episode.

..and it was pure and utter bliss (well, of course only second to YOU, boo. :D)

Funny thing about Lost is that I love the storyline and I have a huge crush on Matthew Fox!

hahahaha! :D oh hotness.

Yael was right. He was right all along. He kept on raving about LOST and how great it is and how it blew him away and how unpredictable it could be and the list goes on..and I thank him too for being such an influence and a source of my curiousity, hence, me buying the 1st season. :)

I'm still waiting for the 2nd season on DVD though. I'm really not a cable freak so I don't really know what channel and what day and time it's supposedly shown. I can't wait for the 2nd season, I can't wait for the 2nd season naaaaaaargghhh! *pulls hair*

But while i'm waiting for it, my boyfriend, the certified OC lover, lent me his first season of the OC and was able to watch some of the first episode. I'm planning to watch it again on my own some time soon. :D I've got some series lined up for me after The OC. I still have Smallville (my personal pick and because someone I know adores the show and I was curious) and my boyfriend's second suggestion, Veronica Mars. I still have to buy the super duper complete season of CSI, so that I could watch all of it naman without major commercial interruptions. Scrubs is okay too. I was able to watch one episode and I like it..A LOT. xD

...These are just one of those things that can take my mind off thesis. motherfuckingheller. we have to totally revise the whole draft. and guess when's the major submission date for chapters 1 and 2?

fucking NOVEMBER TWENTY-THREE.

ha ha ha. **)&^*^&amp;%#$@&^&&&*$!!!!

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i love you Sabado...

I was never planning to spend the whole day with Kevin yesterday but I ended up doing so. We went to LSGH for two reasons: to watch Cue's play AIDA and second, to watch Hale perform for family day. :)

some AIDA pics over here...

Unexpected things happen and well, to make the long story short, our saturday was one hell of a rollercoaster ride of emotions. :p but overall, I wouldn't say that it was all bad. Actually, I had lots of fun. For one because I was able to take a peek at how he was during highschool--what he did, what kind of people he went out with and stuff. it was cool. :) I spent the whole afternoon in LSGH so that meant more time with his alma mater = more time spent discovering things about him too.

Spending time with Kevin is somewhat associated with spending time with Hale. haha! :D Champ was too nice to take us with him to where they stayed and practically avoided the people shooing the fans away backstage. hehe. I just love the way Champ, Omnie, Sheldon and Roll treats Kevin. Sobrang heart-warming lang ng ipinapakita nilang kabaitan sa kanya. :) They're all so accomodating and friendly towards him. hehe. I'm not saying that there are some friends that doesn't treat him the same way..I mean, well..uhm, yea. I guess. haha. Kaya natutuwa ako sa kanila.. :)

Kevin, sabi ko sayo hindi snob si Sheldon sa akin e! smile kaya siya ng smile yesterday! :D

and oh! I saw Nina and Kymie too! I miss them so much! :(

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Philper = steady.

So after that first exam which I got a 0.0 more than a month ago, I exerted all my effort in finding ways to pull myself from that really nasty start. I'm happy I did really well in the last 2 exams which actually earned me his recognition in class. My prof calls me now during recitations, but I still don't aswer him. I laugh at his jokes now but I still get that icky weird feeling when he's doing those sleazy jokes about women.

Honestly, i'm sorta having a pretty nice time during Philper class. You just get used to some things I guess. Not all, but at least some of it. :)

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Loser na ako niyan?

I am one of those dweebs that haven't watched the Goblet of Fire yet. *hears gasps from crowd* oh yes, me, one of the genuine people who adores anything, everything Harry Potter is still waiting for the right day to come and see the movie.

at kelan yon? NOVEMBER 23. how nice. para pagkatapos ng ngaragan blues for thesis, Goblet of Fire relaxation mode na with Chris, Donna and JR sa Rockwell. Dapat Rockwell. maarte kung maarte, pero Rockwell dapat. hahaha. so kick me.

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DON'T GO CONSTANTINE!

haha! as if.

I wasn't able to see him. I was supposed to but...but..I had to attend this general meeting for the Bipolar Party last thursday and..and..I gave it all up for VIP SEATS (still, thank you Dianne and Kevin Punzalan!) and a chance to see freakin' CONSTANTINE MAROULIS up close and to have a picture with him!

nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!

Dianne told me this really funny instance when she was watching Constantine last thursday. Constantine was in the middle of his show and everyone was screaming and going nuts and you know, he was doing his thing on stage..and then there was this one time daw where he innocently wiped his face using the back of his hand because he was sooooo ~~gorgeously~~ sweaty and everyone screamed and shrieked and growled. hahaha. naweirduhan daw si Constantine, halata naman daw cos he made a face. :p

ang sexy naman daw kasi ng pagkapunas ng pawis e. haha. :p

oh well. maybe i'll go to him instead.

kapaaaaaaal! =))

drool worthy picture. hahahaha! *bangsheadontable*

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3 weeks to go for PBB.

With Franzen out of the picture, can Jason beat the rest of the surviving housemates to win the grand prize? I mean, these people are total celebrities with or without the grandprize, they can get tons of moolah after PBB just by endorsements, commercials and TV guestings. major bucks for major instant celebs. nice. :D

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and then he said...

"I'm actually trying my best to make you feel how much I love you the whole day, pero parang wala.. love naman kita e. Ikaw naman talaga ang love ko e. I'm trying to make you happy the whole day, I'm trying to make this day happy for the both of us...what else do you want me to do?..."

...and I almost cried.

happy 1st baby =)

2005-11-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

One. Uno. Isa. Una. Une. First.

Honestly, I couldn't ask for anything more. Maybe the only thing that I can wish for is to have more of these beautiful months and years with him. Things are so much better with you! i'm always, always looking forward to each and everyday.. :D ..

*sigh*

update naaaa

2005-11-10T01:41:00.000+08:00

*hik*

I called and texted Bona in the middle of the week before friday and she ended up declining to my offer in going with me to Ratsky's for the first back-to-back gig of Sugarfree and Hale. I begged and I pleaded but she said NO. Kevin was still in EK around 9.30 and I was already having second thoughts if I was going or not. I texted Jal if he was still okay with the idea of meeting me at Ratsky's to catch up with each other. He texted me back saying that it was fine and they'll be rushing from Pamanga to Tomas Morato in no time.

To make the long story short, I did go alone at first and Omnie was there to make me feel at home for the first few minutes and my ever so loving beau ended up spending the whole night with me at Ratsky's and introducing him to my rockstar friends..:D.. Camwhoring camwhoring till the break of dawn. hehe. :)

lashing ka man o hindi, you're still my guy :D :D :D

Cham took this picture. Weird how he did it the way he did..hehe. Halatang mahilig din magcamwhore si Champ kasi saktong-sakto yung pagkakuha niya. haha. :p

hihi. xP

my night's never going to be complete without a cutie-cute-cute picture with this guy over here. :D

yehey

2005-11-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

I am addicted to NOONTIMESHOW.

Yes friends, I've been raving about Itchyworms' new album for the past few weeks now and I thought of actually doing the same thing here! :D

I soooooooo love the WHOLE ALBUM. Swear. I am not kidding. If the Itchyworms need any people for their upcoming music video, I will definitely ask them to include me! I will even cut class for it if its on a school day just to show my overhwelming support and love for them and for their new album.

I can't stop gushing about it. As in the whole time I was in Baguio, Noontimeshow's always on repeat. During the 6-hour drive to Baguio--Itchyworms. While we were doing our Ukay-Ukay escapades--Itchyworms. While in the cemetery--Itchyworms. 6-hour ride back home--Itchyworms parin! Walang kamatayang Itchyworms!!! :)

I don't really know how to describe the happiness I get from the album. It's as if after a loooong, loooooooong wait for something EXCELLENT to come out from our very own music industry, the NOONTIMESHOW comes along and voila! Whattagreatfeeling! Sobrang overwhelmed talaga ako with the whole album. Ang ganda ng concept, ang ganda ng pagkakakgawa. The album's practically portrays what our entertainment industry looks like (pun intended). Nakakatuwa but at the same time it's also an eye-opener of how we Filipinos tend to be so shallow and accept mediocrity every single day on TV.

But the really good good thing about the noontimeshow is that it gives you an overview of the Pinoy Pop Culture--which I truly love. :) Kaya sobrang the best nung album! whoot whoot! :D

Sa sobrang pagka-love ko sa album I even persuaded my thesis mentor (sir Yabut) to listen to the album via my iPod awhile ago! Being the rockstar prof that he is, he agreed to listen to Akin Ka Na Lang and the Stalker Song while discussing our thesis with us. I loved the satisfied look on his face and told me, "Sige mamaya bibili na ako ng album nila..."

Handsdown to Itchyworms and to the people behind the album and the other musicians who participated in making the album one of the best releases in years... :)

My favorite track in the album? It's gotta be PRODUCTION NUMBER! soooooobrang gaaaaah! ang galing e. *drool*

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Phone Call.

I was supposed to make a loooong entry but Kevin called me up and we talked on the phone from 11 till *looks at the clock* 1.30 am. hehe saya no?

Ergo, I do not have energy to continue with this...but at least I was able to rave about NOONTIMESHOW! yun ang importante. <3>

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<3

I'm so happy with you
and
I'm sorry about some things that happened today...
and
I you.

hello update hello

2005-10-30T08:24:00.000+08:00

The 4-day "break".

I'll be leaving for Baguio in awhile and probably stay there until Tuesday afternoon. No time for chillaxin' though...I'll be reading tons of Philosophy handouts and probably finish all of my readings in my other subjects as well. taena. tsk. Other work for school is piling up and we still don't have one more variable for our next thesis meeting on wednesday. haaay. So much for the 4-day break.

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Uploadin'-Updatin'

I'm currently uploading ALL of Kevin's CDs in my iPod now. I've been wanting to upload them all but unfortunately I couldn't find the right time to do so. I just finished uploading the first cd...13 more cds to go. :p But honestly, i'm actually loving the songs he's been exposing me to for the past few weeks. :) Goodness, I am so into the Music from the OC! :D I still haven't watched any episode of the said series but I want to watch them now...ganda ng soundtrack e.

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Maverick and Ariel.

I don't know if you guys know them but for me, they're one of the "true" people i've seen on national TV. I actually saw their show on ABC 5 accidentally when my mom and I were channel surfing our way out of boredom 2 years ago. Tawang-tawa kami since we didn't know if they were actually acting out what they were doing or just simply filming themselves and just go with the spontaneity of their whole lives. and oh, did I mention their fasheyown sense? 70s pare. As in all out friggin' 70s and they actually get away with it you know?

I eventually found out that the show was entitled Misadventures of Maverick and Ariel and has been a fan ever since. Donna's actually my Mav and Ariel buddy and we became uber close because of the show. :D There was even a time that I had a crush on Ariel and Donna had a crush on Maverick and we wished that when they film along Taft or wherever, we would be there too so we could meet them personally! :p

...we're still waiting for that time to happen. :D

Maverick and Ariel has come a long way and has been invited to various big-time events and TV shows for the past 2 years and I am sooooo proud of them. I can't deny the fact that waaaaay waaaaay before they became 'sikat', Donna and I were already watching their show. we even kept on advertising them to people and asked whether they liked the show or not. :p

Sad to say, I rarely catch them on TV nowadays. Well for one I don't watch that much TV anymore and two, I don't really have time to watch anything anymore! So I just found out along EDSA that they have I think 2 new shows on ABC 5...I'm still having problems memorizing the timeslot but without a doubt, i'll be watching them again.

Donna, nakakamiss yung good ol' days na ganon no? watching and texting with you! hihihi. :) *hug*

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tsktsk.

After Ateneo, UP law naman.
November 27.

a-yayay.

Finally, I was able to get Chris an application form and will be filling them up as soon as we get back to school. hihi. naeexcite ako to take the exam with Chris and Ice. :D

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Ultimate Bonding Spree.

Nikki, Me, Shay and Bona

Me, Charles and Shay

Wow. After not seeing my HS friends for the looooooongeeest time, I was able to spend semi-quality time with them last Friday. We went to Elbow Room in Metrowalk and just laughed our heads off with each others' stories. I super missed Nikki and Shay!! argh. The time I spent with them isn't enough to actually un-miss them. Charles will always be Charles. grabe siya. He was still him-just like the way I remembered him in highschool! Sobrang kulit sobrang baliw. :p

Seeing Charles actually reminded me of 4th year. 4th year was like the year for me. I actually considered Charles as my partner. Everybody knew that I was the female version of Charles and he was the male version of me. Funny how everyone watched us transform into this spectacular dancing couple during our Prom. gaaaah. ano nga ulit yun? Rhumba? :D The teachers gushed and sighed with how we were during the class dance. haha. I miss highschool. :(

My other HS friends finally met Kevin. haha. Honestly, they were all there to meet him. :D

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Camwhoring.

here are some of the camwhoring pictures in LaPis... :D ...

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POTTER.

Posters, pictures, sneek previews are out and circulating the internet and I can't help but *screeeeeaaaaaammmm*

egaaaahd.

I can't waaaait to see Daniel Radcliffe again.. :p haha. I always get a crush on Daniel everytime a new Harry Potter flick comes out. teehee. :D

I can't wait to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire!!! *dancedance* It'll come out November 16. :D I am soooo excited..Donna! Chris! let's watch it togetheeeerrr!

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:D

Kevin was here yesterday. :D Wala lang kaming ginawa talaga but according to him it was actually spending "quality time" together since i'll be going to Baguio today untill tuesday. haaay. I'm just so comfortable with him, I mean, I don't need to do this and that to entertain him or worry about him getting bored. it's one of those times wherein you just simply hang around and you still enjoy every minute. Hindi ko nararamdaman yun with other people. :)

My kuya arrived while we were eating dinner and he kept on teasing us about our Friendster profiles. hahahaha! nakakainis talaga humirit yun kahit kelan. :p But it was all good, at least he didn't do anything to embarass me or intimidate Kevin in any way...unlike you know, with the other guys before. hehe. Swerte naman, my brother likes you too. naks. :D

Here's to two weeks and counting... (=

week part 2

2005-10-28T09:52:00.000+08:00

[Monday]

I don't really remember now what happened last Monday. All I know is that I stayed in LaPis to research and research and research some more for thesis.

[Tuesday]

Stayed in school to reasearch...AGAIN.
Kevin went with me to Shangri-La to meet up with Mom. Ate at CPK and stayed there till around 8.30 in the evening with Ate Deah and Kuya Andrew.
Kevin went to my place after his class and stayed there till the wee hours of the morning while I did my introduction and review of related lit. for thesis. :p

[Wednesday]

Stayed in school to meet up with Sir Yabut in LaPis. Salamat naman sir Yabut already accepted our first variable for thesis. Hassle lang din since we need to find another variable related to music and/or musicians. gaaaah. ang hirap lang talaga. We have a week to find another variable that's "psychologically acceptable".

Kitchie Nadal was also in LaPis discussing freaking statistics with Miss Lapena. ngak. scary. haha. Soc kept on taking pictures of her! hehe. Ang ganda niya. :) Eventually Soc took lots of pictures of me and Kevin. Nakakatawa kasi para kaming gumagalaw at parang may story yung mga pictures dahil sunod-sunod yung pagkakuha. :D Will post the pictures here as soon as I can.

Kevin again went to my place till around 1.30 in the morning. Sort of a misunderstanding actually, but it was okay. Had lots of fun with him... xP

[Thursday]

Woke up super late for school! I woke up 7.15 and my class starts at 8. hahaha. Never had time to fix myself up :p Got to school around 9 and went straight to LaPis to meet up with my classmates. Encoded some data for our project in *drumroll* STATISTICA. hahaha. hassle.

word for the day from Andy:: STATISTICO.
gawin daw bang lalaki ang statistica? hahahaha!

Never got to meet up with Kevin the whole day since he needed to attend a sort of general rehearsal for his friend's debut today. hehe. But he still went to my place after class. haha. 4 straight days! :D yay. We watched Sugarfree's Prom video together kasi hindi pa nga daw niya napapanood. :) He even uploaded our LaPis pictures in his Multiply account too.

Had a "little discussion" about things but it's all good. It's not actually a problem...but you know. things like that normally happen.

Wawa si Kevin dahil sick siya. :/ I hope he's okay now.

special day:: My dad met Kevin already. :D hahaha. Sabi ko sayo mabait yun e. :)

I'm happy Kevin liked the Cinnamon Rolls my mom gave him. :D

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to be continued...late na ako!

waaaah. week week week.

2005-10-28T02:21:00.000+08:00

Okay. So I haven't been updating in awhile and it sucks because all of my stories are piling up big time and i'm not even sure if I can remember all of them. haha! :D

But here it goes...re-cap of the week that was.

[Saturday morning]

Got up early to prepare for my exam at "the" Ateneo. Arrived at Rockwell an hour early and met up with Ice. I finnaly saw Ice's dad for the very first time after almost 4 years of being friends with him. I never actually thought that his dad looked like that, I mean I expected something else. hehe.

While waiting, Ice and I was able to catch up on things. We eventually talked about his whirlwind relationship with his girlfriend. We ended up "spotting" people around to see if we know anybody else who'll be taking the exam.

Ice and I took the exam on the same room. Room 314. haha. :p I ended up staring at some guy. Hindi ko una maisip kung saan ko siya nakita, but eventually I was able to remember and had a nagging feeling to stand up and loudly sing FIRST DAY FUNK...plus dance moves.

The guy on my left studies at UA&P while the girl on my right studies at ADMU. Okay fine, I literally peeked while they were filling up the info page of their exam sheets. Wala lang, I just wanted to know a little something about them. :p

First test. OTTIS AND LENNON MENTAL ABILITY TEST. hahahaha! THANK YOU SO MUCH MISS ABRENICA! thank you Psychology! thank you thank you for making us study that last term! haha. :p second and third tests was mainly composed of arguments and inferences and whatnots. Purely critical thinking and stuff. gaaah. Nakakalito yung last part but it was okay. :)

[Saturday afternoon]

Kevin fetched me after the exam and we went straight to LSGH to visit his Cue friends. It was really very awkward for me to meet them but they were all very nice ~~and the boys were very cute!~~. Kevin even took me to a mini tour. hahaha. fuck. I am such a loser, it was actually my first time to go there. xp We ended up watching an excerpt of a play they're doing. In my opinion, they're actually pretty good :D

After gh, we went to Burgoo to eat lunch. Wrote Sugarfree lyrics on the paper-slash-placemat. wala, ang saya lang. :)

Went to the ICA fair.

and...

ended up going to Kevin's house and spent the whole evening there together. It was nice meeting his family. too bad I wasn't able to meet his dad though. :D Kevin drove me home at around 10pm and stayed here for dinner! hihi. :)

[Sunday early morning]

Kevin called me up asking me if he can come over to my place again. :D

He arrived before 1 am and slept till 2.30 in the morning on our sofa.
<3

to be continued... :p

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

2005-10-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

LAWgot ka, Gem!

Okay.

So...

umm..

fuck.

Ateneo's exam is already on Saturday (!!!!) and i'm too lazy to read and answer my reviewer.
Most of all, I am so *&&^%$#% scared. But what do I do? I still don't study.
Baaaaaad. tsktsk.

I don't really remember how I felt when it was time for me to take those college entrance tests back in 2002. Gaaaaaah. this is so frustrating. God, is there a purpose behind all this? Am I really up for this? Am I really supposed to take this? Is this really my *bleep*-ing destiny? If so, then what the hey, I am *bleep*-ing sure that i'm going to pass this son of a *bleep*!

tsk. I'm done with answering Analogy and English and Algebraic *bleep*-ing Concepts and.. and freaking Abstract! ayoko na ayoko na ayoko naaaaaaaa. Nagawa ko na yan 4 years back and I hate to do it again. I passed La Salle. hooray hooray. AND THEN HERE IT IS AGAAAAAAIN!

if X and Y is 10 years old and Z is 25 years old, when Z gets hit by a
25 ton truck, what is the probability that X and Y will be to the
exponential 3rd power of the Greatest Common Factor????!!!

ang nakakainis pa diyan, parang gusto ko NA ngayon pumasa at wala na sa isip ko na ibagsak ang exam. ha ha ha. badtrip.

*gets hammer and whams own face*

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Self-esteem boost.

Vin texted me two days ago and his text went like this, "Yakang-yaka mo 'teneo. It's overrated believe me. ü Relak lang!"

I really felt better after I read his message. Sana nga yakang-yaka ko nga... :p

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Yey.

Finally, I was able to watch Sugarfree, Cambio and Twisted Halo again!

They played TAO for me! :D

and Ebe was like, "paano ba yan Gem, suot-suot ko nanaman ang strap mo.."

WOW. :)

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Loving Avril.

I never really liked her and her music when she was THE talk of the town. I despised Skaterboi so much that I would change the radio station everytime it was playing. I wasn't even affected when she came here to do a concert. Everyone was all, "oh my goooood! I am sooooo gonna watch Avril's concert! oh my god!" and little old me would say, "....."

But for some weird reason, I super dig her now. I super like her now. As in. It's just now that i'm actually appreciating her music and i'm loving it. I'm currently listening to her Under My Skin album and the whole album's on repeat. I love Fall to Pieces and Why and Complicated and I'm with You...

haha. Okay, so i'm left behind here but so what? :D I am soooo enjoying her now! hoooray!

...who's next? Blink 182? Simple Plan? :p

---
PBB.

Hindi na ako nakakapanood. Ano na nga ba ang nangyayari?
I heard from people in school that there are actually 5 housemates nominated for eviction.
Feeling ko babay Chx na yan. :p

---
Giggle. Chuckle. Snigger.

Is it just me or are my friends just too giddy and surprised to see me (finally) with someone? I wasn't able to check any of my accounts last night and was really surprised when I opened my friendster account to see my closest friends giving me testimonials and personal messages left and right. Not only that, even people from school are bombarding me with all sorts of questions and remarks! heehee.

It's actually pretty funny and amusing at the same time. Parang isang malaking headline sa pipichuging tabloid ang kumalat sa aking mga circle of friends and it goes something like, "TULFO, NASANGKOT SA RELASYON!" or "TULFO, MAY TOTOO NANG PAG-IBIG!" or worse, "IN A RELATIONSHIP NA ANG STATUS NI TULFO SA FRIENDSTER!"

eeeww. that didn't sound right. *pukes*

Don't get me wrong or anything, I mean it's perfectly fine with me if my friends are being too hyper about the whole idea of me being in a relationship. Maybe because it was always different and it was always a surprise when something utterly romantic happened to me...ME. romantic! ha!

I'm grateful that my friends are all so happy for me! it's like I won 14 *ahem,14* Olympic Gold medals! haha! But yes, I do appreciate all of their sweet, sweet gestures and honestly, all of this is really very new to me and I just want to say sorry to those people that I haven't even contacted yet to tell them that I am attached and that I am going out with someone right now and I hope that they don't put it as me not loving them enough. ang arte niyo! nakakatawa kayo ha! =)

It's only now that i've realized how much my close and closest friends care and love me and it's really fantastic!

pinaka nakakatuwa si Poli, Dodge at Dingdong. Poli's been hugging me and teasing me all day and telling me things like, "huy si Gem may chismis!" and "I'm so happy for you! Mabait yun!" Si Dodge naman, puro "ATE GEM! ATE GEM!" or "the ultimate band chick pala ha!" ang bukang-bibig..ang kulit :D

but seriously, salamat talaga kasi masaya kayo para sa amin. heehee. *covers face and giggles*

okay tama na. kadiri na ito.

---
:D

Kevin went to Taft early yesterday to pick me up and go with me to Shangri-La and wait for my mom to pick me up. :) It was really so sweet of him to go to Taft and then go back to Shang and then go back to Taft again for his 6 pm class. :) What's more, it was my first time to ride on the male carriage of the LRT! hahaha! ang daming boys! *duh*

..."ay dapat pala doon ka sa kabila..." *smiles*

hehe.

---

and noooow...

gaaaaah. you're posting pictures everywhere!!!!!!!! now it's my turn. *evilgrin*

Soc at ang kanyang spy camera.. =)

dito tayo sa dilim! kapit sa patalim! ...uh right. Pedicab LSS. :p

kevin is love :)

2005-10-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

I keep on falling in love with you everyday... :D

*sigh*

---

Twin.

Thanks for being such a great great sister-friend to me.
You just don't know how grateful I am that you're my friend--my best friend!
:)

---

Timyog.

Sana nakikita niyo kung gaano ko kayo inaapreciate.
Sobrang salamat talaga sa lahat.
:)

---

Goodness me, I feel so loved!

...thanks to you Kev.

:D

ay.
hehe.

ohmygod.

2005-10-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

Je t'aime la lune et au dos.

What's Up Boyfriend?

:D :D :D

:p

---

Rooftops. Elevators and the like.

Burgundy will always have a special place in my heart now. :)

---
Dodge!!!

stop reading my blogspot and/or my lj account!!!!!!! *giggles*

nahihiya ako sayo at kay Jen e! tinutukso mo ako parati!!! *blushes*

---
Favorite Number.

pati ba naman yun? :p

amazing. :)

---

Camwhoring!

I actually missed camwhoring with my friends so I decided to bring my digicam to school today. and boy, was it a good idea! :)

oooh! *jumps up and down* i have soooooo many gooood pics! :D

gaaaah, now i'm really tempted to sign-up for Multiply's paid account! gaaaaaaaah. f*ck Multiply for being so selfish. :p

...okay. i take that back. :p

---
Tomorrow.

Soc, JR, Chris and Donna finally picked my place to do the lecheng PSYCHO2 translation and probably watch Good Will Hunting IF we ever find a copy.

*intermission*

Kanina before going home, mom and I went to the nearest ACA video and asked if they have a copy of GWH. After typing the keywords on the computer, the lady rummaged through every stack and pile of old VHS tapes for about 20 minutes and did the same thing all over again while we waited beside the counter...

lady:: ah, miss. pakisulat na lang ho ang pangalan at telephone number ninyo at tatawagan ko ho kayo pag nakita ko na.

*me writes down name and number*

me:: tatawagan mo ako ngayon?

lady:: opo. as soon as makita ko yung tape. hindi ko ho kasi makita e. pero meron ho sa computer...

...hanggang ngayon hindi parin siya tumatawag. ho-hum.

[back to regular programming]

we need to start early tomorrow and finish before 5pm cos I still need to prep up for my night-out with Kevahn and Bownahhh. heehee.

Kevin, Bona and I will be driving around town tomorrow night! :D

we'll be going to one of Kevin's friends' party near our place and go straight to Saguijo for Admit One after that! :)

*dancedance*
I miss going to Saguijo..I miss the bands-of-my-life! haha. ü
ooohh..and it's Kevin's first time to Saguijo and Admit One. :)

I want want want want a Wolfmann+ and Twisted Halo and Support Pinoy Rock shirtsssss! need to bring money tomorrow..hehe. :D

---

Pakner.

Soc.
you're the best.
basta.
mahal kita.
:)
---

Thesis.

calm down. calm down.

We'll most likely be starting all over again.

calm down. calm down.

but at least it's more interesting than the first one.

please God. help help help.

wish us luck.

:)

---

PHILPER POOPER.

punyeta.

:(

babawi ako.

---

tapos na.

after almost 2 weeks of not talking, seeing or whatever-ing him
i finally gave up.
i can't take it.
for goodness sake, he's my dad
and i love him
and I got really sad when I avoided him too.

so there. that's done.
:)

inlove but huh?

2005-10-10T23:25:00.000+08:00

Why oh why am I feeling depressed now?

I'm supposed to be happy.

...actually I was happy minutes ago but what the hell happened to me?

I think I need to psychologically assess myself. this is so not right.

tsktsk mood swings.

*repeatedly bangs head on concrete wall*

sigh

2005-10-09T16:11:00.000+08:00

Randomization.

Things are going pretty well lately. I should say i've been in such utter bliss that I get these random mind blanks during class for the past two weeks. I'm sooooo happy that I don't even know how it feels to be alone anymore.

Sometimes I get really scared when I think of negative things like, What if he goes away? What if he doesn't really mean it? What if...?

I'm not doubting him or anything. It's just so hard not to ask questions when everything seems so great and so fOine. :p

Things are better now with him around. He keeps me grounded and he keeps me sane.

My mom even commented, "right timing siya ah...right timing kasi dumating siya nung kailangan mo talaga..edi kung walang naglilibang sayo, ano na kaya ang nararamdaman mo ngayon..?"

(hey, that's actually another coincidence ... Ü ...)

good God, my mom likes him. That's incredible. :D

---
Philosophy my *toot*

I can't take it anymore.
The teacher.
The readings.
The time of day.

All of it is not right! Lahat mali. mali. mali. mali. MALI.

I have yet to finish the article about Empricism and how Hume, Locke and Berkeley insisted that in order for something to exist it must first be experienced; that the mind is a tabularasa and innate ideas are false.

blahblahblah.

Gusto ko na siyang matapos! Hindi ko na kayaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! *whimpers*

---
PBB.

I wasn't able to watch the 3rd eviction night since I was out with Kevin last night. Soc just texted me that Racquel was the one booted out of the house. hehehe. Yes!
I never really liked Cass and Racquel but if I were to pick between the two, i'd go for Cass! :)

I mean, for one Cass gives life to the Big Brother House. She's like Uma's energizer or something. Cass gives "depth" to all the discussions and the conversations by saying things like DOHD, JUNATAN and YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT ATE, YOU'RE A TEACHER...

diba? Mamimiss ko yun sa kanya. :D hahaha.

Babay kay Racquel. :p

"Buti na lang na-alis na si Racquel, wala ng *toooooot*!" (Atendido, 2005).
nyahahahahaha! Ü

totoo bang nilabas si Bob sa bahay? bakit?
---
Saturday night out.

I was with Kevin the whole night just driving around Ortigas and Quezon City. haha. :D We ate dinner at Elbow Room and saw Angelu De Leon hahaha! I told Kevin my future plans regarding Reverb. I told him that Elbow Room would soon house Reverb Production that Luanne, Kurt, Jeff (of Soapdish) and I established months ago but never actually pushed through after Soapdish released their album. Hopefully, Kevin and Gem Laforteza will help me with Reverb, it's actually a dream come true bu unfortunately we only went as far as 3 gigs. :p

The night was even more memorable when Kevin and I went inside Cost U Less! 24 hours pala yun? ahaha! Everything that we did last night wasn't planned in any way so it was great..I had a great time just looking at all those brown sugar and that big trampoline which actually costs an arm and a leg (hindi 13 thousand, 14 thousand na yan!--Atendido, 2005). :)

and guess who we saw inside Cost U Less? Philip Salvador! hahaha. Proud ako, star-studded ang gabi namin ni Kevin. :D

it's one of those saturday nights that you want to repeat over and over and over again and you wouldn't get tired of it.

but I do have to say sorry..na-shock ka pa...just pretend I didn't say anything at all.. :D

"what, what, what?" :p

---
Tweenie.

Namimiss ko na si Bona.
Mas lalo na ngayon tapos na ang UAAP season.
I want to spend more time with her just like in High School.
Pumasok ka na Bonaaaaaaaaaa.
Pasok ka na sa La Salle..
Hanap kita ng boylet. haha. :p

Some pictures of our UAAP escapades. :p
a day in a life of two basketball fanatics. :D

I guess i'll ask her later this week to have coffee with me or something.
Kev, sama ka? alam ko namimiss mo ng kulitin si Bona! hahaha :D

---
White Sand.

I can never forgive myself if I still won't be able to go to Boracay this summer.
BORACAY NA TOOOOOOOOO!
hahaha. :p
wala lang just a thought. :D
---
Sister Ia.

Hey. I miss you. >:D<>

first... =)

2005-10-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

unexpected.

Wow...

*sigh*

haha. stop na. :D

---
Talo.

The DLSU Green Archers lost to the FEU Tamaraws awhile ago.

It was a very close game and worse it was a come-from-behind victory for FEU. if i'm not mistaken, the Archers even managed to get as much as an 11-point lead in the middle of the 3rd. Sobrang sad lang that we werent able to defend our championship title.

ohwell..Maybe it is already FEU's time to shine...

but still, hats off to Yeo (Soc!), Cabatu (Bona!), Casio (*ehem* haha) and the rest of the Green Archers. The best parin sila para sa akin. The best talaga. :)
---
Consequence.

...Dahil natalo ang La Salle...

When do you want me to sing for you? hahaha! :p
---
Bad Vibes.

I cried sooooo hard last night.
I just cannot forgive right now.
I was really shocked about the whole idea.
Why?
Sana hindi mo na lang sinabi sa akin.
Iba na ang tingin ko sayo.

:(

haay.

friendster

2005-10-04T21:38:00.000+08:00

Friendster.

"anooooooooo!?" that was the only thing that I remembered shouting when I heard about the news that Friendster actually included the WHO VIEWED ME setting last September. Now more than ever, people will already know who's stalking who! hahaha. But I later found out that we can either turn on or turn off the "view profiles anonymously" setting...and I managed to get a good night sleep after that.

Ang affected ko ba?

guilty kasi ako. :p

---
Moonbride.

Welcome Welcome Moonbride! :p
Tampo ako sayo ilang buwan ka na pala may blog di ko pa alam.. :D
pero dahil sa pagmamahal ko sayo
babawiin ko na ang tampo ko. hehe.

Nagkaroon tuloy ako ng ideya (naks. ideya.) na i-scan ang mga karumaldumal na mga entries sa LR25 notebook at ipakita sa buong mundo kung gaano tayo ka-creative, katawa-tawa at kasama sa iba't ibang lebel.

hmm...mukhang ikaw ang inspirasyon ko ah. hehehe. yiheee. :D
---
You.

I met his CSB friends today.
They're all so nice and warm and funny and everything.
Most expecially the 3 boys I met in the Lib. :D
Ang kulit nila!!!!
I like them very much, I hope I can hangout with them again.
:)

I spent the whole afternoon with him in CSB today.
and then we went back to DLSU
and he stayed with me up until my ride was ready to pick me up.
Kulit kuli kulit kulit lang parati. :D
Happiness.
:)

:D

gaaaaah. :p

pinaka the best na hirit of the day:: "..bakit? Panget ba 'ko?" *sabay smile*

hahaha!

kevin :)

2005-10-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

Hello you-know-who-you-are,

You just don't know how happy I am and I just want to thank you for being the ultimate source of all this.
I hope you wouldn't get tired of me. :)

/gem.
---

Chismis.

Once and for all people, I am not capable of answering your questions regarding my dad and that woman. Seriously, it's really embarassing that rumors are being spread just like that by inconsiderate people who doesn't even think of us--the family.

for chrissakes, my dad's married. he's not separated and he still goes at home everyday. He loves my mom and he considers us his LEGITIMATE family. But how come people in showbiz say things like, "Si *my dad's name* at si *that woman's name* ay talaga kayang pinagtagpo ng tadhana?!"

I mean, what the fuck is that?

The woman on the other hand, keeps on babbling about her so-called relationship with my dad in public and it pisses me off since I know all those things are just plain old crap.

Can she just shut the fuck up na lang?!

Publicity. That's what it is. She just wants her name to get stck in people's heads so that people would still talk about her. Pathetic. Simply pathetic.

I hate to admit but i'm actually hurt when I saw my dad's interview on one of them showbiz talk shows and I hated the way he described her. Pootah. ano yon? Is this some kind of joke or something? Because i'm not laughing...it's not funny at all.

It's really not very nice, you know and my family's really getting seriously affected by all this and I just want it all to stop.

I'm going to kick that woman's ass if I see her. I mean, really kick her ass. Seryoso.

WALA LANG

2005-10-01T10:46:00.000+08:00

HALA KA.

ohshit.

oh.

SHIT.

Why can't I get this smile off my face?!?!

why.

WHY!!!

hahaha. :D

---
EMO moment.

I cried last night. I have to tell Soc and Chris and Donna and Piper and Bona about it. haha.
gaaaah.
gaaaaaaaah!
---
Bipolar Party: Manic and Depression

After days and days of pangungulit from friends and SMS officers, I finally accepted the hosting job for the so-called biggest Psychology part of the year. yikes.

Mukhang biggest Psychology party nga. I heard there will be a concert, some interesting games and a fashion show to showcase one of the sponsor's apparel. Psychology students from DLSU, UP and Ateneo will join forces in making this event a blast! :) Too bad Miriam backed-out a couple of days ago...

Goodness. I don't know but i'm not pretty comfortable with the idea that people from other schools will be there while I blab (OR READ haha) my way through the whole program.

YIKES.

Chris auditioned to be part of the DLSU-Psychology modelling group. I hope you get in darling! :) Wala na silang hahanapin pa sayo. *wink*

and I got this poster from our Yahoogroups account. I just looooooove it. :)

---
THESIS.

I am starting to feel the pressure.

Soc and I met with out thesis mentor yesterday afternoon and it turned out to be a disaster...well, sort of. I mean, we had to explain the rationale of the study and we had to asnwer a million questions about the whole thesis proposal that we did and we can't even find a decent answer to any question thrown at us!

aaack. I felt really down afterwards. Soc and I felt really stupid and wanted to shred our whole thesis proposal into tiny little pieces. It's as if the whole session yesterday was an "open-your-eyes-and-see-that-your-thesis-suck-big-time" session. grrrr. I just felt so doooooown. I wanted to bang my head on the table and just wait for the floor to eat me up and never come back again.

ganon katindi.

But the good thing about Sir Yabut is that he's very calm and very laid-back and he's very easy to talk to. He doesn't scold us or give us dirty you're-stupid-and-i-hate-you're-topic look. Actually, I think he likes us. haha. :p The really nice thing about him is that he's a ROCKER. he looooooooves music and he looooooves OPM. tama ba namang after we discussed everything we just ranted and raved about the local music scene.

You know what's even cooler? our mentor plays the friggin' bass. *headbang* He had a band before but he eventually quit because of school. He became really jealous a couple of weeks (months?) back when he saw his ex-bandmates goofing around with John Joe on MTV Siesta.

and my goodness, he WATCHED ROCKESTRA too! he was also there! can you believe that!? and he loves Aia of Imago and is a self-confessed E-heads baby and he raved about Cambio and their song LEDGEBOY!

ang nakakatuwa pa niyan ay ito..

Sir Yabut:: Ano ang favorite band mo sa lahat?

Me:: Sugarfree po.

Sir Yabut:: *smiles* ah. Sugarfree..anong pinaka-gusto mong kanta nila?

Me:: Unang Araw po...at..

Sir Yabut:: ..teka teka..sa first album yun diba? *thinks for awhile* ah! ito ang unang araw na wala ka na! oo gusto ko din yun..basta yung first 3 tracks sa first album gusto ko din.

Me:: ah talaga po?

Sir Yabut:: oo. ay gusto ko din yung Martir sa second album.

Me:: *natuwa*

Ang galing. hehe. Jal and Sir Yabut plays the same instrument, they have the same profession and while the other one wrote and sang the song Martir, the other one loves it to pieces. :)

Lufet.

I know Sir Yabut will help us twist our thesis to make it look great and relevant (hahaha!) at the same time. I have a good feeling that Sir Yabut will definitely enjoy working with us and with our topic and I hope we do too. :)

Downside about all this is that I have to read 25-30 journals in less than a week and I have to write the summary or maybe evben an outline of all these journals and/or articles.

..and yes, I think Soc, Sir Yabut and I are back to square one which means that almost all of the work that we did for METRES2 will be put into waste (most likely).

*bows down head. Kandila by Sugarfree begins playing in the background. Dim Lights. Roll Credits.*

:p

labo.

today

2005-09-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

Cancelled.

SIGAW! the pop-rock concert is cancelled due to security purposes BUT they'll be doing a campus tour in various universities around town and hopefully SIGAW! will push through February of next year. :)

I went to Starbucks near school to meet up with one of the 9Muses staff to give back the 600 tickets they gave us 2 weeks ago. We were supposed to sell it in school and to whoever wants to go but unfortunately the show has been temporarily cancelled. I think it's because of the Amoranto-Muziklaban incident that made them back out.

---
Soundskool.

Weird outcome.

Everyone in Ultra was dumbfounded when they announced who won. I mean to tell you honestly, I never expected Hilera to win. I thought the guys from St. Jude would take home the title. I think their band was called Carpe Diem? Grabe, they ROCKED. The contestants were supposed to play one original song and one song from any artist that they like. These guys from St. Jude played Hallelujah by Bamboo and boy was I blown away. Ibang klase sila, it's like the real thing, man! sobrang astig nila. The original song was undoubtedly patterned from Bamboo's style but it was original and it was gooooood. galing talaga.

But Hilera from Kalayaan College took the grand prize. I have no objections. Wala din naman akong magagawa if the judges saw something unique from these guys.

Weird lang talaga kasi alam din nung vocalist na hindi talaga maganda yung performance nila that night.

"Pasensya na kayo. Nagkalat talaga kami..pasensya na. *sniffs* alam naman namin na hindi namin dini-deserve 'to. Pasensya na kayo wag kayong magagalit sa amin. Pangako namin, gagalingan namin sa mga susunod na gigs..*sniffs*"

The guy was literally crying on stage while everybody watched him...
-
I watched Soundskool with Kevin, Soc, Jr and Chris and I had a BLAST. yipee. ang saya saya just laughing our heads off and enjoying the awesome music brought to us by the best bands in the country today.

I just want to say sorry to Kevin because he wasn't able to watch Bamboo because of me. :(
sorrrrrryyyy! :(

---
Pinoy Big Brother.

Just finished watching PBB now and I really felt sad when Uma had this emotional breakdown because of the no smoking policy Big Brother gave them until tomorrow night. Nagulat ako nung una nung nagsimula siyang umiyak sa confession room kasi naisip ko para sa yosi lang naman hindi pa niya mahinto hanggang bukas ng gabi. But Toni was right, ilang buwan din naman na kasi silang walang social life, walang pang-aliw sa mga buhay nila kagaya ng TV, radyo, dyaryo at ni ultimo internet wala.

I understand Uma completely. It's not because I love him to the nth level but because I understand that smoking is the only thing that keeps him sane inside the Big Brother house. I mean, they're all completely isolated from the world. Sigarilyo na lang pang-aliw ni Uma at ng iba sa sarili so maybe I can still bear Uma's reaction awhile ago..hehe. :D
-
Happy Birthday Nene! :D
-
If there's one thing I wish that wouldn't happen is that Sam falls inlove with either Say or Chx. Hindi ko kaya yun. Hindi ko talaga kaya. :p
-
and yes, kahit na cute si Sam and he looks like a good boy and not maldito like Uma, kay Uma parin ako. :p
-
Okay, so now you can see that i'm totally hooked. as in really hooked.
I want my 24x7 UNINTERRUPTED PINOY BIG BROTHER CHANNEL!!!!!!

rar.
---
UAAP finals!

*whootwhoot!*

it's DLSU-FEU once again for the UAAP finals! :D

first game's on Thursday and I overheard somewhere that the line for the tickets was sooooo long that some people had to cut class just because of it. nyeks. I want to watch so badly that I was thinking of maybe cutting class tomorrow if it does require me to do so. :p

...but Kevin texted me this afternoon and told me that he already got sure tickets for Thursday and he's taking me! *dancedance*

ang galing! ang saya! :)

/me hugs Paulino toyt!

Thank youuuuuuuuuu. :D

which reminds me..naalala ko tuloy yung pinagusapan namin ni Ebe before..tama siya. it's still a DLSU-FEU finals. :) hehe. Sana game 2 sumama siya!

---
Projective Test, anyone?

We did this activity in Psycho2 awhile ago. We were asked to draw a person, it was up to us if we're going to draw only the face or with the whole body. We were free to do anything with the drawing! Sir Callueng reminded us that he was not interested with our artistic abilities so it doesn't matter if the drawing was perfect or just simply abstract (yes! haha!)

and then we drew another person of the opposite sex that we already did. So for me, I first did a guy on the 1st drawing and did a girl on the 2nd one.

This activity is needed for us Psych students to know what Projective Tests are and how to do simple interpretations of them.

An example would be::

- Most likely, the first drawing is a reflection of yourself...it must be the same with you gender. But if it isn't then the drawing represents someone significant to you, may it be in a good or bad way.

Basta when I get to my paper back i'll post some of the little things that makes the projective test aliw in the sense that you want to try it out with every singe person that you meet. :D

---
Paranoid.

...at dahil nga sa nangyari na insidente kay Ivan, na isang badtrip na nilalang sa buhay ko, napapansin ko lang na parang umiiwas ng landas si (him.. okay let's call him Meth. Bakit? wala lang. secret. :p) Meth. Dati naman hindi. dati naman pag andyan ako, dumadaan siya. Pero ngayon lumilihis na siya (kaya?)

O talagang ubod lang ako ng paranoid dahil alam kong ogag si Ivan?

...kung sa pakiramdaman lang naman kasi ang paguusapan, ang galing ko diyan. Sana naman mali ako pagdating sa kaniya.

I told sir Bob about it and he just casually replied, "Ayaw mo non? Reaction Formation ang ginagawa niya? Ibig sabihin hindi siya manhid. Meron diba?"

and then I told him, "Sir, ganon ba yun?"

and then he said, "Oo ganon yon....think positive!"

eehhh. ano ba yon. hehe. pero salamat sir Bob. mahal kita. :D

Wag mo lang naman sana akong iwasan. Please naman. :(

at dahil diyan...*tingin sa babang post*
---
Thinking.

:)

a smile is all I can probably do as of the moment.
this particular person makes me smile all the time.
yun lang.

:)

tangina

2005-09-23T16:52:00.000+08:00

Putragis.

Badtrip ka Ivan pinahamak mo ako!! I will get you for this!

:(

shucks. mali mali mali mali.

I know it. I JUST KNOW. He heard it. Narinig niya yun at hindi ako nagbibiro. Napakalakas ba naman ng pagsigaw kanina ni Ivan at talagang maririnig niya yun. Badtrip ka Ivan I hate you to the nth level. Hayup ka.

Okay lang sana kung hindi sadya e. It's really alright if he never did it on purpose but he did! He shouted it so that he would hear it. Para buking ako. Para malaman niya.

IVAN MAGPANTAY MAY CRUSH KA KAY PAUIE SAYAROT!

hayup ka. bwisit.

Sinira mo naman lahat e. I was already in speaking terms with him. Pucha naman e. Why do you have to humiliate me like that, we're not even that close. hayup ka talaga. bwisit bwisit bwisit.

I don't have any idea how to face him anymore. I mean, it's useless. tangina. fine kung PATAY NA BATA siya. pero ang pagiging PATAY NA BATA ay hindi dahilan para malaman niya. okay ka lang? tao din yun. lalaki din yun. siyempre it can be two things: one is that he backs off when he sees me and doesnt want to talk to me anymore OR two he can tell it to one of his closest friends (which of course is none of other than that guy. josko please) and as they say the rest will be history.

ano ba nababadtrip ako. I mean, it's okay if it's like an open secret or something like that. But I just dont want people telling it to his FACE. pucha badtrip yun e. sapul yun e. solid yun e.

IVAN LAGOT KA SA AKIN SA HISTCIV. LAGOT KA SA AKIN.

*faints*

ohmygod

2005-09-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

Pinoy Big Brother deleted scenes.

I don't know about you guys but someone just sent me 7 (or was that 8?) still pictures of scenes during the Hawaiian/Luau party for Sam a couple of days back. and my goodness it was sooooo far out I never really expected some of the pictures. It wasn't very nice. In fact, it wasn't nice at all!

ang masasabi ko lang, iba na ang Pinoy ngayon. hahahahaha. yeah..as the song goes, "ipakita sa mundo!" haha

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Philo class.

We just started the term last week and I never expected my Philosophy class to be like this. I mean, fine, my professor can actually teach. He can! It's just that there's something in him that I don't like. I don't despise him or anything, I just don't like him sometimes. Most especially if he becomes this really horny alpha-male kind of person. it really freaks me out.

During the first day of class, a classmate of mine (don't know her personally) and my professor got into this really weird conversation in front of the whole class. It went something like this...

Prof: (exlplains about Nitszche and women being "dangerous play things") "...and you know, women like Britney Spears! yeah! *grins* and..and..Diana Zubiri! these women are dangerous play things you know what I mean.."

the girl: "Uh! Sir, she's cheap!..your taste is cheap!"

Prof: (looks at the girl and grins) "..well okay, might be envy that's talking.."

the girl: "Uh! Sir! you have to see me in a bikini!"

and the whole class was like watching a tennis match, looking at the prof and the girl and we were all so stunned no one reacted after that.

hahaha.
tangena ang bangis. :p

sabay hirit nanaman si the girl after a couple of minutes about her Introduction to Philosophy class. She commented by saying..

"uh! You know what? I got this really really high score in my IntPhil class because i'm from Woodrose?! and oh my god, like the one that we took up during highschool was the same thing we took up during IntPhil so I got a really really high score..."

ehhehehehehehe.

wahahahahaahahahahha.

i'm sorry but did I just hear Alicia Silverstone in Clueless?

nakakatawa grabe.

hey, if ever you do read this, no hard feelings. I mean, it's amazing really. ang galing talaga. wala akong masabi, never in a thousand years will I ever speak that way...never. kaya astig ka. ;)

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Hello, goodbye.

Some people just don't understand the meaning of goodbye. Or maybe some people still doesn't get it? pag sinabing babay na, babay na talaga. Back off and shut it. There are other people out there who wants to be happy and get on with their lives (like me. like you. like them. like everybody else. get the point?)

wag ng ipilit ang sitwasyon. wala ka din namang mapapala e.

and no, don't look at me that way. di kita aatrasan no. babay na.

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HIM.

I got to talk to him in school awhile ago. hahaha. I don't want to elaborate but yea, I got to talk to him and he was friendly and he was nice and he was heavenly. hahaha.

gusto ko lang ipaalam sa kanya na I literally planned what I was going to tell him and I thought that it was about time that I get to talk to him na. Diyoskoday tama na ang mga sulyap na ito. hahaha. at gusto ko lang din ipaalam sa kanya na nanginginig yung tuhod ko kanina at mas pinagaling niya ako lalo. naks.

how keso. :p

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Ateneo Law.

jeez. I'm going to pass my application form tomorrow. Sir Bob and Sir Galo were able to give me the recommendation forms on time. Nagpapicture na din ako ng 2x2 at 1x1. I filled up every single line on the application form. Kulang na lang yung transcript of grades ko. Yun na lang kukunin ko bukas. then im off to Rockwell Drive to submit my Ateneo Law school form..

and wait..
and wait..
and wait..

for October 22, 2005
for the entrance exam.
hahaha. goodluck. :p

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SIGAW! THE ULTIMATE POP-ROCK CONCERT

When: October 15, 2005, 5:30 PM
Where: The Fort, Fort Bonifacio Global City Open Field
Who: Sugarfree, Hale, Sponge Cola, Kitchie Nadal, Barbie Almalbis, Stonefree and 6 Cycle Mind

I'm selling tickets for those who want to watch! 200 pesos only! :D
Bili na kayo daliiiiii!
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Nescafe Soundskool Finals

shucks. it's going to be on Saturday already at the Ultra! If im not mistaken gates will open at around 5pm. :)

ooooh..i just LOVE the lineup of the bands. ang gandaaaa! I hope I can watch with my friends! :)

and goodluck to DLSU's bet, FIRELANE! galingan ninyo ha! everyone's supporting you guys! woohooo! :D
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BIRTHDAY!

Happy Birthday Dingdong Almario! :D *hughug*

Happy Birthday (tomorrow) to the best mom in the whole world, my mama! mahal na mahal kitaaaaaa! lahat ng ginagawa ko para sa inyo nila daddy. :)

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Psst.

Kevin, i'm not sick anymore! :)
When we meet ulit ha, you have to absolutely do your *censored* impersonation! kailangan kailangan kailangan! :D hahaha.
thanks for being there when I was bored and sick as hell. :)

mga sgot

2005-09-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

ANSWERS to TAG.

I have no idea why i'm having problems posting in my tagboard today. Weird but whenever I click the submit button my message doesn't appear anywhere. so better to answer the tags here! :D

CARMELA: oh my! you watch Pinoy Big Brother too? :) hehe ang saya! bonding tayo minsan nila Soc tas puro PBB ang paguusapan natin! crush ko si Uma! *sniggers* haha kaya lang parang mas babae pa ata saakin yun. :p hmmm...ayoko din kay JB e. badtrip siya kung ano ano na lang pinupuna. asshole. haha. miss na kita! :D love you!

SMUDGE: skin? skin of my blogspot? i'm sorry but i don't really know. a really good friend of mine just did this page for me and I think she just got this whole concept from different ideas and blogs she encountered during the years in which she surfed the internet. :) it's really designed for me and was not copied from anyone else. :) i'm flattered you liked it. thanks. :D

crave

2005-09-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

Crave.

I just hate it when I feel that it's going to be the time of the month. I crave for certain things that I can't possibly find at home. Nakakainis kasi hindi ko alam kung psychological lang ang pagka-gutom ko o talagang nagugutom ako...pati ba naman ito stress pa rin?

#1 TWIX CHOCOLATE BAR

#2 HI-RO CHOCOLATE COOKIES

I want it right here, right now. Unfortunately wala kaming ganong dito sa bahay kaya Sky Flakes na lang ako. Ang saya no? Ang nakakainis pa niyan, the next day I don't feel like eating it anymore even if I know that I can buy it since i'm out. Eh wala, wala na to, hindi ko masasatisfy ang crave ko. hurmpf.

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Application Form.

I finally went to Ateneo to get my application form for law. It costs 1,200 pesos and a melange of unusual emotional feelings. It's as if i'm proud of myself but then again there's this really big part of me that says, "putangina what the hell are you doing!? you can't possibly go into Law school!! NOOOOOO!" (oh yes, that happens all the time) And then my dad sees the application form, he's all smiles and so proud of me that I can't turn him down.

So okay, I'LL TRY. I am trying. If I don't get in, then it's not for me, but if I do then hello 900-page hardbound bookS. (reiterate the S, if you may). Honestly, I am excited. It's like a brand-new phase in my life. It's as if i'm applying for college again! all those lines that you have to fill-up with your name, the school you attended and all those generic items we all see on application forms.

hah. I can't believe i'm doing this. hindi talaga. hahaha. ibang level.

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to the moon and back.

I got to see him for like a minute or two along the corridor awhile ago. ang hirap lang ng ganito. the people you want to see, you don't see and the people you DON'T want to see, ends up in front of your face a gazillion times in just one day. It's not enough for me that I see him just like that, but I still am thankful that I can still see him around. True, I don't have classes with him anymore and it sucks because that's the only time that I can just literally be with him. Yes, it's that desperate and i'm not ashamed of that.

Although in situations like these, I can probably say that one look, one glance, one stare can actually mean so much in a hundred and different ways. well today, it meant the whole world to me... x)

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Mayric's.

Nag-enjoy naman ako kahit nahuli kami ng pagdating at kahit may tumutulo na parte ng kisame sa may inupuan namin. Ang tagal kong hindi napanood yung Sugarfree at nakalimutan ko na kung gaano pala kasarap yung feeling kapag nanonood. :D I went with my kuya, his bestfriend and another family friend of ours.

may mga panahon kung saan nagulat ako, natawa at napangiti ng sobra kagabi. napangiti ng sobra kasi siguro dahil na din may mga napasaya akong mga taong mahalaga sa akin. natawa't nagulat at naguluhan dahil sa mga iba't ibang bagay na mas lalong nagpa-special sa gabi.

masaya. ewan ko ba, I reallywas happy last night. ayus na ayus e. ;)

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bakit...

bumabalik? hahaha. wag naman sana. mas masaya pag ganito kasi parang dati I wanted this and that to happen and then it doesnt. tapos ngayon that I supressed (with all my might) the feelings that I have for that one particular person, may progress naman. parang mas okay ngayon kaysa dati. parang good na good na good vibes ngayon and i like it. i like it a lot. haha.
pero sa sobrang good vibes bumabalik naman ata. yikes. yoko na. basta masaya lang. :D

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katkatkatkat

huy. ilabyu! :D hihi. kwentuhan galore sa text ulit ha.

just a thought...

2005-09-12T20:50:00.000+08:00

first day.

I actually had fun today. :) It's been awhile since I saw my friends and I had a great time blabbering about nonsensesical things and laughing our heads off with new and old jokes and antics. naknampucha. Chris brought with him his very own 69 bachelors magazine from Cosmo and we drooled over (not literally) Dennis Trillo. hahaha! ano ba yun!

I saw him today! *dancedance* In the most unexpected place pa! Actually, I saw "signs" before I actually saw him. I saw a very close friend of his sitting at one of those LS benches near the Accounting office and then when I went with Pipay, Soc and the others at the front of the AC, I saw another guy friend of his. After a few seconds, I caught sight of someone familiar and I doublechecked if it was really him that I saw..and YES! It was him. Nagkatinginan pa kami *slaps forehead* twice. uh. punyeta. Hindi naman na ako makalingon when he was talking to his friend, so that's actually the last time I saw him today.

But after class, Camille, a close friend of mine saw me in Agno and happily told me, "uy Gem, nakita ko siya just now! next class pala niya yung katabing classroom natin! Ikaw kasi, bumaba ka kaagad!"

Thank You God. :)

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at last.

my best guy buddy RJ is now officially a La Sallite! :) He made it he made it he made it! :D he just transferred from CSB and now he's already in Main taking up Philippine Mass Media. I saw him today too. Naawa nga ako kasi naka-pila siya sa CLA adjustment tapos soooobrang daming tao. Good thing he has one class with some of my DLSU barkada. :) medyo nao-OP nga daw siya but I told him that i'll always be here whenever he needs me.

aaww. With Bona still on leave, at least Jay's taking her place as of the moment.
I'm so proud of you tytz!
gumagwapo ka paaaaa! aaaaay!

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talaga?

I have no idea if a friend (??!!) of mine actually made sense when she said something like, "...you know, I feel that people without boyfriends or girlfriends are considered losers of our generation. don't you think?"

uhm..hmm?

hindi na ako nakapag-comment. I don't even know if she's worth arguing to. Hindi na lang din ako nagsalita, hinayaan ko siyang dumada ng dumada about her eccentric points of view about life and among other things, having a SINGLE life. Hindi ko alam kung isinusumpa niya ang mga taong katulad ko at ng milyon-milyong tao sa balat ng lupa na hindi pa nakakahanap ng tamang tao na kaya nilang tagalan ang hininga, pawis at kung ano-ano pang mga sensitibong aspeto ng pagkatao nito.

Ewan. Ang labo niya.

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Pinoy Big Brother.

Naalis si Rico.
Siya pa naman yung crush ng bestfriend kong si Soc.
and mind you, Rico's actually part of the 69 bachelors of Cosmopolitan magazine this year!
Pero sa totoo lang, medyo bababa siguro ang rating ng PBB dahil wala na siya. Siya pa naman yung bukang-bibig ng madaming tao (READ: girls and gays). Pero sa kabilang banda, hindi din naman siguro kasi maganda parin naman yung takbo nung show at madaming gustong makakakita sa transformation ni Franzen.

hahaha. what the fuck. Tama daw bang i-critique ko ang nangyayari sa Pinoy Big Brother. hahahaha! Funny kanina sa school, whenever there's a chance to talk in between classes all we did was rant and rave about PBB and PBB alone! There would be times that it would lead to other topics but then it would still end with PBB or with Rico or Uma or any housemate. haha. ADIK.

ohmygoodness-Isolove-Uma-magpapakatomboy-ako-para-sa-kanya

Can't you guys see? Uma's GAY. ang dami pang nagsasabing hindi. eh gay naman talaga siya. Walang lalakeng marunong magplantsa ng buhok. and Uma can actually make Franzen and Jayson look good ha. infernez. Nakita niyo ba yung episode na yun? tapos may kendeng siya. tapos during the eviction night, ang habaaaaaa ng pagyakap niya kay Rico with a smirk on his face. hahaha. anobah. Gay si Uma pero love ko siya. *faints*

gaaaah. pero bakit ganon crush ko si Uma!!! hahaha. :D

But the one thing that made me like him even more was when he actually said it in Willie's face that he thinks he's the one who would be voted out next since according to him, "tamad po talaga ako e. yun po. alam ko pong mali yun, pero talagang ganon po talaga ako e. tamad po talaga..."

aaawww. *faints*

Soc told me awhile ago that Uma's part of one of Sheryn Regis' music videos. Iwannasee!

tsk. ang tagal mag 9:40. My mom didn't allow me to get the 24x7 PBB channel. aaww. it actually costs 1,500 bucks for the whole season. My mom says that its crap and we'll just be wasting money most especially if she learns that Uma would be the next one to be evicted. Edi hindi na daw ako manonood? OF COURSE NOT! Uma will not be next! :p

Sana si CASS. *evilgrin* yakap ng yakap kay Uma e. badtripsiya.

natatawa't naiirita ako sa expression ng mga housemates na DUDE. Minsan kasi parang ang lumalabas e, DOHD na ang pagkakasabi nila. hahaha. parang di bagay e. *lol*

question lang...why does Rico put blush-on?

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last but not the least...

Maligayang Bati sa'yo Jal. :)

mahal kitaaaa! :D

maging happy lang tapos okay na, walang tanda-tanda yan! :p

me again

2005-09-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

Back Home.

I just got back last tuesday and boy was I tired. I rarely went out of the house ever since I got back. All I did was eat, sleep, play, watch TV, go online and sleep again. I'm a certified bum! yes! :D

Singapore was awesome. The whole place looks so clean and so..erm..green. It was really nice that the people there doesn't have too much of a hard time trying to understand and speak english unlike in Hong Kong. We went to the Merlion Park during our semi tour and wow, the place was fantastic. Ibang klase. It was kind of gloomy when we went to the Merlion Park but it didn't stop us from taking tons and tons of pictures. We only spent 2 nights in Singapore and flew back to Hong Kong for the rest of the trip. aaah. Hong Kong will always be my favorite. Singapore's great but for some reason, Hong Kong has a special place in my heart.

(Me and my favorite favorite Whiskers at Ocean Park!)

Mahal kasi sa Singapore e. Mahal ang bilihin, mas lalo na pag pinagusapan na ang mga damit. Pero wala akong masasabi sa sobrang mura ng pagkain nila. Lamon inabot namin don e and the food was incredible. Sarap sarap sarap! :) We werent able to go to Sentosa though, my mom and a couple of my friends who already went there told me how spectacular the place is. Sayang, but there's always a next time, i'm sure of it. ;)

Busog na busog ako sa mooncake! :D Mid-Autumn festival na kasi and there were mooncakes everywhere! ang saraaaap. haha. :)

I even went to Tom Lee to window shop and to buy some pasalubong for a couple of very special friends back here. Lumuwa mata ko sa napakagagandang mga gitara! *drool* Overhearing some of my friends talking about guitars and all, about them telling each other that a sort of Fender Telecaster isnt available in Manila anymore etc. etc. haha. I don't really know what they're talking about but when I saw these words on dozens of guitars inside the store, abaaaa. alam ko na kung ano. haha. Ang cool parang wala lang yung mga gitarang mamahalin doon, nakasabit lang sila. hehe. So I texted a friend of mine and gushed about how cool it was and texted him that I hope he's with me to share the 'sights'. :p Thank you pala kay Monty and Paga for telling me to go to Tom Lee whenever im in HK. :) ayus na ayus nga Monts! :)

Everybody in HongKong are soooo excited for the opening of HongKong Disneyland this coming Monday, 12th September. Giordano, the clothing store, even sells Disney made shirts and sweaters just for this specific event. There's also this HK Disneyland store right in the middle of HK's airport wherein everyone can do last minute shopping.

Ang saya. I can't wait to go there as well. :D

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Play Station 2.

The only 2 things that my brother told me to buy for him are the following: a new pair of Adidas sneakers and a Play Station 2. My kuya doesn't really ask much and it I know it would really make him disappointed if we didn't buy what he likes. So the very first thing we bought in HK was his sneakers and his PS2.

Being the dweeb that I am, I don't really know what the original and th modified PS2 looks like. So when we came back and we surprised my kuya and gave him his very new, very slick PS2, he was even surprised to see what we bought him. According to him, the only PS2 model that he sees when he goes to his friends' house are the big, bulky ones that somewhat resembles a hollowblock in shape and in size. He was so amazed when he pulled out the thinner (aka modified) version of the PS2.

and all he can say is, "tangina, ang liit! mas malaki pa yung mga notebook mo dito e!"

the following day, the both of us went to Greenhills and bought 9 PS2 games that we are currently enjoying. :)

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Back to School.

Second term starts on Monday. I'm not expecting anything special this term, but i'm hoping I could see him often as I want to. I hope there wouldnt be any hassles on our thesis and hopefully I could still do what I did last term--steady but making waves. :D

Gaaad, I can't wait for our LASARET. It's an overnight retreat with my blockmates! yipeeee! :)

ooooh, sana okay yung mentor and reader namin ni Soc. gaddarnit. Sana okay din yung makuha naming 3rd partner. Si andy kasi e..ahaha. kidding.

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Pinoy Big Brother.

Who watches this show?
*raises hand*
I do! I do!

myged. hindi ko akalain na masisiyahan ako sa palabas na'to, pero oo, inaamin ko, I am soooo addicted to the show that I am now persuading my mom to get me the 24x7 Pinoy Big Brother channel in Sky Cable. Seryoso! gusto ko makita lahat ng pinagagagawa nila inside the house.
I even daydream about being in the show with a couple of friends. hahaha. So kick me.

I adore UMA.
I don't fucking care is he's gay.
ang hot niya. *sizzle sizzle*
:D

leaving and then some

2005-09-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

Ang Saya.

Chris celebrated his birthday with us with a bang! We slept over at the posh Intercontinental Manila in Makati and went out to Greenbelt in the wee hours of the morning. We were supposed to go to Temple bar but we forgot that it was actually a Wednesday night and that people stay away from gimik places in the middle of the week. Temple bar was so deserted. As in there was not a single (customer) soul in there. So we decided to sing our lungs out instead at Red Box.

Ay sosyal. Ang saya saya grabe. We were quite shocked with the per head charge but it was worth it as the night (err..morning) drew on. From Ace of Base to the Eraserheads, nobody stopped us from singing whatever we liked!

Nakakatawa pa yung waiter...

ako: pwede na bang mag-order ng drinks?
waiter: sige pwede naman na..
nagkagulo lahat: o sino gusto ng beer? beer sayo? ako iced tea...
water: sandali lang ho, kailangan ko makita mga id ninyo bago ko kayo bigyan ng beer..
kami: huh? bakit?
waiter: eh mukha kayong mga bata e! para kayong inutusan ng mga magulang ninyo na magpunta dito para kumanta e!

*lahat kami biglang na-flatter*

nyahahaha. may gatas pa pala kami sa labi. nyehe. :D

Basta, sobrang saya nung overnight kahit hindi naman talaga kami natulog. We just slept for an hour and a half at around 6.30 in the morning. nakapanood pa kami ng Magandang Umaga Pilipinas. hahaha. :p

Pictures at my Multiply page :)

Thanks Chris. i love you! :D

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Leaving.

Nagulat ako. Akala ko naman next week pa.

We'll be leaving tomorrow at around 6.30 am. We'll be going straight to Singapore and then we'll be flying to Hong Kong. We'll be back around a week or so. I have never been to Singapore, so it'll be my first time tomorrow. I've heard that electronic gadgets are really cheap there but clothes aren't. We're not planning to go shopping in Singapore, our main agenda is to see the country to see the tourist attractions there.

hay excitedness naman ito. nakakagulat, unexpected muli. :D

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Grades.

I finally got to see all of my grades yesterday. Natutuwa ako kasi walang may alanganin na grades sa aming magbabarkada. I know all of us did well, reward na lang din siguro sa amin yung masayang birthday bash ni Chris! :)

Excuse me for saying this but i'm just happy I was able to do it again! hihi..the thing is, I got to be on the Dean's List again! *jumps for joy* together with Soc and yes, Jr! woohoo! :D

...and I do want to thank him for being such a wonderful inspiration. :) Thank you din kay God syempre. :D

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Him.

After days of not seeing him, I was able to see him (and sit beside him. hahaha!) yesterday. He's still the same quiet person who wears that shoes and plays with his watch while talking to his friends. I still like him alot but I guess I don't want to be too persistent anymore. Naisip ko lang na, mamaya sobrang sakit lang sa huli. But no one can ever stop me from liking him and thinking about him too much.

gusto ko siya ng ibang level. :p

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tssss.

What is up with that?Ano kaya yun? Bakit bigla na lang. Sobrang nabadtrip lang ako kanina. Napuno na lang ako, parang i'm doing you guys a favor here. Kaya wag naman sanang manunumbat. this has nothing to do with other things pero parang konektado na din e. panira lang talaga.

letseh.

buti na lang good mood ako kung hindi ewan ko na.

picsgalore

2005-08-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

Rockestra.

I did something forbidden when I watched Rockestra last August 19...
but I can't help it. I just have to take pictures. tons of them.
kahit na alam kong bawal. hehehe. :p
I know the pictures aren't good enough because I was literally hiding my camera while I was taking these since I was really scared that some of the bouncers might kick me out of the show or worse, make me go on stage and humiliate me in front of all those people.

imahinasyon nga naman. :)

anyhoo, ito yung ibang matitino. check out my Multiply page next month for the complete set of pictures and some videos. yay!

I sooooo love Aia's outfit! Dalagang Pinay with a twist. :)

I overheard three girls gushing over how handsome and how adorable Jal was during Rockestra. :D naaaks.

for some reason his outfit reminded me of Southborder and Jay-R..:D..

my ultimate childhood crush emerged once again during Rockestra when I saw him on stage! :) hihi. ang cute ng outfit niyaaaa.

That's Zach over there..

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Admit One.

It was Sugarfree's 6th year anniversary and it was a fun fun fun night. :)

It was nice hearing Di Bale Na Lang being played by Sugarfree. Saya lang kasi I haven't seen them for the longest time, kaya may sabik factor. :p

si Bodjie talaga star nung gabing yun eh. solo pa siya sa Mariposa. :D

eto makulit. Ebe teases Jal about his polo. haha. pinapalitan niya yung lyrics ng Mariposa para lokohin lang si Jal. :)

Di ko makuhanan ng full band ang Halo (or any other band for that matter), daming ulong nakaharang e. :p

yay!

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Bading.

Ang saya makipagusap ulit kay Lee! ano beh. hehe. namiss ko yun ah!

After lunch date natin ha! wag kakalimutan! *dancedance* excited!!!!

hallelujah!!!

2005-08-29T16:52:00.000+08:00

Tapos.

*jumps for joy posing ala-Darna*

At long, long last I finished 1st term alive. Last term was definitely the hardest term ever in my entire life. But still, if I were to choose between doing Math, Algebra and the works, i'd still go for last term. :D kahit na ipa-memorize pa sa akin ang buong Encyclopedia ng Psychology (meron bang ganon?!) payag ako, just don't make me deal with numbers. haha.

mga hinayupak na yun, ayaw sa akin.

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Laglag Salawal.

"Tangna Chris, sayang kaaaaaaaaaaaa!", that's exactly what I said when Chris handed his Sony digicam to make me look at one of his "trip lang" pictures.

Ano ba. ANOBAAAAH. Hindi ko ito kaya.

For all of you who doesn't know my darling Chrissie, (which reminds me, it's his birthday today!) is a very very very good friend of mine. He's one of the greatest people i've met in La Salle. Sobrang love ko yan and I would always stand by him whatever happens.

The first time my friends and I met Chris, we thought of him as one cute guy (as in, delisyus siya!) Wala e, gorgeous talaga e. He striked me as one of them cute-geeky type of guys since he wasn't as loud as the others. A common girl friend even commented, "I like him. Crush ko siya. Ang cute niya e."

and we all agreed. Who wouldn't? Makinis. Matangkad. Maganda ngumiti. Magaling magsalita at magsulat. Mabait.

So we became friends and we became close.
Until it dawned on us that he..
well, he's..
yeah.
you know what I mean. :p

We never actually thought of him less, that's how it is. Accept, accept.
the first few days, we just cannot. as in KEN NAT. im sorry.
ang gorgeous niya kasi e.
but of course we never blamed him, nobody blamed anybody, it's just how it is.
ganon talaga e.

But every so often us girls would look at him longingly, bite our lips and say: "Tangna Chris, ang gwapo mo! Sayaaaaaang..." and then followed by, "Anakan mo na lang kami isa-isa?! pwede? ganda malamang ng combination ng genes natin.."

intrigued?

have a look at this.. :D

NOTE:: sisterette LEE, eto na si Chris! *nudgenudge*

at eto pa...

:D see? I even told him, "Chris, magkamukha kayo ni Champ..baka meant to be kayo?", he just smiled and we laughed our heads off. pwede diba?

---

Siya.

I never considered Daniel Beddingfield as a personal favorite but there are times wherein i'm alone, deep in thought and then *kaboom* I start to hum a particular line of a song and it never leaves me till I get down to what it actually wants to tell me...

deeply irritated by my LSS mode, I was able to do this instead of just write it up on a piece of paper.

After finishing that, it occurred to me that I was, well, over and over again, thinking about this mysterious and innocent looking guy in school that I haven't seen in days. Looking down on the black paper with the colorful chalk letters I thought, "just how I wanted my feelings to be expressed."

mismo e.

:)

---
Law School.

Wala ng atrasan ito. My parents are really pushing me to take the exam and there's no way I can possibly get out of it.

Kanina pag gising ko, my mom shoved me this morning's paper in my face. Literal nga na kakagising lang, malabo ang mga nakasulat. Simply rubbing my eyes off sleep, nagulantang ako sa nabasa ko.

ATENEO DE MANILA UNIVERSITY-Rockwell Center, Makati
Admission forms will be available on 05 September 2005 onwards
1:00-7:00 pm
Third Floor

Must have at least finished: 18 units of English, 6 units of Math, 12 (?) units of Social Science and 3 units of Rizal course.

My mom looked at me expectedly. She had that hopeful look in her eyes and that silly grin on her face. "Ano Gem? Scary ba? Your Dad will be so proud of you!"

I never said anything and only had this expression plastered on my face or something like it:

"huuuwhat?"

I'm not gloating at my mom or anything, i was just so unprepared for this--for everything.

hindi ko talaga inisip e. hindi talaga.

I guess it wouldn't be that bad. tingin mo?

still sad and mourning...

2005-08-23T13:38:00.000+08:00

Wilf.

I still feel sad about Wilfrid's passing. I don't know why i'm so affected, maybe because iv'e seen him around a couple of times and never really thought of making an effort to know him better.

I want to go to his wake but i'm having second thoughts. Sino naman ako para dumalaw and be surrounded by close friends and relatives?

Naisip ko lang, kung malungkot na ako sa lagay na'to, ano pa kaya ang nararamdaman ng mga taong malapit na malapit sa kanya?

Ebe texted me at around 2.50 am yesterday. He told me he misses Wilfrid already.

:(

---

Yikee.

Ayoko na maging sad. kaya eto na lang...

Me: *calls his name*
Siya: *looks around and finds me looking at him*
Me: *gives him the form*
Siya: "ay.." *gets the form, gets the pen, signs it*
Me: *looks intently at his handwriting*
Siya: *gives it back to me* Thank You!
Me: walang reaction daw. :p pero kilig to the nth level. hahaha!
hahaha. wow. :D

goodnight wolfmann...

2005-08-21T21:18:00.000+08:00

Goodnight Wolfmann...

I saw Wilfrid outside Folk Arts Theatre last Friday after Rockestra. I saw him near the gates with a bunch of people I barely recognize. I took a second look at him but decided not to approach him anymore since he doesn't really know me and it would be really awkward if I just stayed there and talked to him.

But for some reason, I really wanted to stop and talk and to see how he is. I never actually thought of it as a sign. I saw him last Friday, busy looking at his phone. I don't know if he's texting someone or just reading one of the messages in his inbox. All I can remember is that I saw him, sideview, with his glasses looking intently at his phone.

It never occurred to me that it'll be the last time that i'll see him. ever.

One really vivid memory I have of Wilfrid was during one gig of Sugarfree at 19th East in Paranaque. I went with Sam and Jal to watch the gig and it was too early to start the show when we arrived. I sat with Ebe, Jal, Mitch, Sam, Bodjie and Wilfrid. I was engulfed with their conversation and I just sat their listening to them.

I remember Wilfrid telling Ebe that before he went to 19th East, he finished watching Kamao in Channel 2. It was the first time that I saw him up-close and he did have a striking resemblance with Vice Mayor and actor Hebert Bautista.

One hilarious moment that night when Mitch asked Wilfrid this question with a straight face, "Pare, ano ba apelyido mo? Bautista?" Wilfrid, snorted but Mitch interrupted him, "hindi, hindi Pare, ka-ano ano mo ba sila Herbert Bautista? kasi pare, kamukha mo talaga e." Wilfrid just laughed it off and said, "Pare, hindi ko talaga sila ka-ano ano e."

Wilfrid and I never really talked but we added each other in YM. I never had the chance to talk to him there as well but I would see him go online from time to time. It's just so sad that I wouldn't be able to see his YM smiley face light up again...

I am such a big fan of his music. There was a time when all I ever wanted to hear was Piniritong Dalagang Bukid and his electronica mix for Imago's take 2. He's also one of the hard working artists to make electronica music familiar to mainstream music fans all over the country. Wilf has influenced tons of artists to do the same and I know he will always be remembered because of his influence, passion for music and his friendship with the people who truly knew him.

There are times when I can't help but question God for the things that He does, for the things that He purposely do. I know that there is a reason for Wilf to pass away but these are one of the times that I want to ask God why, why now? Why now when Wilf has so much to give to our struggling industry? Why Wilfrid? why not the evil politician who pockets the nation's money instead?

Let us all pray for Wilfrid's soul and may God give his loved ones strength to endure his sudden passing.

May you rest in peace Wilfrid. Never goodbye, just goodnight.

---

From Wolfmann's Yahoogroups:

Wolf's wake will start tomorrow Funeria Paz Manila Memorial Park alongSucat Road in Parañaque City. Mass will be held Wednesday Night andFuneral rites will be on Thursday at 9 a.m.

"Isang gabi sa may bayan
may isang babaeng timawa
na puno ng hiwaga..."

charlie

2005-08-14T16:31:00.000+08:00

oompa-loompa.

ay, eto na. favorite ko na talaga ang Charlie and the Chocolate Factory!

:D

Where the hell does Tim Burton actually get his ideas??

ang saya tumira sa imahinasyon niya! :)

Johnny Depp rocked as usual. :D

again! i want to watch it again! :)

...and i LOVE the oompa-loompas! fasheyown pa sila o..see? :p

wowowee.

2005-08-14T15:59:00.000+08:00

Ibang klase.

Naramdaman mo na kaya yung sobrang pagod, sobrang kakaisip, sobrang kaka-aral na parang lahat na lang ng nangyayari sa paligid mo na iba eh, inaakala mong bago o di naman kaya ay out of this world?

heh. ganoon na ako ngayon.

It was nly yesterday that I found out that most of my classmates are only taking up 12 units, and they actually thought of doing that, yes, doing that. that. that underload thing. Funny, now that I think about it, my friends and I are the only ones who took up a total of 18 units this term--THAT explains why we're having such a hard time.

taena. hindi na naubos yung hell week ko. sunod sunod sunod. I don't even know why i'm still alive. ito na siguro ang pinaka-mahirap na pinagdadaanan ko sa buong pageeskwela ko! Buti na lang, buti na lang. . .

Buti na lang andyan ka sintaaaaaaaaaaa! paano na lang ako kung wala ka, sintaaaaa!!!

*heeheehee*

toxic toxic toxic.

konti na lang Gem, konti na lang, matatapos na. :D

---

wow.

I was with him the whole afternoon. hahaha. But we never really talked talked. medyo lang. haha. It's complicated.

after that EMO moment a couple of days ago, I was able to gain my old self back because of what happened the other day. I was really happy, without any concrete and speicific reason at all. All I know is that i'm happy because I was with him the whole afternoon. Just there. I was cursing and at the same time thanking the very lethal workload for the past couple of weeks. Cursing because of the obvious fact that, yes, I am having such a haaaaaard time juggling 18 units, each of them demanding for our attention. Thanking because if we weren't in this situation, I wouldn't be able to work in school the whole afternoon and be in one little space with him.

hahaha.

ang keso ko grabe. hahahaha.

may pa-drama effect nga sana ako na, he keeps me going, pero hindi na. hahaha. wag na. :p

---

a week ago, thanks to my groovy mom, she was able to purchase three tickets to ROCKESTRA! :)

yay!

excitedness. I can't wait! at least, this concert would act as a reward to all the work that i've been facing in school. Someone even told me that if the Sugarfree Unplugged gig made me cry, Rockestra would give me goosebumps. Ganon daw katindi. nakakatindig balahibo daw yung arrangements! To all those people who will be watching, we should look out for Twisted Halo's set daw. Sobrang astig daw nung sa Halo! But i'm sure that everyone would expect each and every band to be as fantabulous as the next. ;)

Natuwa lang ako sa naisip ko, paano kaya kung one time big time lang, lahat sila naka-formal sa Rockestra? As in tuxedo na pang-Penguin ang datingan. Everything black and white --and get this, LEATHER SHOES for the guys! hahaha. alam ko isa sa kanila hate na hate ang leather shoes e, ano kayang mararamdaman niya pag nagsuot siya non for the sake of the whole show? :p I was thinking of backless, glittering long gowns for Aia, Myrene and Kris. As in all made-up sila while they're holding their electric guitars and singing.

ang cool kaya non. :p

I scanned an article in PDI's Super! yesterday...

---

NAPAPANSIN MO NA YATA...

nakakahiya naman, gusto lang naman kitang titigan
napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan,
napapangiti di ko alam ang dahilan
alam kong hindi pu-pwedeng maging tayo
pero nag-iiba ang ikot ng, ikot ng mundo...

I guess majority of you already saw them on TV, heard them on the radio or have seen them perform live waaaay before they had an album..

SOAPDISH just released their self-titled album including of course the carrier single Ewan Ko and the old favorites such as Tensionado, Sana Sinabi and Puwede Ba.

Bilib ako sa HIGHER. i like it, i like it a lot! :D

grab your COPY now! Available at all major music stores nationwide! Soapdish is under v3 Viva Records Corp. :)

SOAPDISH is: (L-R) Cesar Bendoy - bass, Kurt Floresca - drums, Jeff Bolivar - vocals, guitars and Terence Teves - guitars.

Congratulations Soapdish! :) i'm so proud of you guys, ang galing galing! woohoo! mahal ko kayo. :D

for bookings and inquiries you can contact Luanne Manlapaz at 0921 813 42 66 or you can email Gem Tulfo at yehveybey_14@yahoo.com

:)

---

Terno!

Terno invites you to....

*tadaaaaa*

emo moment

2005-08-10T21:18:00.000+08:00

*sniff*

Sobrang gusto kita pero hindi naman kita makausap.
Kilala mo nga ako, kilala kita pero hindi naman tayo nagkakasama.

Hanggang ganito na lang ba ako? Parati?
:(

ang lungkot. nalulungkot ako.
and then I found out just this morning that we don't have classes together next term.
lech na buhay to.

Hindi na siya normal. Gusto ko talaga siya.

Akala ko ba pag ganito, masaya dapat?
parang mas lalo ko atang sinasaktan yun sarili ko.
But I can't get myself to stop either.

Please make him my answer to all the endless prayers i've been muttering before I go to sleep for the past 4 years. Please.

Pagod na ako ng ganito na lang parati. Ayoko nang mag-isa.

:'(

hala tsktsk

2005-08-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

uh-oh.

Bad trip. I literally don't have time to update my blog anymore. Ano bang klase yan??

So many things happened to me in the past weeks!!!

Of course, the most important thing first. :p KINAUSAP NIYA AKOOOOO!! yes yes yes. HIM. kinausap niya ako...well, kami. hahaha! He asked questions together with a friend regarding their project for a major subject. :D I guess it's no big deal, but it really meant so much to me.

I couldn't even stand up properly after that, hah.

He was so close. It was the very first time I was able to be that close to him. Seryoso. It was actually strange being just a few inches away while he talked, listened and looked at me and my friends. Ibang klase.

After that, Chris told me that it was already okay for me to say hi. But I still can't. Hindi ko talaga kaya.

Yun muna. tangina, im so tired. :(

I miss my blog and LJ friends. huhu. :(

---

ay. Backstreet Boys and Spice Girls trip ako ngayon. hahaha. ang saya makinig while singing along! weird kasi alam ko parin yung lyrics at mga second voice sa halos lahat ng kanta. hahaha! :)

nakakamiss yung mga panahon na yun...

kasi ang problema ko lang nun kung papaano ko mami-meet ang BSB at kung talaga bang may bading sa Spice Girls.

eh ngayon, subsob na sa mas mahihirap na problema sa pag-aaral. nakakapagod paksheht.

harry potter

2005-07-28T08:57:00.000+08:00

Depressing.

What the hell was that all about?!

Isang kaibigan na nasa States ay ito lang ang nasabi pagkatapos niyang basahin ang Half-Blood Prince, "Tangnang Harry Potter to oh. Tangna talaga."

Amen to that.

Ang depressing naman non. Ang depressing talaga nung ending. Hindi din nagkaroon ng killing spree itong si JK Rowling sa Book 6 e no?

...you may think of me as a weirdo, but I was really affected by what happened. ang sad talaga.

hohum.

I don't want to be this really big spoiler so I won't discuss anything detailed about what happened..my friends who are reading my blog frequently and are not finished with Book 6 will kill me if they see things like Draco Malfoy's dead and the Half Blood Prince is actually Harry's dad, James Potter...

oopppss.

hahaha.

kidding. :p

but really. it was so depressing it made me cry. ang babaw e no? pero totoo.

Now i'm dying to know what'll happen to book7.

---

The Island.

Have you seen this movie? Well you should. Why? Because I said so. :D haha.

I never really planned on watching the said film because I wasn't impressed with the trailer. I thought it was just one of those B movies wherein they try and try to make twisted stories about Cloning and stuff. But this movie is different.

I liked it. It's actually one of those movies that I can put into my favorite movie category..well, if we have different tastes then don't blame me if you didn't get your money's worth. But I assure you that you'll like it as much as I did....with Ewan and Scarlett as lead, who would hate this movie? hahaha!

---

Bilanggo.

Hindi. Hindi na yung kanta, totoong Bilangguan na yung sasabihin ko.

Para sa pinaka-huli naming Religion class at Community Service, sa Bilangguan naman kami napadpad. Sa Makati City Jail actually, first time ko kahapon makapasok talaga sa isang malaking presinto. Akala ko naman kasi parang okay lang, kaya hindi ko na hinanda yung sarili ko sa mga makikita ko. Akala ko naman kasi parang yung mga nakikita ko sa pelikula ni Robin Padilla yung mararanasan ko. Yung ako si Robin Padilla at parang wala namang pakielam yung mga ka-kosa niya sa kanya, parang steady lang.

Pero hindi pala. Pinapasok kami sa loob ng selda ng mga lalaki. Oras pala ng dalaw yung pagpunta namin, kaya madaming tao, kaya parang piyesta sa loob kasi nandoon lahat ng mga kamag-anak, kapamilya ng mga preso.

Hindi ko ma-eksplika yung hangin sa loob. Kulob kasi taos siksikan. Parang siguro, yung nag-breakdown yung aircon ng LRT sa rush hour tapos triplehin mo yun. Ganon. Ganon yung hangin sa loob.

Iba't-ibang mukha, Iba't-ibang edad. Iba't-Ibang sala. Nandoon sila siksikan. Ang kulit nga, lahat ng selda may TV. Tapos ang nakakatuwa pa non, parang meron silang isang malaking espasyo na parang sala kung saan nakaupo lang lahat sila sa lapag at nakatutok sa TV. Hindi ko naisip na meron na palang ganon ngayon at pwede na pala na may TV sila. Ang alam ko kasi, wala silang koneksyon sa outside world. Pero nakita ko naman kasi, ano naman gagawin nila doon diba? Ang boring at nakakabato kung wala nga namang TV.

Nagsikalat sila doon. Sa corridor, sa mga selda nila. Lahat nakatingin, nakikiuzi (as in usyoso) sa bawat pagdaan namin sa kanilang mga selda.

"Good Afternoon, Miss." Bati nung iba, tapos sabay kakaway. Hindi ko alam kung ngingiti ako o hindi na lang sila papansinin. Pero baka sabihin nila ang bastos ko naman kung iisnabin ko na lang sila, kaya ngumiti na lang din ako sabay tingin ulit sa sahig na kelangan na ng matinding floorwax.

Meron pa nga doon, nagtitinda ng yosi, patingi-tingi sa may corridor, sa labas nung mga selda mismo. Tapos sa tapat nun may pader, at merong cut-out lettering na HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SPUTNIK. natuwa ako, may mga anniversary din pala yun ano? Nagkaroon din kaya sila ng Monthsary?

Hindi ko masasabing natakot ako talaga. Nasindak pupwede pa. Pero kinilabutan ako kasi unang beses ko pa lang makapasok sa ganon at hindi ko inakala na ganon pala talaga sa loob. Parang palengke sa ingay kapag oras ng dalaw, pero walang buhay daw kapag hindi.

Nakapunta din kami sa mga Babae. Hiwalay kasi yung mga yun. Mas konti sa babae. Mas maayos. Pero halatang walang bisita ang karamihan sa kanila. Natipuhan pa nga ng dalawang babae doon si Andy, kulang na lang ata eh matunaw na si Andy sa malalagkit nilang tingin.

Hindi ko din mapigilang maawa e. Hindi ko alam kung maaawa ako o talagang buti nga sa kanila at nakulong sila dahil sa masama nilang mga gawain. Pero kung makikita mo kasi, nakakaawa din e. Yung iba pa nga, dapat 6 months lang para sa kasong Theft o pagnanakaw, pero mag iisang taon na siya doon, wala pa ring nangyayari sa kaso niya.

Hindi ko makakalimutan yun kasi parang doon mo lang masasabi sa sarili mo na, Buti na lang, mabait ako...

now playing

2005-07-25T10:44:00.000+08:00

++NOW PLAYING++

Telepono by Sugarfree

Natatandaan mo ba kagabi
Apat na oras tayong nagbabad sa telepono
Inabutan na tayo ng umaga no'n
Ngunit bakit ngayon, malamig ka bigla
Magdamag na sa tabi mo, wala man lang "hello"

Hello, hello, hello
Naririnig mo pa ba ako?
Kung wala na tayo sa telepono
'Pag nandito na tayo sa tunay na mundo
Hello, 'di na kita naiintindihan
Malabo na ba ang linya sa ating dalawa
Hello, gising ka pa kaya?
Hello, nahihilo na ako sa 'yo

Tuwing gabi 'pag nagriring ang telepono
Ikaw ang naiisip ko
Tumawag ka, tumawag ka
O, please tumawag ka naman
Dahil kailangan lang marinig ang boses mo

O, ngayong gabi, managinip
Managinip ulit tayo sa sarili nating mundo

---

Ito na siguro ang pinaka-Classic na kanta ng Sugarfree.
Isa kasi ito sa pinaka-lumang kanta nila.
Isa siguro sa pinaka hindi ko makakalimutang kanta nila ang Telepono.
Parang may special meaning, siguro kasi madalang na lang nilang kantahin ang
Telepono sa mga gigs.
Siguro kaya mahalaga sa akin ang Telepono kasi ito yung unang-una nilang kinanta nung birthday ko.
Parati ko kasi sigurong hinahanap-hanap sa playlist nila to, kaya inuna nila.

Enjoy the music. :)

here here we go

2005-07-24T17:33:00.000+08:00

Harry Potter.

I think by saying that I love or adore Harry Potter (both the books and the movies) is an understatement. I am secretly obsessed with everything Harry Potter that it completely overshadows my love for everything else...well, except for my Neo.

And now that book 6 is already out into the open and hundreds of people have already finished the book; and I on the other hand, is still going through my own pace and enjoying every bit of it, I have sort of ignored such things like my love for going online and updating my blog, multiply and friendster accounts respectively. I even ignore the joys of exploring Photoshop and updating my iPod every so often.

Honestly, I could've finished Book 6 in no time but I don't really want to do that..at least not yet. I just don't want to rush things and by the time i'm into the last page or chapter of the book I start realizing how fast I was and that I should've made things slower than usual...guilty feelings will creep up inside me and will haunt till book 7 arrives.

boohoo.

So here I am, still in Chapter Seventeen and happily absorbing every word, every phrase, everything in the book. haaaay. Bliss.

One thing that I find annoying is that people tend to be inconsiderate and just ask, Do you want to know the ending already? Gusto mo nang malaman yung ending? Alam mo..may namatay diyan.

harharharharr. funny. I mean, if I were the first one to actually finish the book and they were in my place, how would that feel if I actually blurted out things like that?

Most probably they would feel the same way as I do.

Okay. So now that I know someone's dying and most of them actually told me it was depressing and sad and they were all so devasted about the ending yadayadayada..I guess all I need to do is to read on and find out who it is.

...But I have this really bad bad bad bad feeling that Dumbledore will die in the end.

NO. NO. NO.
STOP.

I didn't tell you to post me a reply and tell me who did. please. just let me finish. I would let everyone know that i'm finished and we can talk all about it. :)

just..not now. please.

Speaking of Harry Potter, have you seen the Goblet of Fire poster?? It gave me goosebumps when I got to see it the first time. I'm not sure if they have that kind on the internet already..but i'll check. :)

oohh. here it is! here it is! :)

nice no?

and oh, look at how GORGEOUS Cedric Diggory's portrayed. Just the way I imagined him to be.

I've seen the trailer as well and bygoodness Emma Watson is beautiful and Daniel Radcliffe is adorable and Rupert Grint is the cutest red-haired boy I have ever seen. No kidding. they look so...adolescent-like. hahaha. they're not little kids anymore. They're gorgeous British teens! haha.

I can't wait for the Goblet of Fire movie! *dance*

...but I still don't want the series to end. We all know that the last installment will be book 7. aaww. No more Harry Potter books to look forward to after that. :( I hope J.K. Rowling changes her mind about it.

gupit

2005-07-19T06:56:00.000+08:00

Gupit.

bagong gupit siya.

:)

hihi.

wow pa din.

:D

huy!

2005-07-16T12:16:00.000+08:00

Masaya.

hindi ko paguusapan ang kanta ni Bamboo. Masaya ako kahapon dahil may mga mahahalagang bagay sa buhay ko na nagbigay saya sa akin. Sobrang tindi nung galak ko, hanggang sa pagtulog ko kaninang madaling araw, lahat nung mga panaginip ko binalot ng kasiyahan.

Siguro ito na yung mga pagkakataon kung saan sinusuklian Niya lahat ng pagod at hirap ko.
Maybe He realized that I needed a break from all the rumble and jumble of school and other miscellaneous activities that's been occupying me for the last couple of weeks.

at ito na nga yun.

*

Wow.

Ilang beses din yun kahapon. Hindi ako nagbibiro. Kung pwede nga lang na magpalit tayo ng puwesto para makita mo talaga na hindi ako nagbibiro at pinagloloko ang sarili ko, gagawin ko just to prove my point.

Nagkakahulihan. Nagakakatinginan. Iiwas.

Sa totoo lang, nahihirapan ako ng ganito pero ano ba ang magagawa ko kung hindi ko siya kayang kausapin? tapos hindi ko naman siya kayang hindi tingnan.

Ilang beses talaga e. Alam niya na alam ko. Alam ko na alam niya. Pero sa ngayon hanggang doon pa lang. Hindi ko alam kung papaano nararamdaman ng isang tao yun e. Siguro nga kasi masyadong iba ang galaw, kilos o pakikitungo ng isang tao pag meron talagang nararamdaman.

Ako sa Kanya. yun yon e.

Nung paalis na, hindi ko mapigilang hindi sumulyap. Kailangan e. Kailangan talaga. Weekend na naman kasi. Two days of not seeing someone you actually draw strength from. kahit hindi niya alam, siya yun. *cheesy*

Akala ko hindi makikita. and then he holds it. 4 seconds. and then he walks away.

Pagkatapos manlambot, pagpawisan, lamigin at masiraan ng bait, ang nasabi ko na lang sa sarili ay, He knows.

After 30 minutes or so, nagtext sa akin si Andy.

"Gem, kasabay namin siya sa LRT ngayon! whekwhekwhek. bleh."

Sagot ko naman,

"Talaga?! Pakitingnan naman kung saan siya bababa. Please?"

Reply ni Andy,

"Wala na, iniwan na namin siya. Ang bagal niya e!"

Okay lang. :)

*

Pagkatapos non, sumunod ito. Sa totoo lang kinakabahan ako nung nalaman ko na malapit na siya sa school. Habang nagkaklase, tumawag siya. Hindi pa naka-silent yung cellphone ko kaya medyo nairita pa ako dahil baka marinig ng Taong Binanggit Ko Sa Taas yung ringing tone ko--The Day You Said Goodnight. Wala namang problema sa kantang yun pero, nahihiya lang ako.

Kinabahan ako nung nakita ko yung pangalan. Oh Shit.

O sige, Naexcite ako na kinabahan. Siyempre iba kasi siya e. Iba siya dahil iba siya sa akin. Meron kasing mga pangyayari na parang kahit hindi sabihin, nararamdaman. Pero nung huli kaming nagkita, okay naman na. Nagulat pa nga ako dahil ang bait bait niya.

Sinagot ko ang tawag paglabas ko ng kwarto.

Hello?
Hi Gem! Kanina pa ako tumatawag hindi mo sinasagot...

yung ang una niyang linya sa akin. Tumawag daw siya para sabihin na merong konting problema sa napagusapan namin. He's having lunch with his cousins and other family. Biglaan kasi. Napag-usapan namin ang plano, tuloy pa rin at walang problema.

Are you sure? Baka kasi hassle e sa kanila e.
Hindi, okay lang daw. They'll wait for you. Not a problem.
Thanks Gem ha? I'll see you later.

And I did see him later that day.

Kasama ko si Chris at si Donna nung hinihintay ko siya. Sabi ni RA, malapit na daw sila. lima, sampung minuto, wala pa rin. Hindi naman nagtetext. Hinintay ko na lang din.

Biglang pumasok si Jaja. Ang slow mag-register ng utak ko. Shit, isa pala si Jaja sa mga nagsundo..so that means...

My slow-registering brain was interrupted by RA's words, "Ay, Ayan. Gem andito na siya.."

Napatayo ako agad sa inuupuan ko. Siyempre guest e. Nakita ko siya. Tama, green nga. Binati niya ako, he smiled and I never expected him to be this warm. Parang nahihiya pa nga siya e. (ako nahihiya talaga) Wala naman kasi talaga siyang ganon kakilala.

Except for me. I don't know..except for me, I guess.

Sinamahan ko siya sa isang classroom habang hindi pa tapos ang pagse-setup. Mahirap yung mga unang minuto. Parang wala akong masabi. Parang wala din siyang masabi. Kinamusta niya ako, kinamusta ko siya. Medyo mahirap, mabagal ang flow ng paguusap. Pero meron siyang tinanong na doon na nga nagsimula yung ease ng conversation namin.

*phew* buti na lang. ilang oras din kasi kaming magkakasama.

ang dami dami dami dami dami naming napagusapan. Iba iba. Hindi lang tungkol sa ginagawa niya, hindi lang tungkol sa sarili niya at sa akin. Iba't ibang bagay na alam ko at alam niya. Hindi ko akalain na madami kaming parehas. Madami kaming parehas na gusto, na gustong pagusapan, na ayaw. Mahilig kaming tumawa at mag-joke. nakakatuwa. Cliche man, pero ito na nga yung sitwasyon na parati kong pini-picture. Yung steady lang tapos masayang naguusap.

Napunta yung usapan sa/kay:

Bruce Lee.
Gloria at ang Pilipinas.
iPod.
Eraserheads.
Yosi.
La Salle (at sa mga hassle na patakaran dito)
Law
kapatid niya at pinsan.
pamangkin.
sa ginagawa niya.
Pagkain.
C2.
ex-grilfriend.
basketball players.
DLSU-ADMU game.
DLSU-UP game.
Benefits ng mga basketball players.
Bag na gamit gamit ko.
Nanay at Tatay ko.
Nanay at Tatay niya.
Gigs.
Banda.
Burn ng CD's.
Popscicle.
Newspaper namin.
ML.
kung gaano niya kamahal...
Musika.
isang commercial
iba't ibang information tungkol sa campus.
movies.
typical Pinoy movies.

at madami pang iba.

Ang tagal din naming magkasama. Ang galing kasi hindi ko inakalang mangyayari yun. Akala ko nga magigising ako kahapon. Pero hindi, totoo pala siya kaya ang saya saya saya ko.

Pagkatapos ng production, kasama ko parin siya hanggang sa sila ay umalis. Nagpaalam siya ng alam kong walang bahid ng sama ng loob o kahit ano man. Dati kasi parang meron. Ngayon wala na. Alam ko na totoo na to. Alam ko na hindi sya napipilitan.

Ibang klase yung kahapon. Siguro sa iba, ordinaryo na lang yun. Pero sa akin kasi hindi e. Iba kasi siya sa akin dati. at sana lang talaga, hindi na yun ang una at huling pagkakataon. *winks*

*

At last, I was able to catch Sugarfree in UP last night. Yey yey yey. :) FINALLY. It was great seeing/hearing them play live again. Sobrang saya talaga. I think they played 5 or 6 songs? Kahit konti yung tao, they were listening. Ganado tumugtog kaya masaya.

It's nice to see them again. Na-miss ko talaga sila e. as in namiss ko talaga. Blame it on school. damnit. But it was great seeing them again. I had a blast. :)

I was with Anna by the way. It's been four whole years of not seeing each other. puro lang text at tawag! Ang saya. It made my day all the more complete since I was watching Sugarfree with my one and only sishy! Funny pa, she doesn't want me to leave yet after Sugarfree's set so I promised her that i'll be bringing her to Soapdish's album launch on the 20th. :)

ay. Hindi ako nakapuntang Pedicab album launch. :'( boohoo.

pero ayos lang.

Sobra sobra na yun kung nakapunta pa ako. Grabe ng biyaya yun. haha. :)

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May problema ako.

It slipped my mind.

I promised Soc, Bona and Yael that i'm going to Rockwell Tent later for the Gemini video launch. argh. Badvibes, I forgot about the surprise party for my brother. :(

darnit.

What's more, Soapdish will be playing later as a surprise for my Kuya on his birthday. gaaah.

papaano to?

My mom says I can go basta lang makakarating ako before the party ends. or before Soapdish will play.

nga naman. Ako naman ang kilala nung mga yun. Luanne will be there as well.

tsktsk.

wrong timing amp. wrong timing talaga.

papaano ba to?

isip isip isip.

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Wait for me Book 6!

I might be able to get my own Harry Potter and the half-blood prince tomorrow instead of today. daming ginagawa ngayon and I have no time to pick it up in Fully-Booked.

raaawr. Excited na ako. :D

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Relax. See A Movie.

I just have to watch

Pinoy Blonde and

Fantastic 4

before it leaves the cinemas.

imustimustimustimust.

La Salle, please give me time. hahaha. :p

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Neil Gaiman and his visit to the Philippines.

Guess what?

I was able to go to his last autograph signing session! :D hoooraaaay!

I knew I had a long test the following day so I brought my Abnormal Psychology book with me to Gateway and reviewed the whole time I was in line.

To make the long story short, I was in Gateway at around 4pm and I got out, 10.45pm. I still have no pictures of my Neil Gaiman since we only used our handy camera phones.

He was sooooo nice although I can see in his face that he was really really really tired. He smiled at me and squeezed my hand and my arm. "There you go! Thank you as well."

gaddemit. Star-strucked ang loko. walang nasabi kundi thank you at thank you at thank you lang.

My mom went in line as well to get my other book signed.

akalain mo, Neil Gaiman kissed my mom!!!!!

hahaha. My mom doesnt even know him pero ang saya saya niya and I was too!

parang lahat ng mga andon nagulat din because of that gesture.

As in todo kiss sa cheek ha. Not the ordinary beso. I was stunned to see that.

grabe. Ibang level tong mommy ko, kaya mahal ko siya e. fasheyown siya talaga. :D

I also saw Joey Odullo of Twisted Halo. He's a big fan too!
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Bilanggo.

nakakagulat.
nakakainlove pati.

Alam niya yung kanta ng Rizal Underground.

sobrang favorite ko yun e.

fasheyown pala siya e. :)

goodness

2005-07-10T12:20:00.000+08:00

Neil Gaiman.

Yey! He's finally here! :D Neil Gaiman is one of my favorite authors of all time. He arrived yesterday and he did his first book signing in Rockwell. There's going to be another one today and tomorrow. I wasn't able to go yesterday since I need to finish my readings for school (and nobody will drive me there too. heehee). I guess i'm going tomorrow instead of today. I hope there isn't much people tomorrow *cross fingers* I can't wait to meet him and get one of my books signed! Sobrang favorite ko siyaaaa!

I already finished reading Stardust, Neverwhere, American Gods, Smokes and Mirrors and two of the ten Sandman series. I've already started the third one two weeks ago but I stopped because of the numerous workload I have been doing for school. I might as well start reading it again. I already have the fourth one too! Medyo mahal lang but what the heck? Sobrang ganda naman e. ;)

if you want to know more about Neil Gaiman and his stay here in the Philippines, you can go to http://www.neilgaimanphilippines.com! :)

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Speaking of books, I also bought The Little Prince, by Antoine de Saint-Exupery. Yes friends, I haven't read the book during highschool. hahaha. ang loser ko. My school never actually required us to read The Little Prince before. Iba yung mga pinabasa sa amin. Some of them were the Animal Farm, Catcher in the Rye and Jonathan Livingston Seagull. But never the Little Prince. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. So I got curious and bought one 2 or 3 weeks ago.

ngek. Pinakita ni Ate Wendy sa akin na meron pa lang librong the Little Prince yung kuya ko noon. *slaps forehead* bumili pa ako. sayang. hmpf. The only difference of the new book and the old one is that mine is colored. :p ngeee. ang lungkot.

I started reading it already but wasn't able to finish it yet again because of schoolwork. :( aysus. But i've read half of it already at ang gandaaaaaa. No wonder he likes it. *winks*

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Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.

oooooh. It's coming out on July 16!!! *dance dance* I can't waiiiiitttt! :D

Nakakalungkot lang kasi yan na yung 2nd to the last book. It's actually the 6th, and i've heard JK Rowling that she'll be ending the whole Harry Potter series in book 7. aaaww.

Nakita ko na din sa telly yung mga features about the tons and tons of boxes being shipped around the world. ang exciting!!! :) I have to finish the Little Prince and probably the 3rd one of the Sandman series in order for me to prepare for Harry Potter! yippee!

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Good Charlotte in Manila.

A friend of mine was able to watch them perform last Friday and she was so disappointed with the said band. sobrang bolero daw at napaka-plastik. hehe. Natawa nga ako nung sinabi niya sa akin e.

I asked her why and she said, "ba naman ano! napaka bolero talaga e. parang yung isang gitarista nila, "hey! don't tell this to the other countries, but the Philippines is the best! We don't want to live the Philippines! the Philippines is the best country ever!" diba? nakakaloko e."

Parang ganon daw yung sinabi. As if naman daw maniniwala at maloloko nila ang mga Pilipino na nanood sa kanila. hahaha! I guess they don't know any other means of pumping up the crowd. :p

tapos nagwawala pa daw yung vocalist ng Typecast. lango daw sa droga, sabi niya. hehe. Ewan!

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UAAP.

One of the good things of being in college is the school spirit. Kakaiba pala pag college. Iba yung intensity kapag may game, mas lalo na pag basketball. I'm a basketball fan at heart an i've been a regular PBA viewer for 7 years now but i've never experienced such spirit and enthusiasm and determination from the crowd unlike in the UAAP.

panalo talaga. :) Bona and I were* (thank you very much) a regular UAAP basketball goer last year. Ang sarap lang talaga nung sychronicity ng lahat ng tao. sa cheers, sa actions, sa emotions. lahat. pare-pareho when you're on the same team.

I'm cheering for the Green Archers of course. Despite the fact that La Salle is missing such a great player in Mac Cardona, I know there's still hope for us. I know that there will be someone from the team who will step up and fill the vacant spot that was left by Cardona. Sana maging consistent ang laro ni Joseph Yeo this season along with Ty Tang. Xavier Connection yan e. ;)

I hope I can get tickets for the DLSU-ADMU game today. Sana makapila si Alvin on time! please! and if ever I get tickets, I hope I can see him as well. wooohoo.

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Pulitka.

Ano bang nangyayari sa Pilipinas? Parang masyado na atang magulo. Nakakalungkot lang isipin na pauilit-ulit na lang yung nangyayari sa bansa. It's becoming to be a vicious cycle.

Para sa akin, hindi naman makukuntento ang mga Pilipino kung sino ang ilagay nila diyan sa puwesto ng pagka-pangulo. Gagawa at gagawa parin ng paraan ang mga tao para matanggal nanaman ang iniupo nila sa puwesto. Kung napaalis nga nila si PGMA, sigurado na ba at kampante na ba tayo sa ilalagay natin sa puwesto? ang sagot, HINDI. pag naramdaman naiinip na ang mga Pilipino sa mabagal na pagusad ng bansa, papalit at papalitan nanaman yan. walang pagbabago.

I don't know, but for some reason I feel that we Filipinos sometimes abuse our Democracy. Our being free. Dahil nga sa alam natin na kaya nating mapatalsik ang kung sino man ang nasa pwesto dahil binabase natin ito sa mga nakaraang People Power, yun at yun ang parating nasa isip natin. Kaya nating paalisin ang nasa pwesto gamit ang pagtitipon-tipon ng mga mamamayang Pilipino at mag-rally sa kalsada.

Hindi tayo nakukuntento e. Bakit hindi na lang kaya natin hayaan ang nahalal na tapusin ang kani-kanilang mga termino? Kelangan siguro nating malaman na hindi lang naman sa Pangulo dapat nangagaling ang pagusad ng bansa, kundi dapat nanggagaling din sa mamamayang Pilipino. Hindi naman siguro pupwede na iasa na lang natin sa Pangulo ang lahat ng ating mga kailangan natin at ang lahat ng mga hinaing natin. Kumilos din tayo.

Alam ko na nagkamali siya. Nagkasala siya. pero sa opinyon ko lang, I don't think PGMA should resign. Kasi kung aalis siya, mayroon bang mas maayos na kandidato para pumalit sa kanyang puwesto? Do we have the best alternative? Meron bang karapat-dapat na pumalit sa kanya? Parang..parang wala ata. Siguro by choosing PGMA to stay is like choosing the lesser evil. Let her finish her reign, and maybe by that time, there will be someone out there that can aptly take her spot.

Due process. Yan din siguro ang mahirap sa atin. Gusto natin bara-bara. mag-resign! umalis! tsupi! I think it's better if we respect the Constitution and give the President the appropriate process that must be given to her. Impeachment. This is the only way. Ayaw ng Presidente bumaba sa puwesto, then give her what she wants--Impeachment. Kung nagawa natin na bigyan ang dating Pangulong Estrada ng Impeachment trial bakit hindi natin bigyan ng pagkakataon upang mabigyan din ang Pangulong Arroyo ng ganito?

Sana matapos na 'to. Tayong mga Pilipino din ang nahihirapan.

ding ding ding

2005-07-09T14:26:00.000+08:00

...and on the red corner....

hahaha. For some reason, I don't feel angry at all. totoo. Hindi ko alam kung manhid na lang ako dahil sa napakadami ko nang narinig na mga salita, o talagang wala na lang akong pakielam sa mga sinasabi niya. whoever she is. Eto lang, just to clear things up and hear my side.

strange, this certain person mentioned peculiar things that made me wonder, "Could this be someone I actually know, but doesn't really know me well?"

unang nakakagulat na statement::

MAHIRAP MAGMAHAL NG SYOTA NG IBA.

hmmm...Sa pagkakaalam ko, wala pa akong minahal na may syota o girlfriend. This guy from school, yes, that one. Hindi pa naman sila nung "Bestfriend" niya when we had this sort of mutual understanding. Hindi ko na siya mahal nung naging sila just a couple of months ago.

Yung crush ko naman ngayon, single. Single talaga. Unattached. free as a bird kung baga. So malamang hindi yan. Konti lang may alam na crush ko siya. Kaya hindi pwedeng yun din.

Parang...parang may "underlying" eklat ang sinabi niya. parang alam ko kung ano to ha. Parang akala nila may ganong isyu pero wala naman talaga. Parang alam niyo na kung ano ang gusto kong sabihin. hehe

Hindi ako maniniwala na walang ibig sabihin yun. Hindi e. Hindi pwede. Gusto niya talagang iparating yun sa akin, na dapat maramdaman ko na may alam siya. Pero sa totoo naman, ang mga diumano'y "alam nila", hindi totoo.

wala na akong magagawa don kung yun ang iniisip nila.

pangalawang nakakagulat na statement::

The "gifts"

If I remember it right, wala ata akong nabanggit dito about giving "gifts". But if I did, malamang sobrang tagal na na post yun at natabunan na ng iba pang mga recent posts. Sobrang sipag naman niya if she actually went all through my posts to find significant things like that. Katulad nga ng sabi ni Reza, "Kafatid, astig siya kung gayon!" baka nga. :)

Would I have friends at all if I never had the money to buy things like these?

Oo naman. Hindi ko naman sila binigyan ng kahit ano nung una naming pagkikita e. wala namang naganap na exhange na parang, "regalo muna bago friendship!".

two instances that i gave these 'rockstars' gifts. it was actually a pasalubong from Hong Kong. My mom had that idea. why not give them pasalubongs in return for the nice things that they do for you? I treat these people like family kaya hindi naman siguro masama if i give them gifts like that. Kaibigan ko naman na sila and I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I also gave my best friend Soc and JR pasalubong from that trip. May instance din naman na birthday. Birthday yun e. appropriate naman that you give something diba?

pangatlo..

Feeling close..

Hindi ako manhid at ilusyonada at alam ko naman kung malapit na sa akin ang tao o hindi. period.

pangapat..

Pinilit lamang ang Sponge Cola at Sugarfree...

hehe. ewan ko na. basta ang hilarious lang ng statement na to. Never ako namilit o pinagpilitan ang sarili ko. Kung hindi pwede, hindi talaga. Basta alam ko.. :) tsaka naman. ang petty nito. para banda lang e inis na inis na.

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SARCASM.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi niya na-gets that I was being sarcastic with my earlier post? Tama ba namang gawing literal at i-take into consideration lahat ng sinabi ko?

Hindi ba uso ang sarcasm dito? pagkakaalam ko kasi, oo e. O baka talagang sobrang nagngingitngit lang siya sa akin kaya hindi na niya na-distinguish.

ang wishlist at ang pagiging 'materialistic'.

eto dito talaga ako natawa. hehe. sorry ha, I know that you wanted to inflict anger and rage and violent reactions but this one really made me laugh. sorry ha?

sa sobrang pagkainis ata sa akin, she really made it a point to read every single thing in this blog and tried to see it in a negative light. :)

hindi lang naman ako ang may ganyan na wishlist ah. am I being too materialistic by wishing that I wanted a Eraserheads' Fruitcake album?

and why bother making a fuss over my wishlist? wala lang. ang weird lang kasi e. hehe.

last..

Magpakatotoo.

Hindi mahirap gawin yan para sa akin. Dahil ako, totoo akong tao. Walang bahid na kaplastikan. What you see is definitely what you get. Kaya nga siguro, people tend to misunderstand me for the things I do. Ang nakakatuwa lang isipin, yung talagang mga kaibigan ko at nakilala ako ng husto at talagang sinasabi nila sa akin kung ano ang mali ko at panget man na nagawa ko, never nilang binanggit sa akin na maging totoo. Kasi yun na nga ginagawa ko.

Hindi na ako nagagalit. Wala na lang akong nararamdaman at totoo yan. Kung makikita mo sa earlier post ko, doon galit ako. I was being sarcastic, mean and rude. pero dito, i'm just making things clear, for you and for everybody.

sa totoo lang, alam ko din naman na hindi mo ako maiintindihan e, at walang kwenta lahat para sayo yung mga sinulat ko kasi sarado na ang isip mo para pakinggan ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit galit na galit ka at kinasusuklaman mo ako.

eh wala naman akong ginagawang masama, kundi maging totoo sa lahat ng nararamdaman ko..at dito ko sinasabi yun. sa blog na to.

kagaya nga ng sabi ko sa taboard, salamat na rin sayo for giving your insights and for making me know that someone actually despise me. salamat. :)

back to regular feelingera programing

2005-07-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

anyway.

*phew* ayos. na-release din ang tinatagong energy. sorry sorry sa mga taong nawindang sa dalawang previous posts ko. Carried away lang. dami na kasing trabaho sa eskwela, yan pa ang maaabutan mo sa dapat na magaalis ng kaunting pagod na nararamdaman ko. e wala e. kupal e. hahahaha. :p

At last, I have uploaded some of my photos in Multiply. naipon ipon na siya dito sa PC. I don't really think that 150 photos per month is enough for me. Grabe ako magpicture. Ibang level. So what i'm planning to do is that I post it (the pics) in some other parts of my Multiply home page. :) Kahit hindi na siya album, basta andon silang lahat and people can see them and people can post messages and comment, masaya na ako.

pero eto favorite picture ever...

HULI KAYO!

hahaha.

bastush.

pahabol

2005-07-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

oo naman!

feeling ko talaga cool ako.

:)

*edited for the sake of those people who does not know anything about SARCASM.*

nyahahahahahahahahha!

ANG FEELING KO! hahahahaha! :p

tangina

2005-07-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

salamat.

hindi ako hipokrita para sabihin na "okay lang yan. papabayaan ko na lang.."

tangina. hindi. :)

kung feelingera pala ako sa tingin mo chong, edi dapat ituloy tuloy ko na para sayo.

Hindi ako masyadong natamaan sa mga mura mo sa akin. yan lang ba ang kaya mo? hindi ko alam kung bakit kailangan mo pang i-tag board yung mura mo kung puwede mo naman sabihin derecho sa pagmumukha ko.

unang una, hindi ako masyadong natamaan sa mura mo dahil sanay na ako sa ganyan. eh tangina ka pala, MY DAD DOES THAT FOR A FUCKING LIVING. as if hindi ako sanay ano? as if your dirty words can actually hurt me. heh. hanap ka naman ng mura vocabulary para naman ma-elibs ako sayo. sanay na ako sa mga mura chong, mahilig magmura ang tatay ko pag galit siya. mahilig mag mura ang kuya ko pagnatutuwa siya AT nagagalit siya kaya wag mong i-expect na hihinto ako sa pagiging FEELINGERA ko. hindi chong, diyan ka nagkakamali. :D

kung kilala mo ako talaga and nagkita na tayo, edi good. at least alam mo kung sino ako. at more or less malalaman ko kung sino ka...at kaya kitang gantihanng doble pa kahit napaka lowlife ng move mo. :) pero kung napadaan ka lang at wala ka lang talagang magawa sa buhay mo at gusto mo lang mag gago ng tao, eh hindot ka. :) wala kang karapatang yurakan ang pagkatao ko putangina mo ka.

kung hindi mo ako kilala at sabihan mo akong feelingera, doble hindot ka pa. may my Igorot and Japanese ancestors kick your bloody fucking arse in the near future. :D

Buti na lang nataon na wala akong masyadong gagawin bukas at nasagot kita. kung sino ka man.

hindi mo ako kayang buwagin with your foul words. gusto mo nga batuhan pa tayo e. game?

o ayan, feelingera na ako. para di ka naman mapahiya, i'll live up to your expectations. :) feeling na ako no? :D

*edited due to lack of intelligence of person intended to read this post and also for the peace of mind of everyone. SARCASM ang tawag diyan 'day.*

talo ka. :p

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Pasensya na sa mga nagulantang. I just had to answer someone who tagged something nasty in my blog. Hindi ko kayang hindi patulan. I wasn't raised that way. :) to everyone who knows the real me, sorry sa inyo. I just have to say something..katulad ni The Hulk, you don't like me when i'm mad. :D

sa crush ko, nakakahiya, i know. but what the heck. i have to. i don't like people saying things like that to me. badvibes lang.

now back to regular FEELINGERA programming. :)

posting

2005-07-06T08:42:00.000+08:00

graaaar.

I don't have time to update my blog anymore. It sucks. :( ang dami dami ko naman kasing ginagawa for school and I rarely go online and even check my mail. the last time i checked i think i already have 800+ messages!

I'm also preoccupied with my balikbayan guy friend, Panta..Patrick...or you can call him Tucker if you want, doesn't really matter. :p He came back last Saturday and he'll be leaving for the States again on the 29th. aaaww. ang sad. I haven't seen him for four whole years and i'm so happy that he finally visited us again! Nothing's really changed except maybe, he speaks english very well to the point that it causes tons of nose bleeds for me and our other friends. hahaha! badtrip e no? dumudugo ilong namin sa ka-islangan nung lalakeng yun! nakakaloka! :p

hmmm..i'm actually in school right now, waiting for my 9am class. wala lang. sabi ko sa sarili ko, now is the time to go online and update update update! wheeeeheee! :D

Panta, Bona and I already went to G4 and Glorietta. Monday and Tuesday respectively. They even went to our house to burn tons and tons of OPM cds. hahaha. :p Sabi niya, kailangan niya magipon ng madaming cds para feeling nasa Pinas siya when he goes back. Matagal pa daw ulit siya makakabalik...

....pag may nag-asawa na daw sa aming magbabarkada doon pa lang daw siya siguro babalik. sabi ko kay Bona, mag-asawa na siya next year! hahahaha! :)

and oh, nag-graduation picture taking na kami nila Soc last Saturday! weird lang ng feeling. graduating na. mukhang tanga talaga. I don't even feel like working. I don't even feel that i'm old enough to work. hahahaha. :p okay naman yung grad pic, nakita ko siya sa PC after it was taken. hehe. thank goodness maganda yung grad pic ko ngayon. sobrang olats lang ng mga grad pic ko nung elem at highschool e. kaya natutuwa ako. :p

I see my crush almost everyday. and I think his friends already know. potah. badvibes. pero okay lang siguro na malaman niya...magkamukha naman kami e. hihihi. :) ang cute niya talaga!

I miss Sugarfree! :(

that's about it I guess. :) catch you guys later!

ang damiiiii

2005-06-30T20:00:00.000+08:00

Naipon.

naipon ang mga kwento ko. kaya humanda sa napaka habang blog entry. :)

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Admit One.

I went to Admit One last friday. it's going to be a week tomorrow and I know I suck because i'm still going to talk about it. :p

I went with Bona again for the third time (yey!) and of course we had a lot of fun. Coco was there too and it was nice seeing her and bonding with her till the wee of hours of the morning. We even went inside I Love You Store and bought little items that we fell in love with. :) nag-try kaming tatlo nila Coco and Bona ng mga fasheyown na fasheyown na shades!!! aaaaaah. ang ganda ganda! I even saw this really funky funky sling bag made of maong pants. super ganda and super colorful. I even saw this really hot hot hot brooch that's shaped like a starfish and it has lots of really amazing sparkling beads around it.

literally, nag laway ako sa tinitinda doon. It was the very first time that I felt like buying the whole freaking store! I Love You store in Guijo depicts who I am. promise. Parang, uy. ako to ah. at ako rin yun. style ko yan. trip ko yan. ako yaaaan! gaaaah. Bianca, the store owner is one amazing lady. Hands down ako sa kanya. ang ganda niya tapos ang funky niya. AND i swear, I love her tattoo. You should see it for yourself when you go there one of these days. you just have to admire her tattoo. it's beautiful.

One thing that made me enjoy Admit One this June was that it was laid back because of the number of people who attended. Sure, the place was still full but it wasn't spitting out people (well, almost) just like the past Admit One's i've attended. Hindi lang din kasi mainit.

Pinoy Blonde was also being promoted that night so I had the chance to see Epy Quizon up close. He is one gorgeous man. uber-gwapo talaga. hihi. (plug:: Pinoy Blonde in theatres July 13!)

Sugarfree played with Diego Castillo of Sandwich and Chino played the violin again just like in the Unplugged. ang romantic talaga when Chino plays the violin, mas lalo kong na-appreciate yung songs ng Sugarfree (over and over again). Nakaupo kami sa harap the whole time ni Bona..front seats talaga! :)

Cambio played two new songs that night. Not being biased or anything, but I liked it. It was catchy all the same and it definitely has that "assorted" feel to it. Thanks very much to all of them for contributing so much to every song in the second album. Diegs said that they already finished recording 6 of the songs in the new album and they'll most probably include 6 or 7 songs more. :) Can't wait for the 2nd album! hooray!

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Up North.

Right after Admit One, Mom and I (with Kuya Joey as the driver) went straight to Ilocos to attend a family affair.

We literally slept in the car only to be awaken by growling tummies. We were already in La Union at the time. Wala akong ginawa kundi matulog. Tulog tulog tulog at tulog pa. naka-ilang "Andyan na ba tayo?" akong tanong dahil ilang dosenang arc o arko na ang nalampasan namin wala parin kami doon sa pupuntahan namin. nakakainip kaya tulog na lang.

a short baptismal ceremony was held for the baby of my cousin's sister-in-law. after that, we went straight to their house and ate lunch. it was all Filipino dishes and just by thinking about it makes my mouth water. sarap e. haha.

"Malapit na ang Vigan dito. mga 38 kms na lang. gusto niyo magpunta?"

and we did.

first time naming lahat sa Vigan kaya talagang masaya at para kaming mga turista dahil lahat kami naka-nganga sa lahat ng makita namin. super duper coolness yung plaza nila kasi yung mga Mcdo at Chowking establishments naka-pattern parin sa old houses sa Vigan.

ang daming kalesa...at pupu ng Kabayo. haha. :p I was thrilled to be walking in the middle of those really old houses! dream ko talaga na makapunta don. ang saya lang ng feeling na naglalakad don. Very nostalgic. :)

and oooohh..we tried the famous Vigan empanada. aydyosko. please. YOU HAVE TO GO THERE AND TRY TO EAT AS MUCH EMPANADA AS YOU CAN. panalo e. I wasn't able to eat much though, tikim lang talaga because I was already sooooo full. tsk. ang sarap sobra. mainit pa siya once you order it, tapos sa labas lang kayo kakain, sa may plaza. a good recommendation is that you eat the Vigan Emapanada with an ice-cold Coke or Sprite. chong, trust me. haha. the best yun!

After Vigan, off we went to Baguio! :D yes dear friends, it was tiring. my bum and lower back was killing me because of the many hours sitting down and doing nothing. I had fun with my two cute pamangkins Sherynne and Sherdonne. sobrang mga bibong bata! sobrang love ko yung dalawang yun. They kept on bugging me to play with them or to carry them or just be with them. It's actually a really good feeling. super sweet e. :) Kanta pa sila ng kanta ng Hari ng Sablay!! haha lafftrip! :p

Mana sa tita Gem ang dalawa kasi sobrang camwhores din sila! they want to have their pictures taken all the time! nakakatuwa kasi rocker na rocker ang mga posing nila. haha. the rocker sign says it all. :p

oooh. We even visited my other Tito's family before we went down. I have this new born pamangkin, Menchui. :) suuuuppppeerrr kamukha ng Mom, Tito Roger and my late Tita I! hahaha. three in one nga. super cute!!! kakagigil! :D

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Crush-ness.

okay. Now is the time to gush and rant about the guy i've been crushing on for the whole of first sem. I was supposed to be with him last Monday but for some unknown reason, I didn't. Bigla na lang naglaho. Hindi nagpakita. Of course I couldn't blame him. My monday sucked because I waited three f*cking days and then *poof* sorry Gem, you didn't see him.

nyehe.

pero nakita ko siya nung tuesday, kahapon and today. I hope I can be with him tomorrow. *crosses fingers* please. Let me be with him.

a really funny-weird thing happened yesterday. I know that I don't see him every Wednesdays because...I just don't see him. haha. Soc and I was walking along Miguel on the way to SJ Walk when I said to her, "Soc, sana makita ko siya. Lord please, sana makita ko siya. *insert name here*, Apparition!!!" Natawa pa si Soc sa mga handmovements ko before asking God to make her see his crush as well.

nang biglang...

"oh no oh no oh no..Gem Geeeeeem. ayan ayan siya. yung sayo. si *insert name here* naka-orange! sa harap! ayuuun!"

shit shit shit shit.

and there he was. walking the other way.

shit shit shit shit.

and I almost fainted.

NOT.

:p

Soc, being the best friend that she is said to me, "tara Gem, habulin natin! tingnan natin kung anong klase niyaaaaaa!" We ran after him and ran after him and ran after him..inside, outside the building and up the stairs..."grabe Gem kung bigla na lang maglaho nanaman tong crush mo, ewan ko na. Multo na yan!"...pero hindi siya naglaho. Andon siya sa isa sa mga classroom, writing on a sheet of paper. All of his gorgeous glory, writing away. *sighs*

nyak.

but he was alone. wala siyang katabi. left or right. wala. hindi ko alam kung malulungkot ako e, dahil wala siyang kasama at kausap. pero naisip ko, okay na din siguro yun kesa naman may mga babae siyang kausap at nagtatawanan sila.

oo. nasa stage na ako na nagseselos na ako sa mga babaeng kumakausap sa kanya. i'm sorry.

kelan kaya?

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Bonding.

Bonding kami ni Katkatkat sa text nung mga nakaraang araw. Super saya. Parang magkasama na kaming naguusap. Parang face to face na rin kasi sobrang hahaba ng mga exchanges namin ng messages at sobrang damang dama ang lahat ng mga sinasabi.

hindi ko din talaga alam kung bakit parang ang tagal tagal na naming magkakilala (isama na rin si other kambal ng tadhana, Lee).

Ang sarap lang magkaroon ng kaibigang tunay at hindi mapanghusga. I'm still thankful that at least, there are still good people around. You just have to pick the right ones. *kindat*

ayus? ayus!

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Himala?

Walang Himala...o meron? hindi ko din alam.

Kinausap niya ako. Biglaan. Kulang na lang siguro ihampas ko ang ulo ko sa pader ng sampung beses para malaman kong hindi ako nananaginip. Sa panaginip ko na lang talaga kasi nagagawang makausap siya. Hindi na nga ako umaasang kausapin pa niya ako muli o di kaya'y tratuhin lang bilang isang mabuting kaibigan. tapos na akong umasa, mabuti na lang ding ganon kesa masaktan lang ako dahil sa mga ipinapakita niyang hindi magandang pagtrato sa akin...

But that person actually talked to me. it wasn't small talk at all. It was actually a true freaking conversation and the really really really weird thing about is was that this person was the first one who came up to me, said hi and well..started the whole conversation.

excuse me pero tangina. tangina talaga. SAAN NANGGALING YUN!?

i've actually prayed for this to happen but i never expected it. parang wala lang, i wanted God to know na nahihirapan ako. Alam ko naman kasi na hindi mababago ang isang ugali ng tao e. Unless siya ang gumawa talaga ng paraan at ma-realize niya.

ewan ko.

It wasn't much of a big deal. It wasn't a 30 minute talk or something but it was one of the longest ever conversations I had with that person and it was the best feeling in the whole world. I wish that person knew how happy I was when that happened. To tell you honestly, the happiness I felt that time is still running through my veins till now. Siguro kasi I was always hurt everytime this person did things to ignore me or make me feel unwelcome.

Basta. this person changed alot in the past couple of months at tiniis ko yun. ininda ko lahat kahit na ang sakit sakit. I don't show it but when i'm in the car on the way home, I push back the tears and I ponder till I fall asleep. Ano ba ang ginawa ko sayo? What did I do wrong?

It made such an impact on me because I love this person so much. The love I have for this person is beyond compare. It's actually hard to explain and really hard to understand..I don't know if anyone would understand but I love this person with so much passion. Hindi lang naman siya e, merong ilan na ganon din ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanila.

...you can do whatever you want after that... (that referring to graduation)
...bye gem, take care ha?...

that person even kissed me goodnight and goodbye. that person never did that to me in a long while..wala lang it just stopped and I never knew why...

Sana hindi lang ito ang una't huling pagkakataon...

if you're good enough, you'll know. *kindat*

yoness.

2005-06-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

Ibang level na 'to.

Goodness me. I cannot take my eyes off him anymore. What am I supposed to do? I feel so helpless, so hopeless.

I made an oath to my friends.

sabi ko,

"kung maging kami talaga, o basta, meron lang mangyari sa amin, I will give up my one and only vice at mag g-gym na ako talaga, hindi na ako tatamarin. magiging super lady-like na ako. hindi na ako tatawa ng malakas. i will not stay up late for a gig if he doesn't want me to. MAG LA-LAW AKO PARA SA KANYAAAAAA!"

at seryoso ako.

ganon ko siya ka-gusto. I will do almost anything that he wants me to do. I will not be a stubborn little ass make life for him or for others miserable. I will be a good law-abiding citizen and even teach myself to COOK for him. I will do the laundry everytime. I will watch movies him every single time, since he likes movies most especially the ones with *censored kasi feeling ko binabasa niya to*. I know he does. kahit na paulit ulit pa yung movie na papanoorin namin, okay lang.

if he likes to be quiet and just sits there with me, that is prefectly fine.
as much as possible hindi ko sya aawayin, kahit na galit na galit na ako. hindi ako magpapaka-Rambo para sa kanya.
I will try my best to reach the "wave length" of his friends. kahit na yung isa talaga, sobrang irita ako.
I will take every insult, every hurtful words thrown at me by his friends or family members.

kakayanin ko kung gusto niya na magusap kami sa telepono ng 10 hours straight kahit nagkita na kami bago siya tumawag. kaya kong intindihin lahat.

at kaya kong pagtawanan lahat ng isinulat ko sa taas pagkatapos ng apat na taon...

with or without him reading it beside me.

haay. nakita ko siya kanina. :D haha. tinignan niya ako una. haha babaw. :p

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ang bandang STONEFREE.

it may not be that publicized but Stonefree's full-length album is already OUT OUT OUT! :D the album is entitled Hibiscus and it includes 13 tracks with 2 bonus piano and acoustic versions of Kapag Nawala Ka and Listen respectively.

if you like Stonefree and you still DON'T have the album...hala ka. you're really missing out alot. kaya ano pang hinihintay kasi? :p

and oh, I got my album in O Music in Rockwell, so most probably Tower Records already has the album too! :)

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Hale's schedule.

jam-packed sobra ang Hale for the remaining days of June and the whole of month of July. shoot. can I still get them to play on July 6 in La Salle? I already told Champ about it and he still doesn't know if they can make it. As far as I can see the newly updated schedule, they don't have any schedule on the 6th. Hapon naman din yun. I hope they still can. tons of people are looking forward for that!!!

*prays*

anyhoo, if you guys want to know the schedule, here it is..

JUNE

June 23 Thurs. In-store promo Tower Makatil, 6pm
Thurs. Rock-o-logy, NU 107, St. Sco Mla., 8pm
June 24 Fri. Campus gig (c/o U.P. student council)
U.P.Eng., Diliman
Fri. Smart gig, Baywalk, near Aristocrat
June 25 Sat. June Jive 2005,
Sta. Cruz, Laguna
June 26 Sun. TV Guesting ASAP or SOP (TBC)
June 29 Wed. Regular gig Dish, Abs-Cbn
June 30 Thurs. Regular gig w/ 6 Cycle Mind
Gasoline Alley, 9pm

JULY

July 1 Fri. Mall Promo Tour SM Bacoor, 4pm
Fri. U.P. gig, U.P. Diliman
July 2 Sat. Mall Promo Tour SM Cebu, 5pm
July 3 Sun. Mall Promo Tour SM Iloilo, 5pm
July 8 Fri. Mall Promo Tour SM Pampanga
Fri. Bar gig Malolos, Bulacan, 10pm
July 9 Sat. Mall Promo Tour SM Southmall, 4pm
Sat. OPM Crossroads, PARI gig
Eastwood city walk, 9pm
July 12 Tue. Pump Mag Launch NBC Tent
July 14 Thurs. Bar gig Saguijo, 10pm
July 15 Fri. Mall Promo Tour SM North Edsa, 5pm
July 16 Sat. Mall Promo Tour SM Fairview, 5pm
July 17 Sun. Mall Promo Tour SM Baguio, 5pm
July 21 Thurs. Bar gig Virgin Cafe
July 22 Fri. Mall Promo Tour Robinsons Galleria,
4pm
Fri. Meg Anniv. Party Loft, Rockwell, 9pm
July 23 Sat. Mall Promo Tour Robinsons Sta.
Rosa, Laguna, 5pm
July 27 Wed. Bar gig Ratski Morato
July 28 Thurs. LSFM campus tour Mapua Univ.
July 30 Sat. Private Party
July 31 Sun. Mall Promo Tour SM Cagayan de
Oro, 5pm

hectic! I hope they boys are in tip-top shape. wawa naman if they get sick along the way. hassle yun.

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JR and his kind words.

naks. Jr and his kind words. haha. we chatted a couple of hours ago and left such a sapul message that got me thinking hard.

manueljr_deguzman: o cge ingat
manueljr_deguzman: don't fall too hard
manueljr_deguzman: masakit pag lumagpak sa lupa....

eh? was I already head over feet with he-who-must-not-be-named (Rowling, 2001)?

I knew JR meant well, but the thing is, why did it hurt? Is it because I know that in the end of all this, I will, as always, end up face first on the ground? eeegaaahd. why do I have to deal with this over and over again. nakakapagod. hah.

But I know JR, my Brother One loves me to pieces. He doesn't want to get hurt...again. aaww. i love you JR! :D
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Siblings.

Dina, a new acquaintance, literally thought Jal and I were siblings. hahaha. oh yes. :p She was like, "you're Jal's younger sister right?" totally gobsmacked, I said no politely and told her it was okay if she did mistake me for being Jal's little sister. No harm done anyways. I like being called a little sister. that means i look really young. naks. hahaha. kidding. :D

ah wala. KUYA na to eh! hahaha! :)

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Balikbayan.

a really close friend of mine will be visiting us in Manila for a couple of weeks. damnit. I haven't seen Panta for 5 years now. He left for States when we were in 2nd year high school and we only got to talk through text, email and sometimes phone calls that needed an international phone card that was only dedicated to me and me alone. :)

I considered him my best friend when we were in high school. He was always there for me. He even promised me to take me to the Prom but unfortunately, he went to the States to live there..which makes me think..

kaya niya siguro sinabi na siya ang date ko sa Prom dahil alam niyang aalis na siya!? haha. gagung yun..

My barkada doesn't know what to expect of him. We'll probably give him a welcome back party or something. I missed him. We all did.

I can't wait till the calendar says JULY 1.

pepot pepot artista!

2005-06-20T21:43:00.000+08:00

Kilala niyo ba si Pepot Artista?

I know i've already mentioned this in one of my entries, but I think that publicity isn't enough for everyone to notice. So here I go again, persuading you, reader, to come and watch this fabulous independent movie by Mr. Clodualdo Del Mundo.

Here is a little something about the whole Pepot Artista story::

Pepot Artista ia a comedy-musical that focuses on a ten-year-old boy whose
dream is to become a movie star. Pepot, the dreamer, is surrounded by people
who
are equally dazzled by the movie world. The film explores the penchant
of Pinoys
for entertainment in the midst of serious social problems.

That is basically the whole concept of Pepot Artista, but of course, you have to watch the movie in order to enjoy the vintage feel and the hilarious antics of Pepot and the people around him. Besically, if I say vintage, I mean vintage 70's. The movie is actually set during the 1970s and I must say, they really did a nice job to make the movie look oh-so-old. Classic ba. :D

Movie-goers would be able to see performances by Bituin Escalante, Epi Quizon, Yoyoy Villame, Joel Torre, Nonie Buencamino, Lou Veloso, Tado, Rio Locsin, Jose Javier Reyes and many, many more! (and YES FOLKS, you have to spot LOURD DE VEYRA of Radioactive Sago Project somewhere in the middle of the movie. *wink*)

Still not satisfied? let me make you read something about the Director::

Clodualdo del Mundo Jr. holds a Ph.D. in
Communication Studies (Film) from
the University
of Iowa, and is presently the chair of the
Department of
Communication, De La Salle
University - Manila. Aside from doing
documentaries and other films and videos, del
Mundo writes screenplays.

His screenwriting
credits include: "Maynila Sa mga Kuko ng
Liwanag", "'Merika", "Aliwan Paradise in Southern
Winds", Mulanay,
"Bayaning 3rd World",
and "Markova". His most recent documentary
is
"Maid in Singapore".

Concurrently, Dr. Doy del Mundo is also the chair
of the National Commission for Culture and the
Arts - Cinema Committee
and the president of Film
Archivists, Philippines.

Pictures from the Pepot Artista friendster account::

**1st picture:: Elijah Castillo (the little cute boy who plays Pepot) and Mr. Doy del Mundo.
**2nd picture:: One of the scenes from the movie Pepot Artista. Pepot with Mr. Yoyoy Villame.
**3rd picture:: two of the supporting characters of Pepot! Sheila Mae (as Gandi) and Cedrick (as Denggoy).

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Want to join Pepot Artista's friendster account? :D

pepot_artista@yahoo.com

Now, here are the Screening Schedules at the CCP::

13 July 2005 9:30 pm CCP Studio Theater
14 July 2005 1:00 pm CCP Little Theater
17 July 2005 7:00 pm CCP Little Theater
17 July 2005 6:30 pm CCP Multi-Purpose Hall

DISCLAIMER:: I am not part of the Pepot Artista production team, not even the marketing team! I am just one of those students, who was able to catch the film and was mesmerized by the movie. Manood na kayo, if you want to see something different, something original. ;)

JUST A LITTLE TRIVIA (especially to those La Sallians who already saw the movie SPOILER!!!):: Did you know that ALMOST ALL of the scenes from Pepot Artista was shot inside DLSU-Manila?! hahaha. YES. the PERYA shots--all of it--was done in the soccer field! the "bahay" shots of Epi, Bituin and Pepot was also shot inside La Salle! :D hehe. and ooohh..notice anything familiar during the "stage play" scene (wherein Pepot played as the Lion)??? chong...WILLIAM SHAW LITTLE THEATRE yun! :p

hehe. wala lang. :)

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At Last.

I finished my requirements for the GREEN and WHITE. *phew*

Soc, Andy and I passed it before we went home. haaay. at least that's done. wala ng hassle sa mga ibang gawaing pang-eskwela. :D

We also scheduled our pictorial (naks. parang artista!) on a Saturday so that people won't stare at us while we're walking with our full muk-ap and hairdone! :p para na din hindi mukhang basura kasi walang pasok.

Hindi pa ako handa. Parang masyadong mabilis.
Should I be worried? Do I really have to feel this way? I don't feel old. I don't even feel like a college student, what more, when i'm already "working"?

yikes.

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si CRUSH.

Alam niyo, nakita ko siya kanina. Ang tagal. Ang tagal ko siyang "nakasama". Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako dahil nandon siya o malulungkot ako dahil hanggang tingin lang ang nagagawa ko. Hindi naman siguro masama kung gustuhin ko siya masyado diba? Hindi naman ako nakakasakit ng kahit sino....Siguro ako lang din ang nananakita ng sarili ko.

Ewan. Hindi ko alam pero, naranasan niyo na ba yung...

ay shet.

hindi ko kayang ituloy. hahaha. nahihiya ako. this is so not me. i swear.

tsk. papaano ba to?

what the heck. this is my blog, my world. who cares if people say i'm cheesy? hahaha. :p

Nanghihina ako. Oo, ganon. ganon yung epekto sa akin. Nanghihina ako na parang hindi ko na kayang tumayo, lumakad at magsalita pag andyan. Parang dapat andon lang ako sa kinalalagyan ko. Mahirap tumingin, mas lalo na pag nanghihina. Ang labo nga e, nanghihina na nga ako dahil nandyan siya, hindi ko parin mapigilan na hindi tumingin. hala, sige. tingin. tingin lang ng tingin.

sapul.

nahuli.

muntik na akong malunod sa kaba. potah. nahuli nanaman ako. NANAMAN.

Hindi ko naman alam kung ano ba yung meron siya na wala sa iba e.
Siguro dahil..kamukha ko siya? haha.
Sabi nila kamukha ko daw siya. Baka nga daw may psychological meaning ang pagkakagusto ko sa kanya. magkagusto daw ba naman kasi sa kamukha diba?
pero hindi ko makita kung saan.
mas maputi naman siya sa akin ngayon dahil ang itim ko dahil sa kahuyakan ko sa beach noong bakasyon. yung ekspresyon ng mukha niya, seryoso. minsan lang tumawa yun, ngumiti.
ako bungisngis talaga kahit kelan. nakatawa parati, nakangiti. pero siya, madalang lang.
pero yung madalang na yun, aysus. basta. kadire na talaga pag sasabihin ko pa yung nararamdaman ko.

"Gem, ang cute mo. ngayon lang kitang nakitang ganyan.."

nakitang ano raw? ganito?

...eh kasi. matagal naman na. yung mga nauna, parang wala. wala lang. para may masabi lang. pero eto yung, yung meron e. yung merong..nakngtokwa. basta YON. naiintindihan mo naman diba? hahaha. :p

FINALLY.

hindi ako makuntento sa mga litrato niya sa Friendster. Kailangan may mahanap akong iba. Ibang impormasyon, ibang litrato. Para naman makilala ko siya ng husto. Nakailang search ako ng pangalan niya sa kung ano anong search engine, kung ano ano naman ang lumalabas. puro tungkol sa *censored kasi mahuhulaan kaagad*.

siguro sabi ni God, "O ayan na nga, i-search mo dyan para tumahimik na ang loob mo, at para maging masaya ka naman. ilang beses ka ng nasasaktan ng isang tao dyan e..."

siguro nga ganon. at jaraaaaaaan. sandamakmak na pictures ang nakita ko! :D ilang minuto din akong naghalungkat ng mga litrato. at wooooow.

...at yun lang ang nasabi ko hanggang sa nakita ko lahat.

waw. ;p

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Fete de la Musique.

My experience at Fete was a first of firsts. it was my first time to go to the said event, my first time to slug it out with such a humongous crowd, the first time to be in the middle of a moshpit AND my very first time of not being able to take pictures of Sugarfree while they played.

I was with my bestbud Bona the whole night and we simply couldn't hide our melange of emotions when we were there. We couldn't stop laughing at ourselves for being such dorkos or because we both saw someone really funny (pun intended) or trying to act cool but slammed his or her way through loserville.

We got scared because there were tons and tons of creepy people everywhere (no pun intended here), people slamming there way through the stage, or people wearing only their underwear and a gasmask...or something like a really long kumot over his head and around his body...OR men throwing other men in the air just for kicks (i guess).

Bona and I kept on nudging each other if some really cute *ahemahem* guy passes by. Gorgeous men really stood out in the crowd of sweaty, black-clad men and fantabulous haristyles (i.e. Mohawks). Bona was like, "Geeeeeem, tangena ang daming gwaaaaapoooo!" I couldn't have said it better than her. :p

Hale brought the house down. the Alternative stage in Podium was jampacked with different kind of people from all walks of life. I saw men, women, boys and girls, kids, teens, yuppies, middle-aged people, rockers, posers, regular people, blahblahblah. All I know was that everyone came to see Hale..err Champ? perform.

hanep talaga. I wonder what the boys felt when hundreds and hundreds of people were singing their songs?? They..err, we were all waving our hands up in the air and just singing our hearts out and didn't really care if we sang it properly or not. Maybe it was such a really invigorating experience that they can't even explain how they felt at that time. If I were in their place, I would also feel the same way.

Weird how the true rakers were able to slam their way through The Day You Said Goodnight. ang galing e. with matching basket toss pa yun at wave of the banner.

I fell in love with Juan Pablo Dream in Fete!!! tsk. who has some mp3s of the band? haha. I want one for my iTunes! texted Toti to ask him about any EP/Album and told me it was going to be out in September. huwat? I CANNOT WAIT for september, man. kahit isa lang...i'm going to buy their album anyways. I just need something to sustain for the couple of months till the album's out. please! anyooonnneee!

Went backstage at the Rock. Picked up by daddy Sam since it was total riot everywhere. I even saw the one and only Pepe Smith!! goosebumps. I enjoyed the music of Itchyworms while we were backstage and when the Brockas took centerstage, all hell broke lose. "Gem, nakita mo ba? nakahubad siya...as in hubad talaga." Mitch told me a couple of minutes after he peeked at the performers on stage. Hindi. Hindi ko nakita, I was supposed to but decided not to since I can actually see myself stunned and gobsmacked if ever I did see it, but I didn't..so....

Sugarfree played 2 songs and just enjoyed looking at Mitch's feet tapping happily away in the little peephole backstage. I even entertained myself by looking under the stage and seeing all those bodies swaying, jumping and slamming their way to Rock haven.

I never felt so shocked and happy at the same time and i've experienced that in Fete. I enjoyed it, although I knew we were lucky nothing happened to me and Bona. Will I ever slug it out again next year? well, maybe. maybe not. :)

whoa whoa

2005-06-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

Whoa. Stop muna.

sabing stop muna e!

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Apat na linggo na akong pumapasok sa eskwela. Dapat sa ika-apat na linggo, wala pa masyadong ginagawa, pa-banjingbanjing. pa-petikpetik. heh. Yun ang akala ko--akala naming lahat.

aba'y hindi naman din kami masyadong tambak sa trabaho diba??????

view one.

view two.

rawr.

Sabi nga nila, madaming namamatay sa maling akala. siguro nga totoo yun, kasi kung hindi pa kami gumagawa ng paraan para mag-adjust at talagang itama na ng wasto ang paguutak namin, ay malamang, wala na'to. Lunod na lunod na kami sa trabaho.

ngayon pa nga lang lunod na kami.

Mahirap pala pag unang term sa pinaka-huling taon mo sa La Salle. Lahat kasi paspasan. mabilisan lahat. go go go ika nga nila. Hindi lang kasi go go go sa pag-pasa ng mga reports at pagbabasa ng mga libro, may isa pang dumagdag na dapat namin i-go go go.

at yun ay ang Green & White yearbook para sa batch '06.
talagang walang pakundangan e.
biruin mo naman, kakabigay lang, deadline na ng college namin sa Sabado.

hindi ko pa nga nakakalahati ang requirements para dito!

kailangan daw di-umano ang mga sumusunod::

+80 words na description ng sarili mo. soft at hard copy.
+magbayad agad. full nga ba o partial payment?
+tatlong 3r o 4r na iba pang picture maliban sa naka-toga ka.
+10 word caption para sa tatlong litrato na ito.
+1x1 picture para sa information sheet.
+i-encode sa diskette ang mga information
+fill-up-an ang OR receipt number sa likod ng info sheet pagkatapos magbayad.
+ilagay din ang OR receipt number sa diskette.
+at madami pang iba.

at sa sabado na ang deadline niyan.
malamang hindi nanaman ako half-day bukas.

kasi, kailangan pa naming gawin ang mga sumusunod::

- Concept Paper para sa Metres 2. wala pa kaming masyadong references.
-Ipasa ang SMS form.
-mag interpret at mag-score ng Otis and Lennon Test
-magbayad ng 180 pesos para sa ITEO testing for Psycho 1.

unang grrrr...

eheh.

ito ang kadalasang nangyayari sa akin sa nakaraang linggo...

nadidismaya pa naman ako. ang daming masasayang gawin sa net! nakita niyo na ba ang bagong MULTIPLY.COM ngayon?? ang ganda diba! pwede ng mag-upload ng music at videos! hindi ko na kailangan pang maghanap ng streaming para sa mga videos na gusto kong ipakita at i-share sa madaming tao. ;D

...yun nga lang...masyadong madaming ginagawa. basta pagkatapos lang ng pagpasa ng Green and White requirements, maluwag na ulit ang schedule ko.

Kung wala lang yung inspirasyon ko sa eskwela, edi nag-iiiyak na ako ngayon.

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Nakita ko nga pala siya kanina.

nung una, mag-isa. tapos nung pagkita ko ulit may kasama na. sa totoo lang, naiirita ako doon. basta doon, sa kanya. May pakiramdam ako, siya ang nagsasabi sa kanya ng lahat. Hindi naman niya siguro mapapansin ang lahat kung hindi nagdadaldal etong si mokong sa kanya.

tama si Soc, dapat siyang iwasan. tseh.

Okay lang naman na malaman niya...err. hindi. okay lang na, makaramdam siya. basta wag lang akong iiritahin nun. Kasi hindi naman ako sa kanya may gusto e. nakakainis.

pangalawang grrrr...

pero wow yung crush ko kanina. WOW talaga. as in woooooooooow. :D

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Soc gave me something awhile ago in school. aaaww. I have it in my phone. ang saya. She knows what it is and I want to thank her for making such a sweet effort of giving it to me. :)

salamat Soc, mahal kita. :)

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Nanuod kami ng Pepot Artista kanina sa Velasco.

ang ganda. wala akong masabi kundi ang ganda ng istorya, pagkakagawa at pag-arte ng mga gumanap.

star-studded pa. :)

ang galing ni Sir Del Mundo.

Hindi ko alam na ganon pala kagaling yun. Kinausap ko pa naman siya dati, bago ako pumasok ng La Salle. Gusto ko kasing mag-transfer agad papuntang Comm. Arts at siya ang Dean. One on One talk kami. Na-intimidate ako. Nakakatakot kasi siya e, mukhang strikto pero mabait siya sa akin. Pinabalik niya ako after a term ata, at ipakita ko daw sa kanya ang mga grado ko. Hindi na ako bumalik. Nakita ko na ang mga tunay kong kaibigan kaya nag-enjoy na ako. :)

Ipapalabas nga pala ang Pepot Artista sa CCP. mga 2 weeks ata siya ipalalabas. DALI DALI PUNTA KAYO! Independent film siya kung saan itinatampok ang isang batang nangangarap maging isang artista noong dekada 70s. may mga twist and turns sa storya. funny siya and it touches the heart of every Filipino. :)

sisikat ka din, Pepot. sisikat ka din.

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nagdadaldal nanaman ako.

ilang oras lang nanaman ako matutulog.

sana lahat ng ginagawa kong sakripisyo, sana naman mapalitan kahit na konting ligaya.

alam na Niya yun.

...konting tulong lang. :D